06 Sep, 2010 11:55 AMThis pain is killing me.
This eternal sadness that looms over me.
This black cloud that wont go away.
I found a way to get through the pain.
By just inflicting more.
I take this blade
and drag it over my flesh.
This blade takes my sorrow.
This blade takes my fear.
This blade will take my life.
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Tags:
Suffering,
Blood,
PainVotes: 221868
10 May, 2010 06:38 PMsometimes i feel like i'm dead
a part of me gone
when i am i wish i was with the living
but when i am, i want to be dead
i want to feel numb
and what the doctor gave me helped
but it wasn't right
so i haven't used it in over a year
but i want it back
it helped me coop
but it made my heart sting
so i'll live like i'm dead
i guess
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Depressed,
SufferingVotes: 021363
30 Aug, 2010 01:37 PMWhy am I hated for being me?
A question I can not answer!
The hate that I receive is mostly from my family!
They do not understand or accept the way I am!
They think that its my fault for every little thing.
These feelings I have,
Were not a choice!
I did not ask for them, nor did I ever want them!
Why would I choose a life of hardness?
Why would I choose a life that I know you all don't understand?
Why would I choose a life that makes me hate my body everyday?
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Tags:
Lonely,
Lost,
SufferingVotes: 321288
19 Nov, 2012 09:00 AMIt'll be dim…
All I've known is the dark,
It swallows me like a shark.
Am I the predator or the prey,
I'll never find out with each passing day.
I wish I was never born,
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Tags:
Suffering,
Missing,
HopeVotes: 420826
21 Mar, 2013 12:41 PMI wish i could tell how i really feel,
But now its too late and i cant heal.
Can't you even pretend to love me?
Why is it her that you only see?
I tried everything just to lie,
And now i'm alone left to die.
You don't know how how happy i was,
When you told me my life's real cause.
Then i started to like you more,
It didn't take long for my heart to soar.
All i wanted was to be with you,
But soon i realized that nothing was true.
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Tags:
Lost Love,
Suffering,
Betrayal,
TearsVotes: 120718
18 Nov, 2011 08:26 PMpeople don't see the real me,
they only see the side i want them to see.
if people saw the real me,
the true me,
i think they would be scared or
they will think I'm crazy
the real me is a depressed 21 year old
girl who thinks about suicide all the time,
a girl with so many insecurities.
the real me is a person who is
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Tags:
Unloved,
Suffering,
AloneVotes: 720611
25 Sep, 2011 03:20 PMleft alone
to defend herself
all she wants
is someones help
no one can hear her
she screams for her life
always tortured
now he's forced her to fight
hes so cruel
and he's made her believe
that she is so worthless
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Tags:
Pain,
SufferingVotes: 919861
23 Jul, 2014 01:37 AMOver my deepest flesh
There is something I hide behind my smile
Ever since my sufferings started...
At First its too hard to pretend
that everything's alright and I taught that
if I can't manage to keep these thing inside
everything will be remain miserable...
My faith,hope,love or even everything I own
will eventually void by these thing and
turn everything in to guilt and hatred
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Tags:
Revenge,
Darkness,
Hatred,
Pain,
SufferingVotes: 718624
01 Aug, 2011 08:25 AMEven with scars
Their still wondering,
looking through their cars to my sorrow of sleeves in summer.
To take the memories...
and trash them.
Put them aside for yourself.
no one else will see them or the pain you've been through,
For no more worries,
but i still continue to do scars.
so now, i shall only keep them to myself with the pain and memories.
Looking out the window i realize something...
then thought to myself..
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Tags:
Pain,
SufferingVotes: 416941
04 Mar, 2015 12:43 AMI'm sorry I'm not a perfect daughter
I'm sorry all my mind does is slaughter
I'm sorry I never listened to the hopes you gave
I'm sorry I was never that brave
You needed better than me
I just needed someone to see
My life has fallen away from my grip
All I can do now is kiss his lips
I'm sorry I never tried
I'm sorry I only cried
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Tags:
Regret,
Sadness,
Sorrow,
SufferingVotes: 016569