08 Jun, 2016 09:35 AM
Feeling alone now more than ever,
wishing you were here right next to me,
my heart is beating so uncontrollably
my eyes are tearing í can't control it.
I miss you mom,
I miss you now,
I miss you always.
I never thought that you being gone would've been so painful.
I never thought of you leaving me not for a minute not for a while.
I always thought of us forever,
Tags: Lost Love
, Broken Heart
, MissingVotes: 13
22 Sep, 2016 08:22 PM
There's monsters in my head,
there's monsters in my mind.
Thought they were helping,
thank you so much for being kind.
I've been shattered and battered,
my body abused and splattered.
New mamma hates me,
even wishes she didn't create me.
New mamma's taking pills,
real daddy's not here right now.
Tags: Self Harm
, PainVotes: 0
09 Feb, 2016 05:12 PM
I had to block out the thought of you,
So I don't lose my head,
You never get in touch with me,
Even though I'm the one who wanted space.
Hate me today,
Hate me tomorrow,
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.
I've been sober for three months now,
That's one accomplishment you helped me with.
, HateVotes: 0
18 Aug, 2015 07:08 AM
She was going away from me,
i was fading away like breath,
it was a total break of heart,
i was holding every single piece of it,
i even cant hold her hand,
i even cant say her name,
i even cant look her into eyes,
i was falling from the multiple skies,
just wanna say good bye to you,
my eyes are dying to see you too,
you never broke up with me anyways,
we left each other while we still holding our hands!!
, Broken Heart
, Sad Love
, Self HarmVotes: -10
04 Mar, 2015 12:43 AM
I'm sorry I'm not a perfect daughter
I'm sorry all my mind does is slaughter
I'm sorry I never listened to the hopes you gave
I'm sorry I was never that brave
You needed better than me
I just needed someone to see
My life has fallen away from my grip
All I can do now is kiss his lips
I'm sorry I never tried
I'm sorry I only cried
, SufferingVotes: -1
08 Nov, 2014 07:38 AM
I know that it's bound to happen
That when the news is eventually brought to their attention
They'll take a second glance at who they WERE, who they COULD have been
It'll be an awakening moment of what they SHOULD have done
But they never would
Not without what had already happened
It's just the fact of life that we all have to live with
Or is it?
Why isn't empathy more empathized?
, Best Friend
, ConfusionVotes: 5
27 Oct, 2014 03:23 AM
Is it so hard to decipher the poorly encrypted code placed on my face?
"I'm tired" "I'm just tired" "I'm fine, I'm just fucking tired"
Is this so believable that you're left with nothing to inquire?
Or is there something less forming, some lack of desire?
The thoughts in my head are swarming, that no one is caring.
I always get left behind, there's just me being lonely and alone.
"It's OK, I'm really fine. It's just hard to sleep when I'm at home."
Just a second glance, it's all that I ask.
I'm at the brink of tears, I need some help before my skin tears.
, DepressionVotes: 18
03 Oct, 2014 05:56 AM
She smells like the sands of time
And is funny without ever being mean
I know that she's a dime
But I can't stop this feeling
I got my bottle of Jack
Then there's a sudden bleeding
In this abrasive room of black
I create a certain kind of seeing
Maybe I should care
, Letting Go
, DarknessVotes: 3
07 Mar, 2014 06:27 PM
i want to die,
but you curse me to live.
for every drop of blood that hits the floor,
a tear falls from your sore eyes.
every time I close my eyes, you scream to me, ordering me to live,
but when I open my eyes. you're gone.
so I close my eyes again, listening to your screams, one last time. before I open my eyes.
I know what awaits me when I open my eyes.
I'm back to the same empty room,
once filled with joy and god memories.
but it's all in the past.
, PastVotes: 6
11 Mar, 2014 11:48 PM
The problem persists from the very roots of our existence
It was not created nor founded
Like a shadow, it is there always, foreboding in resistance
My family is some sort of crude disease purged upon the planet
I can feel it
In my traits
How I walk
The very way I act
A constant numbness
Passed from gene to gene, down to the very atom
, UnlovedVotes: 3