At the age of 12, I remember when it all started. I believe it was some time in September when a long time friend of my sister, payed a visit. I didn't really mind him coming over, for I didn't pay much attention to him and my sister's actions. As the night progressed, I noticed they took frequent trips to the bathroom and repetitively kept rubbing their noses. I approached my sister's friend, Carlos, and asked about the situation. He just laughed, and I asked if they were doing cocaine. He replied; "Yeah, do you wanna try some?" At first, I was hesitant. Growing up, I was taught that drugs were bad, so I didn't want any part in it. Later, my curiosity got the best of me and I agreed to do a line. He set it up in the bathroom, and handed me a dollar bill as he... [Read More]
Tags: Addiction, Abuse, Drugs, Sex, Suicide, Hurt, Depressed, Lost, Sad, Life, PainBen stood on the cliff. He stared at the cold water, splashing through the gentle moonlight. He taught " Maybe If I jump off, I would not feel all this pain. Maybe If I jump off I will be a just nothing and I would not feel anything." Tears fell on his cheeks. "My whole life, I felt like I am just a trash and just a waste that needs to be segregated. When I was born, I didn't even have the chance to meet my father. My mother told me that they were separated and that I cannot see my father. Every day, I envy all the kids which was saying the words "Papa". Even sometimes, when parents are invited to a program at our school, I envy my classmates saying "Which one will I choose Mommy, or Daddy." Second, my mother always expect me to be the top... [Read More]
Tags: God, Depression, Not Giving Up, Sadness, Moving On, LifeSome people are born lucky to enjoy their love life but some people are not. In my teen age, I was in love with my neighbor who was happened to be my schoolmate also. People say falling in love is itself a matter of good luck. But it was not true in my case. Most of my time, I used to pass in her sweet company .we were so involved that years passed by very swiftly .once we overheard our moms talking about our marriage. So we were happy that we would be going to pass our rest of life together. Time drifted on we became more familiar with each other .I learnt that she had a lot of habits and traits like me. I loved everything about her like her habits, her incredible faith in god. When she was with me, life was beautiful and useful. We were so... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Life, Lonely, UnlovedMemories fill my head as i look at a picture of us at the lake. Do you remember that day? The day you told me you loved me.. The day you said we'd b together forever. I should have known it was to good to be true.Cause no one is as good as you. You were perfect.The man every girl wanted. I remember the day you walked away like it just happened. You held my hand and walked to the lake. You said that you couldn't do this anymore.That it wasn't working. You look away and let go of my hand. I turn away from you.. In shock... You walk away..And don't look back. You didn't care if i was ok or not. Tears fill my eyes and my throat begins to burn. I cant seem to learn. I still miss you. The memories hurt. But I dont want to... [Read More]
Tags: Memories, Life, Love, Hurt, SadI don't know anymore. I thought i had at least some idea of what will happen in life. Now i am starting to come to the realization that i have no clue or idea of what will happen, or what is happening in life, in my life. The obvious is there. I know exactly what is happening with that. It's nothing new, the old, study, get a degree, get a job, and bla bla, but what i don't know anymore is the purpose of my life, the purpose of me loving anyone. the purpose of me even trying to genuinely love a girl. If i have learned anything from my love life, meaning girls i have liked or had a crush on, it is that if you ever like someone genuinely they will not like you back, they will get bored, or something will happen to make them leave you.... [Read More]
Tags: Life, Love, Lesson, Goals, Don't Give UpOkay here's my story. I went to this new school. At first everyone there seemed so nice. The first person who first talked to me was franchesca. Then alyssa,tammy, and then julia who later became my best friends. I thought that we would be best friends because we all had this connection that made us get along so well. But that doesn't always happen. But let me fast forward unless you wanna here about crappy schoolwork. Then one day franchesca had to leave the school. It was a sad day I mean everyone was crying. But franchesca and alyssa were like super close. The closest in our little group. Anyway then me and alyssa got to sit next to each other in English,social studies,science,math,homeroom, and gym. So we started to become close. But then she started to become a little to nice I guess so she started being rude to... [Read More]
Tags: Friends, Love, LifeI literally will be all alone......forever. Me I am the cheerful kind person everyone loves except some people don't see me like that. I have a lot of friends because I study people and then act like their ideal person. I'm not pretending. Each person I act like is just another part of me. Though I always regret it in the end because when I act like myself they think I'm acting weird. I get sad when they look up what our names mean and it shows the exact description of the TRUE me in the middle of all those other ones because when they see it they say its the exact opposite of me or its nothing like me. People pretend they know me all the time when they really don't. I just smile and agree but what they also don't know is I'm a great actress too. Incident... [Read More]
Tags: Death, Depression, Heart Break, Lifedrip, drop, drip, drop. I watch as the rain falls outside my window, growing slightly bored. The TV is on in the background, MTV is on. I look around my room, thinking, day dreaming, pointing out how messy it is, and how i should get up and do it. But I don't feel up to it, just like I don't feel up to doing anything. Hi I'm Charlie, a 15 year old girl, waiting for her life to get better, cause as everyone says, it gets worse only to get better, but so far it hasn't happened. I deal with depression, social anxiety, and Like many people, I think way too much. My phone dings, notifying me of a new message, and no it's not from a friend, i don't have anymore of those. But it's from my mother. Mom-Hey hun, not gonna be home tonight, your brother has a... [Read More]
Tags: Life, Love, Nothing, Annoying, HurtsAll through my life up until now, I've controlled how to express my emotions, not because I didn't feel them, I felt them very deeply, but I certainly suppressed my inferiority and discontentment. Being a poor kid, I knew how to pretend I wasn't hungry, to act like I wasn't cold when I was freezing , and to feel like people?s words didn't hurt just because my state didn't give me the liberty to complain. My young heart was screaming up to the top of my lungs but words seemed hesitant to come out. I was mum as if the feeling never exist. There were several moments in my past life that my pride was confronted and had to convince myself to understand and give pardon although I knew things weren't right. I was tired of this negative emotion and I felt so dissatisfied. My fierce motivated me. They provoked... [Read More]
Tags: Life, Inspiration, Sad Story, FamilyI'm 14 years old. Live with a family of four. Mom, dad and my brother. Sure we fight like normal families do, but we are totally normal. A loving family, could not ask for more. In school I'm popular, tons of friends, OK grades. Girls come pretty easy, but I'm only interested in one. But back to her later. Two years ago I was going into 7th grade. Which means I would be turning 13. I cant tell you much more about those days because honestly I cant remember them for the life of me..the life of me..how that's changed....Anyways, that summer I lost a very close friend. I used to live next to her when I lived in California, some years ago. I was txting her and about 2 hours after we stopped talking I got a call from her brother Brandon. He told me something I couldn't register.... [Read More]
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