24 May, 2016 01:03 PMShe sits in the shower letting it steam up in past and present future,
Wondering if she will ever be forgiven.
She does not know how to forgive herself, nor others,
But hopes she can.
Years of torture for herself causing herself her own harm based upon her issues.
No One listening to hear her scream from the inside out.
Best friends move on at the wrong time in her life.
She is left with nothing.
Hours pass by sitting in the shower,
Crying and sobbing over something that’s tormented her for years
Thinking whether or not she could get the courage to ask for forgiveness.
But instead few more hours still in shower it turns cold.
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Tags:
Shower,
Depression,
Friends,
Death,
SuicideVotes: 317859
29 Jun, 2013 01:57 AMIts about to be rain
its about to be storming
Now I'm watching my blood pouring
My tears are falling
My lungs are caving in
maybe this will be the last time I will breathe again
As I gaze at the blade
A thousand memories flash back to me
As I glide the razor across my sin
I pray " dear lord forgive my sin"
Feeling my crimson blood drip down my pallid flesh
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Depressed,
Pain,
SuicideVotes: 817845
08 Jun, 2014 06:22 AMRunning running running
Away from all the fears
Away from the cruelness and the jeering
Trying to not succumb to your tears
How can you keep living
Amongst the cruelty of your peers? The thoughts make you start quivering
The weight of people's stares
Your life is a living Hell
The pain too much to bear
You've tried to live your life well
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Tags:
Suicide,
Depression,
Death,
PainVotes: 417730
13 Dec, 2014 10:56 AMWritten on my arms, lays a story left untold
Enfolding me in sin; I'm breathless and alone
I stand in a lifeless world, surrounded by cold
Unforgiven and broken by your heart of stone
Written on my arms, lays a story left unspoken
Enfolding me in darkness, leaving me scared and alone
I stand in a careless world, I am left broken
Unforgiven and shattered by your heart of stone
Written on my arms with blood, is my life's fear
Enfolding me in lies, leaving me helpless and alone
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Tags:
Enfold,
Tale,
Untold,
Scars,
Suicide,
DepressionVotes: 517714
01 Jun, 2017 04:43 PMshe dug the blade into her skin
lost was all but the love within
the passion between two lovers so dear
would soon be nothing but hidden by fear
to this day the blood still stains
pouring down like velvet rains
take an angel away
and leave the sinner who swore he'd stay
so gone is as gone does
i love that girl for who she was
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Tags:
Depressing,
Sad,
Selfharm,
Suicide,
DarkVotes: 517630
02 Oct, 2014 06:40 AMAs day turns to night
And that smiles starts to fade
All the pain she tries to hide
Comes to face.
As winter turns to fall
Faces start to dissipate
All the tears come to play.
As she lays with her face in the pillow,
Cries those mournful tears
She can't help but think of suicide,
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Tags:
Sad,
Depression,
Death,
SuicideVotes: 817494
06 Dec, 2015 10:27 PMOh the anguish I have suffered
Lamenting, hurting, dying inside knowing what I did to you
Knowing my cruelty is what did this to you
Both you and I know what I did to hurt you so
But please don't hate me
I promise I didn't mean to
You were my foundation
Everything I know and love is because of you
And even when you left me
You had everything set up so I would become successful
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Tags:
Guilt,
Death,
Suicide,
FamilyVotes: 616794
15 Jul, 2011 07:30 AMThe knife upon which I so strongly hold,
The grave thoughts race as I was told,
Within so deep I wish to penetrate,
Feelings have come as I begin to shake,
The lives I've spent and taken away,
Will all be repaid in this mournful way,
These hands of mine grip oh so tight,
The closing eye see such a beautiful light,
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Tags:
Death,
SuicideVotes: 416656
14 Mar, 2015 08:23 AMI sit and stare
But the mirror just glares
Is this real
Or do I dare
Pick up the blade
From wich I took
I sign in blood
In my new book
I promise to
Remain true
That today I swear
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Tags:
Suicide,
Death,
SadnessVotes: 516642
29 Oct, 2014 10:32 PMThe willows whisper,
metal clatters on the rocks,
cold rain washes red.
People come searching,
the stream becomes a river,
the blood is still fresh.
Small lights fill the sky,
crickets sing a lullaby,
she floats away still.
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Tags:
Suicide,
Depression,
Rain,
Haiku,
DeathVotes: 316500