24 May, 2016 01:03 PM
She sits in the shower letting it steam up in past and present future,
Wondering if she will ever be forgiven.
She does not know how to forgive herself, nor others,
But hopes she can.
Years of torture for herself causing herself her own harm based upon her issues.
No One listening to hear her scream from the inside out.
Best friends move on at the wrong time in her life.
She is left with nothing.
Hours pass by sitting in the shower,
Crying and sobbing over something that’s tormented her for years
Thinking whether or not she could get the courage to ask for forgiveness.
But instead few more hours still in shower it turns cold.
But she does not notice.
Hours , minutes and seconds all pass by,
Music turned up too loud to hear her cry,
Tv blasting from the other room noone can hear her scream from the inside of the womb
What should she do, so confused wondering why.
Why was I her friend?
Why am I being punished?
Why can't I forgive and forget?
She's all I had why did you leave me?
Why did I fall for your games?
Why can't I make new friends?
Why can't I leave the old ones?
Why am I writing this poem?
Why am I still near you?
All these questions never answered “Why”
And now I’ll never know why.
Time has run out the water's been shut-off
And the night has come for eternal sleep.