05 Jun, 2015 04:09 AMI gripped the hammer
Hesitant to do it, but I still did
Those walls was where I hid
Where I knew my heart was safe
He wanted me to and so I did
Thinking it would make him happy
I forced myself
I watch as the stone crumbles
Turning into particles like sand
Every hit was painful
I was turning vulnerable
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Sadness,
Depression,
MistakesVotes: 217014
04 Oct, 2016 12:57 PMDon't lie to my face
Don't spit out words that are plastic and fake
Like the way you moan in the bedroom
you lie awake at night
And think about your future
Tell me what your thinking
Tell me that the flame is gone
Gone forever and it can’t ever be re-lit
I had everything but I still found the bad in the good
Unnecessary pain and bleeding
Now I know the truth
After drowning in all the lies
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Sad Love,
Depression,
HeartbrokenVotes: 416801
21 Oct, 2010 04:01 PMreflections entry;
depression is an illness,
not something you do.
how would you feel,
if all it was happening to you?
would you want to run,
would you want to hide?
it seems impossible,
when you don't want to try.
what if it was in your family?
or even your best friend?
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DepressionVotes: 416633
22 Mar, 2014 04:20 PMBehind my smile are embedded scars
My anguished mind is too damaged
Your words were hurtful and harsh
Throughout years I received damage
I tried to hide my misery for so long
The suffering and pain torn me apart
I tried to erase memories and keep strong
I tried to fix my devastated heart
Day go by and Depression eats away
At my cold, weak mind and heart
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Tags:
Devastate,
Disruption,
Fake Smile,
Sadness,
DepressionVotes: 016393
05 Feb, 2016 06:38 AMHe doesn't love you.
He never did.
But you believed him.
Just like a kid.
He acted so sweet,
said, "no one is greater!"
But look at you now.
You're both just strangers.
The long hugs, sweet kisses,
All your history...
It's nothing but a memory.
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Heartbreak,
DepressionVotes: 816310
19 Jul, 2017 11:13 PMDear Depression,
Why do you still haunt me?
You’re a selfish jerk
I just long to be free
Yet forever you will lurk
You just want attention
Like a little child
I know your intention
And I want you exiled
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Depression,
SuicideVotes: 816124
05 Feb, 2016 01:09 PMShe goes to a place that nobody knows.
It's inside her head,
and she's all alone.
I'ts a very dark and scary place,
and all her thoughts are in a race.
She cries and screams, but no one hears.
She's fearing that the end is near.
This little place inside her head
leaves the poor girl feeling dead.
She hears "you're never good enough.
The life you have is way too tough."
It makes her want to kill herself;
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Depression,
SuicideVotes: 815963
05 Feb, 2016 06:31 AMWhen things get bad,
I tend to get sad.
I'm all alone,
left to cry,
and sometimes, I just
want to die.
I'm yelled at,
made fun of,
I'm stupid and weak.
I go to the kitchen,
and it's pills that I seek.
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Depression,
SuicideVotes: 1015609
05 Feb, 2016 06:15 AMWhat will happen when you say your last goodbye?
Who would miss you?
Who would cry?
They say she's attention seeking,
A stupid worthless whore,
But the cuts on her wrist say so much more.
Her thoughts are screaming,
"Just do it, they won't care!"
The life you have is so unfair.
Take the pills, pull the trigger,
Kick the chair away,
Because the demons you have,
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Tags:
Depression,
SuicideVotes: 915081
11 May, 2016 09:11 PMDay one, no sleep, one pill.
Day two, no sleep, six pills.
Day three, no sleep, sixteen pills.
Day four, hospital coma 2 hours.
Day five, no sleep, no pills.
Day six, no sleep, six pills.
Day seven, No Sleep, Sixteen Pills.
Day Eight noone notices.
Day Nine 24 pills, ambulance, coma 2 days.
Day ten still don’t notice.
Day eleven, whole bottle.No more pills. Eternal sleep
Then they notice…
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Medicine,
Death,
DepressionVotes: 014689