I Love You, Daddy
ShadowMoonMLP29 Jun, 2014 03:16 AM
I love you, Daddy. And I'm sorry for making you cry. I never meant to make you so sad. Even though, You may have been a little sad before. I know you had a rough life. And a rough childhood. I know your Mama was never kind to you. I know you and your brother only had each other. Like my brother and I, but different. You try to compare your life to mine, And it makes me feel bad- guilty, even- Because I want to understand. But I can't. And I won't ever be able to. I'm a little girl. Your little girl. Because of your life, Because of your sadness, You weren't always able to be the father you wanted to be. And you tried, I know you did, I know you do. Even when you used to make my Mama cry. And even when you still make me cry. And when you would ask me, When I was just ten, Why I was leaving you. And staying with Mama. And why, I didn't love you anymore. And I didn't understand. I couldn't understand. I was a little girl. Your little girl. A child. And so I threw my phone. And I cried. Because I did love you, Daddy. Always. I didn't understand why my father- How any father- could've thought His little baby girl Didn't love him. You made me scream, and cry, and hate myself. You made me into the young lady I am today. Tired, and scared; Hating the world; Wanting to be alone; Anxious, angry. Mama says I've got your temper. I lash out, scream at my friends. Like you used to scream at me. At some points, you've made me want to die. I thought I was a failure. A disappointment to you, and to Mama. I thought, maybe, You didn't love me anymore. But I know it's not true. I know you love me. Please don't cry anymore, Daddy. Please stop looking so sad. Please stop looking down on me. I promise I'll be better. I promise I won't make the same mistakes you did. I'm sorry. I never meant to make you so sad. I never meant for this to happen. I love you, Daddy. I always have.
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