It seems like life always gets in the way. Restrictions lurk everywhere; life is not enjoyable. I get hurt easily, I get disappointed easily. Life gets harder everyday. Even when I try to stand up, I fall back down knowing that I am weak and hurting. My feelings are indescribable, you could even say that my heart is literally ripped and torn; my scars are engraved with every second of my petty existence. I am isolate from the world and I am not planning to change that, I am dying yet I won't put up a fight... I am drowning in my misery, yet I won't struggle when I lack air. Time seems to be moving quickly then fading, I am left in the past wishing for something impossible... Wishing for my past to be erased; yet the harder I wish for it the more I get hurt. It seems... [Read More]
Tags: Despair, DepressionSad but true It wasn?t that early, neither that late. It wasn?t that Good and neither that bad. Good as she was with me but bad as she shouldn?t have been with me. We were there but didn?t know that why we were. Just a feeling of nothing covered her and she had her head on my shoulder and her tears fell as if I was the one who could carry them and deal with. I wasn?t able to look at her, even. Her face was always pretty, with the innocent dimple she had. I could just sit and turn my head other way around and she could just, speak and speak. I couldn?t interrupt her as well, as she had the right to speak it all, at last. And despite letting her speak, the reason why I didn?t interfere was that I couldn?t interfere. I had no words to... [Read More]
Tags: Sadit was late on a Saturday night and my brother and his friends were round. One of his friends, Milo, was an incredibly cute guy, he had short scruffy blond hair and blue eyes that just made me melt. We had been watching a film and i was sat next to him, he put his arm around me and before i knew it, we had fallen asleep on the couch, hand in hand. He was 16 and i was 17, so i thought it was perfect. We spent rainy days in together, and i felt that he was the one, although i was so young. When his family went on holiday to France, i came with them. You're eant to fall in love on the eiffel tower, but i fell out of it. I went back down to find a toilet, and when i came back, there he was, exchanging... [Read More]
Tags: BetrayalNormally I'd consider these sites as a depressing, useless waste of time that permit people to feel even more pain, but the message behind my story: it needs to be heard/read/ whatever. So here's my sad story, You know in middle school when you'd have that devastating crush on an older guy who'd just pass by you like you were nothing but another poster on the wall? Lol well, same. He was a year older, a new student, tall, very attractive, cute, with curly brown hair. During my eighth year in school, it was all still cute; just a cute little girly crush, until I reached my first year of high school. I thought moving to the building which was right across school campus where all the older people were would be the best thing ever. Right before Christmas on my first year as a high schooler I received a... [Read More]
Tags: Lovethere was one point of my life that i believed deeply in fairy tales but above all things LOVE. my heart was full and very heavy of happy emotions that filled my life with happiness.but as i grew aware of how life can be so cruel to a person i started opening my eyes, really opening them. the boy that i grew so in love with since i was younger was no longer the boy i once knew but a man that was aware of everyone else's existence except mine. we were once close and know we hardly know each other. my first love, has no idea that i still think of him and that every day that i wake up living i wonder what he is doing. my heart aches of all the pain that he has put me through and he doesn't even care. i sometime stay up... [Read More]
Tags: LoveI've let myself do a quick search in the room around, looking. I studied everyone in the room though it seems worthless , everyone had their faces buried in their own paper trying to understand what the hell they were answering, no one bothered to meet my gaze ... i was looking for HIM i restlessly looked around hoping to find him, then i realized i was already looking at him!!! but just as this thought passed trough my mind his head snapped up,probably having that feeling that someones staring at you, and for a nano second -i couldn't tear my gaze from him- his unexpected reaction made me jump and i almost drowned on those ultra dark brown eyes as if it physically melted, i snapped out of my reverie and hastily looked to the opposite side of where i could still feel his eyes. and stupidly i looked... [Read More]
Tags: PainA life begins with love and end with love…. This is the love story about a boy who is from small town (shillong) and girl city (Kathmandu)… life is very uncertain. Nobody knows what will happen. A guy who never been Kathmandu and girl who never been India. How they fall in love??? …. A girl called Dolma... She never plan anything in her life… she is always dreaming about her boyfriend should like a Romeo… who can care her a lot and never make her feel alone. Her big dream is that her boyfriend proposes her like a prince… with so many roses and beautiful song a sing for her in front of all people and with 3 magic words. But dream is only look beautiful in night. She doesn’t need anything… her wish is just that she got a boyfriend who love her a lot n lot… and... [Read More]
Tags: True StoryI was running for dear life. I was afraid this creature was going to doing something I won’t enjoy. As he keep chasing me his face structure was getting more red. I felt like he was going pop. I’m running through these woods. The woods look like a dream I had once. Foggy, wet , scary, and dark. I felt like a crazy person. Am I crazy? Is this big human looking dog just a vision. As I running I began to slow down. I think I lost this creature. I then see my grandma’s house ahead of an odd looking trail. The trail has the weirdest looking footprint I’ve ever seen. This footprint consist of two toes and half a foot palm. I follow the trail to my grandma’s house. I get to the door. The door had a broken doorknob and some kind of liquid on it. I... [Read More]
Tags: Abuse, Crazy, Angry, InsaneI still remember hanging out with him it was like if it was just yesterday but its been 6 yeasts since his death. we were walking home from the corner store back to my house we had seen a black suburban following us on our way home we didn't really care so we just kept walking and talking. When we fot home we stayed inside my house until 1 am we went to my front porch smoking and talking about all the crazy things we have done in our lives. We had seen the same black truck pass by my house a couple times but we didn't really pay attention to it until the last time they passed. I saw them roll down the window and take out a gun I was too slow to react to it they were aiming at me and when he shot he got in... [Read More]
Tags: Death, Friend, FriendshipOh life is always so sad and tragic, love is always destroyed, families are always being broken and left behind, and children growing up alone, with no supportive and loving parents. This is why I... am alone... and sad, but mostly angry. My life passed by in such a fast blurr, and it was tragic, and painful... Hello, my name is Caily, Im 18 right now, but what they did to me still hurts me deeply... I was 10, my best friend was our neighbor's son, James. James was a strong, nie boy, he had blonde hair and was a little taller than me. He was also my age, and went to the same school all through middle/high school. Well another four/five years passed, and I noticed a change in James. He wasn't the loud fun person I always loved...(as friend) He was quieter, dark, and mysterious. He slowly stopped... [Read More]
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