Grass will never be green enough for me

kathryn

14 Aug, 2011 04:01 AM

Let me start off by saying, i am a 17 year old girl who has had struggles ever since birth. My mother is mentally ill, and i haven't seen her for more then 15 minutes since i was 10. She was taken away from me since birth because my parents got a divorce. My two older brothers have memories of her only because her hormones got screwed up when she had me. they say the third times a charm, but completely not true in this case. So i got to see her every other weekend. Whenever i would be with her, i acted like a complete brat. i cried, yelled, threw hissy fits. She would punish me by giving me a 5 minute time out, but then when i got home, my step mother,would put me in the corner for a good hour or so, i was around 6 then.... [Read More]

Tags: Unhappy, Waiting
Votes: 4
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I can't let go

Manda

21 Jul, 2011 11:22 PM

We were too young for loves I thought, I never really thought about boys until Jay attends my church he came in with his big brown eyes that could make any girl tremble. We were only 8 years old and it was summer where we would have a program for our church and he happen to come too, I never really noticed him, to me he was cocky and a show off he tried to impress me with running really fast and showing me how athletic he was but he noticed that I wasn't impressed. At the same time he realized I was athletic as well so we competed against each other sometimes we were on the same team. As years went on I started to see how immature he was becoming until I heard him sing it was like heaven on earth as if I was falling in love... [Read More]

Tags: Unloved, Heartbroken
Votes: 10
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In Love With His Ex.

Leanna

23 Sep, 2011 07:13 PM

During the summer of 2010, I met a guy that apparently was hurt because of the break up of his girlfriend of 6 years, but he was single for 4 months. I do understand the fact that he was still in love with her because they were together for so long, but then when we started talking it seem like he had interest on me. Almost all summer long, we were always together, every morning he would come see me, we would spend the most amazing time together. He would hold me tight, kiss me, & tell me how special i was to him. We would always be texting, there wasn't a night where i would go to bed without giving him a kiss and saying good night. Yeah everything seem to be alright, till one night. We got into an argument and that argument turned into a break up,... [Read More]

Tags: Love
Votes: 7
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In loving memory

Essy

15 Jun, 2011 03:21 PM

Nothing's harder than loving someone who loves you, but then something horrible happens that separates you, forever. It doesn't matter how I met him, what matters is that I loved him more than anything, with all my strength and my heart, he was the reason why I smiled, my motivation my sun and moon, the light that shined out of my eyes. My heart was filled with so many beautiful things, his voice his name, his touch the color of his eyes the strength in his arms and the warmth in his embrace. His laughter came to me during the night in whispering winds reminding me that he wasn't that far away.Once we took a walk at the beach me and him holding hands leaving our footprints in the sand a memory that the ocean could swallow up, but share with everyone who sees the eternity in it, he was... [Read More]

Tags: Pain, Death
Votes: 2
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Goin with the flow

GB<3

24 Oct, 2013 08:02 PM

I am Sammie, I have been tall all my life, I am friends with all guys, I am biracial, and I am very easy to hurt. I don't know what to do with life, it all seems so hard. Well let me take you back to 2012, when I first meant Chris. Chris is a cutie, tall, blonde hair and blue eyes. He was my best-friend, but things started to get weird... He knew I loved him, I made it obvious. But at the same time, I couldn't stop. I wanted to but I couldn't. Feelings wouldn't leave, so I gave in.. And that's how it ended. We stopped talking, I stopped thinking about him and it finally vanished. I started talking to Ben, who is my best friend but I believe I have no feelings, its complicated. Ben is also hansom, tall, brown hair brown eyes. The sight of... [Read More]

Tags: Help, Sadness
Votes: 3
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Is it TRUE love?

Tara Wicker

07 Oct, 2010 09:27 AM

I fell in love with this guy that I've had my eye on since 8th grade. As always, I'm the older one in the relationship. We've known each other, but never really thought we'd be together. We started talking through text, because my friend had his phone & called me from it & i ended up losing service & texted that number asking who it was. I couldn't believe it when i found out it was him. i was so happy (: we started dating May 30, 2010. I snuck out of my house a couple of times just to be with him, snuck him in a couple of times, because we were so in love! My family doesn't approve of interracial relationships, I'm white & he's black/white. He makes me so happy, but just recently things have been changing & i don't know what to do! He's so busy... [Read More]

Tags: Help, Unloved
Votes: -3
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Crushes

Love<3

09 Apr, 2011 04:52 PM

A long time ago, when i had a crush on one guy. I always think about him no matter what and never let him go. so, I'm attraction to him and i keep messaging him because he need to know how i feel. Then he told me that he like me a lot. But few months later, he post the status up saying "Its not fair. its should be me. not him.</3" I cried all the time over him. I had a crush on someone else. He said he don't like me either. I cried all the time also. I realize boys hate me even more. I still love one person that he never know how i feel about him. I feel like i hate myself. I feel like I want to kill myself but i couldn't. I wait forever until he come along. I never had a Boyfriend in... [Read More]

Tags: Hurt, Unloved
Votes: 0
10808 2

She was Amber

Jack

24 Feb, 2015 08:01 PM

I met her one September night on a fairly popular dating site. She messaged me out of nowhere and we struck up a conversation. I don't know what it was about her, but she instantly had my full attention. We talked all night. At least 6 hours of delightful conversation. I was hooked. We met in person that morning. She was wonderful. Beautiful, funny, intelligent... everything I could have hoped for. Almost instantly we were inseparable. We never spent more than a day apart from the first moment. We spent many wonderful days in that fashion. She, meeting me right as I left work. Having breakfast together. Exploring our shared interests, learning the things we had in common, just enjoying the company of one another. In less than a month she was spending more time at my home than hers. I could not have been happier. One day, while we... [Read More]

Tags: Unloved, Missing
Votes: 9
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It makes me nervous when...

Regan

21 Jul, 2011 12:14 PM

Everyone is usually nervous at one point. Whether its peeing in your pants, throwing up in front of everyone, reading your paper out to the class, giving a speech in front of your whole school, or more. There was a girl named Alex Veresto hwo was nervous all the time. Even when people just asked her a question, she would freak out as if someone told her a scary story. She only had one friend, her mom. Her father was a soldier at war, and died by severe head bleeding. Her father was the only one that she felt kept her safe. Ever since then, Alex has been crying herself to sleep, and not feeling protected. Alex always felt like her dad would help dad would help her in everything. Well once again, Alex woke up this morning as tired as you'd be on a road trip to Florida. She... [Read More]

Tags: Nervous, Family
Votes: 7
10797 1

Speak Silently

Hannan Ahmed

06 Nov, 2014 10:51 AM

It seems like life always gets in the way. Restrictions lurk everywhere; life is not enjoyable. I get hurt easily, I get disappointed easily. Life gets harder everyday. Even when I try to stand up, I fall back down knowing that I am weak and hurting. My feelings are indescribable, you could even say that my heart is literally ripped and torn; my scars are engraved with every second of my petty existence. I am isolate from the world and I am not planning to change that, I am dying yet I won't put up a fight... I am drowning in my misery, yet I won't struggle when I lack air. Time seems to be moving quickly then fading, I am left in the past wishing for something impossible... Wishing for my past to be erased; yet the harder I wish for it the more I get hurt. It seems... [Read More]

Tags: Despair, Depression
Votes: 5
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