If you clicked to this story and counted on reading it, I'd like to thank you sincerely for taking your time to read this, I hope to give you a valuable message and also talk about what I've gone through in my life. Again, thank you for reading my story and remember to hold on to hope and not let it go. It's about 5:25am at the time of me typing this. I couldn't sleep...and there are many reasons for why, because of the many thoughts in my mind, the nights where doubt my own strengths, the feelings I get when I feel all alone in this world, maybe it's just the times I see myself differently than anyone else, but the worst ...is the sharp but empty pains in my chest I get at times. These nights have been going on for months and on now, and I think... [Read More]
Tags: Life, Love, Struggles, Depression, Hope, Faith, TeensI know you moved on sweetheart, i know you left me, i know you dont love me anymore but all i know i cant accept things, i cant accept that you left me. But yea its true thats why i dont fight with myself. I will never know why you said that you never loved me, you only liked me. This thing making me shattered day by day. I dont express what i am going through but its very hard for me to survive. Its like i am counting my days of the remaining part of my life. I know you wont feel what you did to me except the fact that you did bad to me & hurted me, but you will never know the level of hurt you have given to me. I remember every single day spend with you, every moment with you. We shared everything from... [Read More]
Tags: Heartbroken, Lost, Love, Remember MeI always thought that I was different than most of the 16 year old guys out there. You know the "sex crazed, got my whole life ahead of me" type. All that has it's place sure, but I considered myself a gentleman and put priorities first. She helped me to see that. Funny. Looking back 6 months, I couldn't see myself here. Seriously contemplating suicide for the first time in my life. The Internet is the only way I've "vented". This isn't like me, but so much time has passed I don't even know me anymore. "Who I Am With You" still rings in my head. Ironically, to avoid pain and more self torture I'll give you the short version. I'm Luke, Ash was her nickname. We were both from small towns almost 250 miles apart in Wisconsin. Meeting through an online school, we emailed constantly and soon enough we... [Read More]
Tags: Death, Fear, Pain, Love, Lost, Depression, Suicide