The Dark Burning
Gabriella
30 May, 2011 03:23 PM
I was walking home in the dark, alone...
It was a stupid idea really, the snow storm had gotten worse and the roads were sheet ice; no cars would dare consider driving on them.
I was almost to the crossing when i felt the tingling sensation of someone behind me, someone watching me...
It turns out it wasn't just one person though. It was 10. 10 boys who had seen a young girl walking home alone in the dark, with out any witness' to get in the way.
They came up behind me, and in that moment i just reacted, chucking my bag to them and yelling "Just take the money, take the phone i don't care!" I had used every ounce of my energy to screech that out, as if someone would hear me over the roar of the snow.No one did. No one knew, no one heard and no one saw.
I was alone then, and I'm alone now.
They pinned me to the floor and took their turns on me, shoving themselves into me as my tears covered over my face as much as the snow. I begged that night. I had never begged before because I always thought that it would make you seem weak, but I begged then. I begged for them to stop, begged for them to kill me...
They did neither. They got worse and worse, taking from me the one thing that I had no hope of getting back. They stole my virginity.
Of course, they settles down eventually, but now they were mad that i hadn't put up the kind of fight they wanted; i was paralyzed with fear.
They decided to scar me, as if they knew that it would bring my nightmares even today. They scraped knives down the side of my face, distorting it. They slit up my leg, ripping through my jeans and my skin. They sliced fine lines on my wrists, making all of it seem like I had done it myself...
Then they left me there to die.
But I wouldn't die like that, i wouldn't let them have that as well, so i dragged my self home. I tried to run through the pain, and stumbled up the porch steps, groping for my keys, all the while giving a silent plea that my parents were home.
They weren't.
I realized then that i couldn't tell them. They wouldn't believe me, so i decided to fend for myself; cleaning the cuts and bandaging them tightly to stop the bleeding...
No one has ever known the reason for why i cringe away at someones touch, the story of scars... until now.
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Comments
Post a Comment07 Jun, 2011 12:18 PM
Is this true??
Did this really happen to you??
If it is than. I'm so sorry):
This is horrible things they did to you):
Please say it's not true.
25 Jun, 2011 12:29 AM
This kind of stuff...It makes me so angry to hear how helpless a girl would feel from an experience like that :(((( -.-
01 Aug, 2011 06:18 PM
If this is true, I know exactly how you feel. I wasn't raped, but I was abused and I couldn't tell anyone. I was alone, afraid and unwanted. I still cringe sometimes when a certain kind of person comes near me or touches me, even in a handshake. I don't remember certain parts because of traumatic amnesia, but I have scars too.
13 Aug, 2011 12:52 PM
You know, I've literally just started crying - Thank you so so much for your support!
BrokenTears - Yes it's true but I'm getting through it :)
Death of No Anger - I agree! It's sick
Rona - I know exactly how you feel, and I promise you it get's better. Eventually you'll be able to accept it all, and move on to be happy.
08 Nov, 2011 03:03 PM
I am so sorry, that is terrible.
I am so disgusted that a human being can do something so inhumane. It's just dimented. Nobody should have a story like this to tell, it belongs in horror movies and horror movies only. My prayers are with you sweetheart. I wish you the best. <3
23 Nov, 2011 05:39 PM
I have been raped to and by my own uncles nd i did not want to tell any body so i knoe how you feel
26 Dec, 2011 09:20 PM
i am so sorry i even cried reading this it was so sad i know how you felt the same thing happened to but only it was just one guy and im sooo so sorry this happened i hate it when this happeneds i really know how you felt
27 Dec, 2011 02:39 AM
hey i think you should take some steps against them......ow dare they.........
27 Dec, 2011 04:30 AM
Its the highest of cruelity.I feels so sorry and upset reading this.Be brave gabbie the world has not emptied of good people.They are few ,but there is still goodness and humanity.:(
12 Jan, 2012 07:37 PM
Omg /;
I'm so sorry !
You should probably tell them though , I find it really helpful ?
My two sisters qot rhaped /; .
& I'm sorry again , you must of felt like going suicide , but trust me its NEVER the answer
23 Feb, 2012 07:12 AM
im so sorry to hear about your story and eveything. As i was reading the story i had tears well up in my eyes and i feel like giving you a hug or something. I hope your ok now and eveything.
08 Jun, 2012 08:10 AM
OMG! that is inhuman i mean how can somebody do this i hope you have moved on and i am really sorry this has never happened to me as my parents make me take a body guard with me every where i go buh im sorry for those terrible things that has happened to you. :(
28 Jul, 2012 07:07 AM
dats so sad..its so bad whatever happened to you..it must be so painful..but to cope up from the pain you should talk about it to someone....that will decrease your sorrow and your pain...tell your parents...talk to a friend..or go to a councellor...it will help you loads..i assure...all the best and try not think about it ...be happy and think positive...my wishes are with you..
18 Nov, 2012 03:22 PM
aftr reading all this . I'd say u must talkd to ur parents or to the people who realy cares for u. .
Those mother fukers wud not left free in sake of others. . .
C'mon friend try to live life with a reason. .
Coz this is the only thing which saperates us from animals. .
Take care n hv a peace ful lyf ahed. . :)
26 Nov, 2012 11:54 PM
Im so sorry. Your story made me cry n im really happy u moved on. The same thing happend to me ive hadd been raped wen i was 9ish or 10ish till 12years old by my half brother. Ive moved on too. I forgave him bt i cant forget. Nobody know nt even my mom for fear till last year n i cant rememba most parts. My prayers go to u n other victims of sexual n physical abuse..
20 Feb, 2013 07:18 AM
how could they,,that is very inhumane
21 Feb, 2013 05:55 AM
its really sad nowday girls are not safe.. really at night..
21 Feb, 2013 05:58 AM
really this happened to my best friend..she tried to Suicide.. that 2 three times
27 Apr, 2013 01:47 AM
Im really sorry this happened to you, no one should ever have to go through what you did. But be proud of yourself that you have survived such a horrible ordeal, and that you had such great strength to move on, and the will to live. you are a brave woman be proud that you didn't let them succeed in also taking your life. God will one.day bring you happiness that will over mask that pain they caused. God bless you!
05 Jun, 2013 08:05 PM
i'm proud of you. you are truly a spectacular person, even if you don't feel it right now, you will some day. and i can honestly say that you are a lot stronger than i am.
08 Jun, 2015 06:51 AM
Please, I beg you to tell your parents. They love you and they will help you. If not tell someone.. someone you trust - it would be wisest.
You are amazing and this story brought tears but it kills me to think you are suffering without anyone knowing. I know it will be hard to tell but we are here for you. God bless...
01 Mar, 2016 03:15 AM
I like cant stand when people do that like thye just take ur viginity and that is something that u can never get back
25 May, 2016 05:16 PM
im so srry