19 Nov, 2012 09:02 AM
I cannot speak as long as I am wrong
I cannot be brave as long as I am alive
How can I end a life?
How am I supposed to deal with this?
The blackness of my blood reflects
The darkness that I will always be
I am a disappointment and nothing more
I am pain and regret and nothing else
Each time I fail I am imprisoned in my own pity
Each moment of regret pushing me away from myself
When I do whats right I am punished
When I do whats wrong I am worthless
Even when others are near I only feel loneliness
Even when I am strong I feel weak
I can feel it squirming from the pain I had caused
I can feel it dying
All the cracks on the wall I have memorized
All the shades of darkness are my rainbow
and with the days going worse I say to myself
why did you come to this earth...