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Did you ever even love me..?


14 Sep, 2011 05:08 PM

It was April, and I was talking to one of my brothers friends who I had a crush on.

A few days after talking, we started going out. We were both so happy. Nothing could get in the way of our love...
...So I thought...

We were dating for a year, and of course, all good things come to an end... It has been 6 months since we have been "in love"...
I was talking to his friend, who was trying to help me out so I wasn't so upset about him leaving me.

A few nights after talking to her, I finally found out that she was dating him. They both knew I still loved him... This tore my heart into pieces.

Their relationship lasted a week or so. I forgave Michael, because he now knows how I felt when he left me and then dated another girl.

But he doesn't feel nearly as bad as I do. A few nights afterwards, I find out he was cheating on me when we were "dating" I thought they only kissed, but I found out he was sleeping with another girl.

I was torn, and clueless... I didn't know what to do... I cried, of course. But the other thing I did was yell at him. I swore to him that I don't need him in my life again, I said he ruined everything, he wasted a whole year of my life lying to me.

Are all boys this heartless? He was my first "boyfriend" if you'd even call what we had a relationship. What did I do wrong... Was I too clingy? Did I say something that made him upset? I'm crying harder than I ever have before. He says that I was everything to him, and then I find out he cheated on me.

He still insists that I am everything to him. I just keep yelling that if I did mean everything to him, he wouldn't have dumped me and cheated on me like he did... I thought he was going to be different, but it turns out both "relationships" I've been in were lying. The first guy I dated was pretending that he loved me, and yeah. I found out that he was lying the whole time...

And now this has happened...

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Kimberly Frizzell says:
26 Dec, 2011 08:50 PM

okay so the same thing happened to me i thought i was in love with this guy, but after 2 years of a great relationship he cheated on me i cried and cried and cried!!!! but i also kept dating him and dumping him because i didn't want to loose him, plus he was my first boy friend and my first kiss, he cheated on me with so many girls and some my best friends, and you didnt do anything wrong i promise he just didnt know what he had untill he lost it trust me i had no one there for me when that guy cheated on me, but i listened to depressing songs, which i know doesnt help but it helpped for me it helpd me realized to just stop feeling sorry for myself and get over it and my life will be better and i was right my life was so much better and i made him feel so bad for doing that he even asked for me back, but of course i thought about saying yes, but i didn't i said no and dated other guys whcih made him so jealous

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Kooper says:
27 Dec, 2011 07:34 PM

even i had the same thing with a girl.....she had been cheating on me for about 2 years,i counted till 5 but after that i gave up counting even. I was shattered and never fell in love after that. Tried a lot to date but that girl was the love of my life,although she never loved me as i did. Dont think that all boys are like that, there is just good and bad in everyone.
Thank you. And i hope we all find what we deserve in the end.

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shilpi says:
28 Dec, 2011 10:09 AM

its 2 hurting dear,bt dnt b sad coz der iz god 2 n hez watchng evrythng..may god blesq

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Lizbeth Romero says:
28 Dec, 2011 08:30 PM

I also kind of had the same thing after dating my boyfriend for a year he started to hang out more and more with my friend and in the last 2 months of our relationship i found out he was starting to like her and kind of cheated on me he dumped me later and he started to date her i cried and cut myself.... i became emo and couldnt trust another guy i almost commited suicide and then i got a text we talked he says he still loves me but hes still dating that other girl he says he loves both of us and the other day he says he loves me i asked him why he said beccause its you. i showed it to my friend and she said that if he really did love you. if he really wanted you he would have already left his girlfriend so first he cheated on me no he keeps flirting with me and hes getting alittle too friendly but that is kind of like cheating again but to his girlfriend that he left me for i dont want to talk to him but he still does and this story reminds me of that

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Emily says:
28 Dec, 2011 10:29 PM

I wish I could say stuff like that but I'm not allowed to date

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Sarah says:
29 Dec, 2011 01:19 PM

Try being with ur bro best mate 4 six years n him telling u on ur engagement he having sex with ur best mate soo I no how u feel

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penwuin says:
29 Dec, 2011 04:56 PM

hmmm , if you felt that was bad, listen to this, I was with a girl for two years, two years, i thought we both would last forever, I was never clingy, maybe a little rash with my words, but i always apologised. After about a a year or so i really began to love her, she broke down all the barriers I had put up in my heart, i told her things about my life that i never told anyone. I really believed that she loved me, just just by silly words but by some of her action, sometime we would argue and i wouldnt look her in the eye because i hurt her feeling and i would apologised, she would grab my face and look me dead in the eye crying and tell me she loved and she cant live without me. WOW I thought she really loves me, i have to stop telling her mean things, BUT as soon as she got a new job and her attitude towards me change, she broke up with me. SHE SIAD IT WAS MY FAULT I NEVER TREATED HER RIGHT, I BELIEVED HER, I tried my best to make up for it, i begged for forgiveness, i told her how i felt about her, then two weeks later to find out she is in love with my friend ( who works with her)

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Shawty Marie says:
04 Jan, 2012 01:56 AM

There is someone out there for you somewhere you just gotta give him time to find you. Most guys are heartless assholes. All they want is sex. I mean you guyslasted a year so you must have met something to him. But he will relize someday he messed up big time with the on he love. Sometimes i think that all guys teell gurls they love them just to mess with there heads. But just keep you head up nd when he sees you act like you dont care it will start to bother him alot.

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Jamie says:
05 Jan, 2012 07:59 PM

Its never you fault. You did nothin wrong. Guys can be wonderful and amazon but they can sometimes be horrible. It's what you did its him. He has to deal with whatever guilt that comes with it now. He loved you but lost that love with a mistake. Be strong and never ever assume you did something wrong when a guy cheats on you no matter how heart broken you are. Wishing you the best of luck.

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needup gyeltshen says:
07 Jan, 2012 01:28 AM

it really hurts, in my life too happened like that i loved a girl who already had a boyfriend but she never share of that things before when i come to know about it' it was late. i was in love with the girl who was having boyfriend. but she promised she will leave her boy because but instead of leaving behind they kept on cheating me.............

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ruquiya says:
13 Jan, 2012 04:18 PM

I dated this guy for a year, I really loved him...but a week before my birthday I found out his cheating on me and like every girl I ran to my best friend for comfort she said all the right things hugged me dried my tears for me but that night I went online wanted toask him why what I did wrong and was told that I made him sick later that same night I found out that the girl he cheated on me with was my best friend I was so hurt I cudnt stop crying for that week I lost a lot of weight had bgs under my eyes I lost my self...but little than a month later they broke up she cheated on him.. He came running back to me and I was temted to take him back but I didn't... I was strong for once in my life coz I knew that one thing I loved so much can be the death of me... So be strong my friend cry as much as you want but know that he will never get better than you... But you will even thou you won't see it at the time

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jeff says:
17 Jan, 2012 09:47 PM

Don't let anyone hurt you feelings. Learn to love yourself becasue at the end of the day, you are only the ffirst person understands how you feel, how to be happy.

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David Montalvo says:
28 Jan, 2012 05:33 PM

Over one boy hmp why do u wast your time crying?was he special to u.I have been crying ever cince I was 4 maybe 3 idk.Your weak. Let me give u some advice dont trust anyone but your family dont trust your firends nore your bf.Wach your back ever where u go.You need to be strong whene I mean strong not on outside on inside dont let any one get to u oks im not trying to hurt your feelings im trying to help u cause u remind me of me.let put it this way the only thing that matters in life is u.ok

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Self-Destructionist says:
12 Feb, 2012 04:03 PM

i feel ur pain.... i really actually do, the same happened to me, i was in a relationship, he told me he loved me.. i didnt even know what to beleive anymore, so i burned my arms... anything that would help me get over my horrible life, i cut every single thing... nothing worked... everything gets better in the end ..... i promise <?> (heart represents my promise)

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