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Email That Changed Everything


16 Oct, 2010 09:25 PM

Four years I moved into this little town in Minnesota and it was the end of summer and I was still upset about why we moved because I missed my old friends. School was going to start and I was nervous, upset and scared. I didn't like being new. The first day came and I met all the people and I saw this girl. She was beautiful, but unlucky our class were separated into 2 classes. 7A and 7B. I was in 7A and she was 7B, so I never really got to meet and understand her. Little did I know she had a crush on me too but we both never really talk to each other or get to know each other. Of course middle school went by and I had my ex and she had her ex. Finally it was freshman year and everything went well, until I started to like her and her friend. It was the end of freshman year and she asked me if I liked her and I thought and I knew she would be a great friend and I didn't want to lose her so I told her no and that she was only my friend. That was stupidest thing ever and not only did it hurt me it hurt her as well. Again another year passed by I had another ex and she still had her boyfriend that she started dating after I told her no. Later she had trouble and so came to talk to me about them. I was everything to her. I guided her, I advise her, she was my best friend. Other people thought we were dating but I knew we could only be friends. One day she told me about her boyfriend and their problems and I always listen and help her. We usually talk for hours but this time we talked all night on the phone. She explained everything to me. I helped her and I didn't know but I had fallen for her on the way. Every now and then she would ask me who I like and I would say no one but I would tell her I had something very important to tell her in 2 years. The thing I had to tell her was that I loved her. This was sophomore year but I knew it was true love. At least I thought anyways. One day I decide to write it in her journal in case I forgot; bad Idea because she had liked me too and we would chat online for hrs and then one day she told that she and her boyfriend broke up. I was there for her and then they got back. One day she found my note I wrote in her journal and she decided to tell me she liked me too. Instead of telling me she spent a whole drag with we trying to think of ways to tell me. Of course I told her I was going home so she had to just tell me or I'm leaving. Right there she kissed me on my cheek and I knew she liked me. She and her boyfriend broke up the Next day which I thought was good because he didn't know how to treat her. Then for the next 3 months we became very close friends and we even hug and I once kissed her but I was too shy to ask her out. Finally I decided to ask her and she said yes. I thought my life was complete but I was wrong. It seemed liked we loved each other and everything was great. We laughed, we kissed, I sent her flowers for month anniversaries; then she told me she had to go France with her mom. The whole summer was missing her and The last 4 weeks of summer she left to France. Her ex boyfriend before me was he first cousin and he was in France as well. Of course I didn't want her to go but she did. Then a few days later she emailed me. Her emailed said her trip was fine and that she is excited to come back and meet me again her friend. I was confused. A friend? What? So I emailed her hack. It took her a while but she emailed me back saying that when she was with me she only saw me as brother and a friend. That there were no sparks between us. She always wrote that she wanted to be happy and not pretend and that her was already taken. I was nothing to her. I didn't matter. She said She wanted to tell me before it was too late and she was going to except her sister kept her from telling me. I didn't know what to do. I emailed her back congratulating her and her boyfriend; I didn't want to be mean. So I pretended it was okay. She also said that no matter how perfect I am she can't love me and no matter imperfect he is she cannot not love him. I cried that whole night. I wanted to just kill myself because of how stupid I was. But I didn't. I cut myself every once and a while to let the pain out. I fake a smile each day because I go to school with her. I see her. We barely talk now and I hate myself for it. I know I shouldn't miss her and my friends tried to say it's her fault but I always blame myself. If only I had said yes in freshman year everything would be fine, except I didn't. So now i'm a junior and so is she. We see each other but we barely talk. I'm afraid if I talk to her about something serious I might cry. I don't know what to do now. I wished her and her boyfriend luck and I tried to be her friend again but one of her friend told me that her boyfriend told her to stay away from me, so I'm not sure what to do. I say I don't like her anymore and I don't care but I do. I miss her dearly. Who's fault is it and what should I do?

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abdo says:
26 Oct, 2010 06:14 AM

oh thats very bad my have to be strong try to tell her that u love her...fight for her if really you care about thats kind of love

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Holly says:
26 Oct, 2010 08:23 AM

Don't blame yourself for it. It is her fault. Not yours. if you ever need to talk my email is

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noemy says:
26 Oct, 2010 10:30 AM

so sad!! :'(

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Manoj says:
26 Oct, 2010 03:23 PM

Dude i dunno if m rite or wrong n i dont really care....she does love you n dere is one DAMN reason for which she aint confessing it...fite for her n yu will know it....most likely i think tht yu mite hav not shown any seriousness in the relation...Brother she is dere...rite infront...she is not gone...go and grab your love befor its too late!

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Nadzz&&Rimzz? says:
26 Oct, 2010 05:54 PM

Hey Thats Really Hard to take it in as abdo Sed Fight for her and hopefully everthing works out! Wish u all the best if u need sum1 to tlk to me nd meh friend are always here!
tc ???

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TheGuy says:
26 Oct, 2010 07:46 PM

Thanks;; This is a slow process but yeah

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meme says:
26 Oct, 2010 08:13 PM

awww..that is so not your me,it aint...but if u really really love her fight for her..but if u dont feel like taking that chance just try to talk to her..and hold down those tears..swallow up ur fear..and try talking to her again

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27 Oct, 2010 05:00 AM

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Dipankar says:
27 Oct, 2010 05:08 AM

So sad!You fight for her. Don't blame yourself for it.

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randi lynn says:
28 Oct, 2010 10:45 AM

Awwwww.. :(

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anjum says:
31 Oct, 2010 04:18 AM

heyy.. luk wen ure in love.. all yu want s de happiness for dat pesrsuunn, u say u lovve ha but shes far more happy wd dat persunn so let t b!!!!

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bangs says:
05 Nov, 2010 04:17 AM

its all your fault for letting her waiting for so long just to be with, but unfortunately, you never own her heart...

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mhai-mhai rendon says:
06 Nov, 2010 01:06 AM

hi there !! ive red ur story a while ago and i found out that u were such a great man!! maybe there are just things that are not meant to happen and its god will!! its not ur fault,if she realized that she dont love you the way you loved her secretly then accept it with all ur heart. its time for you to moved on andlived ur life to the fullest!! if you want to get over her then try to focused ur attention with someone else bcoz it is the only way to make ur self be happy again !! dont be sad to the fact that she realized she dont love instead be happy that you have a treasured memories with her. if you were once happy with the wrong girl how much more with the right one waiting for you to come into her life ?? you know what we have the same situation !! as of now im trying to forget him. maybe it will take years but im willing to wait . only time can heal a wounded heart !! :D

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natalie says:
06 Nov, 2010 11:17 AM

am so heart broken for u.but again its all her fault,u shud'nt worry coz she goin true a great lose,the lose of ur advice is for u to move on and get sum1 who wud respect ur life wit expirence from now....

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delilah says:
06 Nov, 2010 05:26 PM

thts so sad :( its her fault n if shes says ur like a bro dnt get bak wit her

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MattXMisery says:
08 Nov, 2010 03:17 PM

if you really would do anything for her, do it, who cares what her boyfriend thinks, hes too over protective, maybe eventually shell realize that you care and she loves you, because i think she is slightly immature in a relationstip to do that to you, stay strong brother <3

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suzzane ralf says:
19 Aug, 2011 01:24 AM

Dnt cry.. be strong, i knw its real hard, bt evn i hav gone through same prob... it kills inside, bt i tried to come out of it..... by sharing with frnds, makin new frnds....It's her mistake and her bad luck to loose u...... if u wanna tok as a frnd abt it, here is my email.

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maya says:
25 Nov, 2011 04:06 PM

im kinda goin through what u are i love my friend and she kinda feels the same way about likeing girls so we asked each other out and so wee did and she said that she had a boyfriend and i was so sad and my advice is to be strong and move on

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