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Kissing air

Fallen hydra

30 May, 2010 01:43 PM

Kissing air
You chased after me. I shove open the door with a deafening crash, slamming it against the opposite wall. You rise and call out to me, incoherent words and meaningless phrases. The late afternoon light is bronze and sears my cheeks without notice. The suitcase in hand is empty, barren and void like a desert; what do I have to take it with me when you've plundered and stolen everything else? The lonely dirt road is strangely unfamiliar but the train station is in sight. I stride towards it.

You caught my hand. As you wretch my body to face towards you, your gasps surge down my face and your dark eyes distort, wild with fear. You ask me stupidly if I was really going. When I recoil away, you pluck me back again as if I am a flower that bends away from your oppressive wind. Staring at me to the point of being a glare, you tell me not to leave. My dress slides easily over my body like the ocean's waters; what happened to the love that was born that day I first touched the sea's tears? A distant ringing weaves in between us like a fluttering butterfly, warning me that the train was leaving. I start to tear away..

You drew my lips to yours. As I try to break free again, you yank me in and your cold lips presses against mine. Your hand screens and masks my cheek. For a moment, I forget my anger and everything seems right again. But I remember her, the one who destroyed everything that was right between us. I can feel the cold ring on your finger that presses against my cheek like a cold glass window; why did you care if you had her? A hard slap across the face shatters our contact. Hot angry tears scald my eyes and face. I turn away, knowing that if my graze crosses yours I would lose sight of all reason to leave, to become your chained prisoner again. My eyes didn't catch yours.

The hard road pounds against my feet. My sandals unravel then fall away, allowing loose stones to claw and to slice at my skin. The torrid heat parches my already impoverished throat. Rasps heave my body and, for an instant, the sun shudders. Then your voice screams the phrase that threatens to draw me back and make my tears storm for you. To weep for the paradise lost to us. Those two words still rings in my ear as my feet whisk me away. Don't go
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Screech! The ear-piercing sound as the train shrieks to a stop slaps me out of my shrouding thoughts. I look up. I'm alone on this platform with only the dry wind as my companion. I see myself standing, abandoned on the forsaken platform like the sole survivor standing in the scorching desolation of an all-consuming firestorm.
Then I remember. When I left, you didn't chase after me or catch my hand or kiss me or beg me to stay. You didn't care enough to come after me. You chose her and forgot me.
You didn't follow.

The sliding door glides open before me with a low hiss. Staring over my shoulder one last time, there is only empty space waiting for me on the tiled platform. Then I wrap my hand around the handle to hoist myself up onto the lined steps.
Suddenly, something wispy curls around my wrist, stopping me. There you were, the most perfect mirage that my delusional mind could create. This apparition has the special scent that you had. Your echoing words of don't go, like the last dying notes of a love song...

I am shocked to find that even shaking my head was difficult. Your eyes convey the deepest regret that would've never appeared on your real face and warmth spreads from me for this flawless illusion that takes your smooth features. Before I can stop myself, I close my eyes and lean forward. My lips touch yours so tenderly.

To the world, I was just kissing air. Maybe I was just kissing my heart good-bye. But that last fleeting kiss, like a grazing butterfly, tasted like the salty tears of a far away ocean where a love was once born.

If only you cared enough to follow.
If only you cared that much.

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Karla says:
09 Jun, 2010 09:15 PM

wow beautifully heartbreaking

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John says:
10 Jun, 2010 02:57 PM

This is probably the best story here... so wonderful....

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diana says:
17 Oct, 2010 06:05 AM

oh my good. thats so heart breaking. i cant stop crying and reading

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cathy says:
25 Oct, 2010 09:58 PM

ouch..
dat hurts too much..

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tle-pish:) says:
08 Nov, 2010 06:59 AM

2 thumbs up! nice story yet so heartbreaking! :)

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some guy says:
24 Jan, 2011 01:08 AM

Best story ever...

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Zero says:
20 Feb, 2011 01:23 PM

truely a heartbreaking story

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Salena C says:
18 Jun, 2011 09:38 PM

heartbreaking and thats why i love it

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missy says:
28 Jun, 2011 08:16 AM

a beautifully written story.

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amy says:
30 Jun, 2011 01:57 PM

Oh wow,i'm blown away by you're story,magnificent job !

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kayla says:
01 Jul, 2011 01:04 AM

that was amazing i had tear filled eyes with in the first 5 sentences

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priyanka says:
03 Jul, 2011 07:57 AM

really mindblowing i cant stop my tears flowing from my eyes

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i love you says:
27 Jul, 2011 07:04 AM

ooooommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmgggggggggggg i feel really sorry for u its sooooo sad i couldnt stop crying it was so sad

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Paulamy Ganguly says:
12 Aug, 2011 09:55 AM

Made me cry :'(

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Jill says:
12 Nov, 2011 09:22 PM

Brilliantly heartbreaking. It made me cry. It was amazinly written with words like honey.

I am so sorry...

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Chelsea says:
28 Nov, 2011 08:06 AM

AmaZINNGG

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Natasha says:
30 Nov, 2011 01:26 AM

such a nice and heart touching story....

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Linda says:
03 Dec, 2011 10:55 AM

This is an amazing story and is truly heartbreaking but beautiful at the same time. I loved it.

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grasya says:
03 Dec, 2011 05:07 PM

so sad..

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Victory is for loosers says:
07 Dec, 2011 05:14 AM

Brilliant and inspirational but nevertheless very sad.

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Zara says:
20 Feb, 2012 01:02 AM

Wow!!!really a sad story,i couldn't help but cry....

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lil love says:
24 Feb, 2012 01:52 AM

truely a work of art. top 10 on my list. i can picture it, as if watch a short film

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victoria says:
01 Oct, 2012 01:36 AM

u should make it into a song

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dove says:
12 Nov, 2012 10:01 PM

its really aheart touching story,even i imagine someone like this always ...

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Bony Yousuf says:
05 Jan, 2013 12:30 AM

To the writer, whoever you are. You have touched my heart.

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Diana says:
31 Mar, 2013 03:40 AM

wow.. in tears already..

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Brina says:
01 Apr, 2013 02:08 PM

Awww...so sad

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Nikita says:
23 May, 2013 03:39 PM

Even with my own life in tatters i can see the beauty in this.The pain is overwhelming making it the best story here.

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Queenz Miller says:
25 May, 2013 02:07 AM

OMG..the story was beautiful. I can read it literally a million times. This is really good writing, I really didn't expect this.

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anonymous says:
29 Jan, 2014 07:51 PM

I don't have any words. I'm speechless.

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sadgirl says:
31 Jan, 2014 10:12 PM

make me cry ..:"(really..

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19 Feb, 2014 06:15 PM

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Victoria Rose says:
27 Feb, 2014 06:38 AM

Wow that is really all you can say about this story. It is beautiful, heartbreaking and true.

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Raven says:
16 Mar, 2014 05:56 PM

made mee feel almost lyk crying ..:( :'(

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Amru gaber says:
19 Mar, 2014 04:44 AM

Awsme

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DinnyPD says:
20 Mar, 2015 04:00 PM

Some stories fuel my tear glands.. Its one of them...

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monty says:
31 May, 2016 09:08 AM

crying already....its just soo heartbreaking..am speechless. god bless u writer

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kittymaster says:
07 Oct, 2016 04:46 AM

kissing air made me cry

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Ghosh Dastidar Arkoprova says:
06 Nov, 2017 03:01 PM

These stories are simply so heart rendering
These bring tears to my eyes
Long live lover of sadness

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