love is a word i never have

ToughGirl

04 Feb, 2017 02:04 PM

Warning : regret, stress, hesitation, pain, anxiety, un-confidence are packed within this whole damn story. Let me start this by asking : is it true that everyone deserves the love they need? As i sat on the couch i began to think and did the flashback in my mind about how un-lovable my life is/was. I just reached my 20's this early year. let me tell you that i've been living with my mother alone as i was abandoned by the father that claimed to be mine. I love my mom. she means the world to me. but that's it. the love from a mother is all i've ever gotten so far in my life. i can't say that my mom is great, because she is amazing. but i dont want to be so naive to say that i dont need a man company at least once in my life.... [Read More]

Tags: Regret, Pain, Alone, Hurt
Votes: 6

shattered

kaylee

02 Feb, 2017 05:50 AM

Love. The word was confusing, it was a word that not one human understood. No matter who tried to figure out its mystery, they all failed... unless they use only one way to unlock the definition. Find it. You find love. This is a story about a girl that once unlocked love and then locked it back up once more. Her name was Katie. Her life wasn't the best, and wasn't the worst. Her family, wealthy, her house large. But her grades dragged behind her almost always. Her mother was kind, but often harsh, and her dad was barely home. Katie went to school and was really popular. People loved her, if she looked terrible one day, they wouldn't DARE say a thing. Katie became friends with a boy named Luke. He was friendly, attractive, and still an awkward teenage boy mind. Katie crushed on him for weeks, but he... [Read More]

Tags: Missing, Hurt
Votes: 8

love will tear you up

casey

28 Jan, 2017 06:26 PM

Have you ever felt love for someone To the point past emotional bliss? I have, and still do I married her. I herd codependency was a bad thing for couples. To feed off of each others feeling could cause a break up? I doubt that theory very much. Maybe my marriage isn't the definition of that, its more like or love grew its own vascular system and we thrive off the respect, trust, and support from each other. It was a cold morning I can feel it in my bones. I couldn't wait to feel the heat of the melted steel inside the mill. I didn't waste any time in the locker room chatting about the weather I knew all the small talk. Straight into work ten minuets early my crew had no idea I was even there. I stayed busy alone better then in a group. A coworker found... [Read More]

Tags: Love, Lost, Death, Painful, Heartbroken, Scared
Votes: 4

Open The Darkness, I'm Home

casey

25 Jan, 2017 06:47 AM

I can't understand why we're so board. she's looking at me with eager eyes on a Friday night. Her ex boyfriend is still living with her. Im guessing Jess wants to leave for the night. I ask her do you want to take a ride? With a pouting face Jess says no. She asks me if I can get into a bar or buy any alcohol? With a big grin yeah lets go...but first i need to make a call. I picked up the phone and it stated to ring the i.d. said holtman. I thought to myself..its been a long time since I herd from him. Hello. hey bud I was just thinking you might want to have a drink with me. Why you having a party? Well its just all the guys. I look at Jess and ask her if she wants to hang with me at a... [Read More]

Tags: Depression
Votes: -8

Heart-Broken

Arianna

18 Jan, 2017 01:52 AM

Love…is a word you use when you feel a spark between you and another. In my words, I don’t believe in any type of love. True love, love at first sight, or just plain “I love you”. You can’t just meet somebody and instantly fall in love. You can’t just know after your first date that you two are meant to be, because things happen. One of you could cheat or one of you could move somewhere very far having for both of you to stop seeing each other. Then you’d realize that it wasn’t meant to be. You’d realize that he wasn’t going to be the person you thought you would spend the rest of your life with. I’m not trying to hate on people who think they are in love, but let’s be realistic. Love is just a myth people made up to make them feel wanted and... [Read More]

Tags: Love Hurts, Heartbroken, Depressed, Sadness
Votes: 17

He Hurt Me

destiny peavy

11 Jan, 2017 03:40 PM

It was about four years ago, I had been very interested in some boy. The years were really rough, since I had just moved schools, and I had lost a couple of my friends. The boy was not someone I was expected to like, since my parents had always said I couldn't love anyone with "obesity". This boy was my miracle, and I had fallen completely for him. I don't know why. He was not like any boy, I had sat next to him in class for this year. I thought my life was great, because even though my family practically hated me, I didn't let that get to me. I think I had fallen for him, more and more, I blushed when I talked to him, though I would hope he wouldn't see me. However at the same time I had good friends. Books always told me, if you... [Read More]

Tags: Hurt
Votes: 8

why me?

destiny peavy

11 Jan, 2017 03:39 PM

There was a 16 year old girl name annie, in the 10th grade she was so happy she had her friends, family and her loving boyfriend. She ways always trying to make people happy. Always made good grades. But for some reason kids was always picking on her.she tried to tell my teacher but she did nothing (thanks public school system). She felt so low, didn't have any friends, and was a complete outcast. She tried everything to fit in, I hated school. Others would call me names, take my lunch, and beat me up. It wasn't a bad kid, in fact she was pretty laid back, and never cause harm to anyone. One day her and her boyfriend went on a date to the movies. 30 minutes into the movie jack said “i’ll be right back i’m gonna get some candy and something to drink” annie said “okay babe”.... [Read More]

Tags: Break Up, Bullying
Votes: 14

Camping Trip

Oliverrr

18 Dec, 2016 04:25 AM

Once there was a boy. He had quite an experience with love, and with that breakups. He was confused on his sexuality and went out with a boy, they were a cute couple for about 2 weeks then around came a trip, a camping trip. Once there was a girl. Nobody really liked her. She had a reputation of blowing off guys, so she was called a slut or whore most of the time. One of her best friends was going on a camping trip so she thought it would be fun if she went too. The time came around and on they went on a bus to the campsite. The boy and girl in the back, and 5 others scattered around. The boy and girl had fun in the back, listening to music, telling stories and eventually face to face. They glared into each other's eyes but the guy... [Read More]

Tags: Heartbroken, Sad, Regret
Votes: 6

Too late

Mads

12 Dec, 2016 05:33 PM

This girl i really liked, was going to a party with me and the rest of our class. We were friends at that time, but i wanted something more. We were teasing each other for fun and all that, but i stepped over the line the day before. The others in the class were teasing us that we were togethers and tagging us in romantic things togethers. Everybody knew and knows i have a crush on her. We usually talked a lot together, but the past weeks, she had been ignoring me, so i wanted to talk to her. I didn't knew what to talk about, so i thought we could argue, and i started teasing her with being a sexist (just for fun, cause she does that all the time). My friends and i started going with me and even when she said stop, they continued. Someone from the... [Read More]

Tags: Regrets, Sadness
Votes: 16

Middle school sucks

Anonymous

11 Dec, 2016 05:42 AM

So i guess I'll start this off by saying I've never really liked myself. My while life I've put myself down and called myself names. I felt worthless. I think i was born with depression, or maybe it just developed at an early age. I started selfharming at the age of five. I felt really angry and sad all the time and selfharming destracted me from those feeling and even helped me feel better. Im not saying to selfharm, its a awful thing and i hope i never get caught up in it again. Theres a couple reasons as to why i was depressed. For one, i felt like my dad was dissapointed because he wanted a son. He would always say things like "its ok for you to be soft because your a girl". Hes really sexist and i felt like he didnt expect anything out of me or... [Read More]

Tags: Sadness, Suicide, Middleschool
Votes: 27