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Broken

missingyou

17 Jul, 2011 07:46 PM

Tell my why do things have to change when they were perfect from the start...?

Why do we have to lose everything that we have always been holding onto, after everything that we've been through together..?

I kept thinking that this loneliness, this sadness, this.. emptiness would be gone if I kept you by my side. But now, I realize that even though something is near you.. they feel.. distant. Was it because I was forcing them to continue staying by my side? Was it because.. because you don't feel the way I wanted you too. Was it because.. was it because I was too selfish to realize what you truly felt? Was it because.. I was always focusing on my feelings, that I didn't even have the time to consider what YOU felt? Or was it because.. you saw right through me..?

I thought that this love was our destiny. I thought that you would always stay by my side because.. I felt something connect between us when we first met.. All I ever wanted for us to be happy, but I guess things wasn't like the way it was before..

I just wanted to say.. that even after all we've been through, you thought me something special. Even though our love didn't last, I truly realized how it felt like to have a true love... The last thing I ever received from you was your last smile... and the first and last letter you gave to me..

"Dear Scarlett,
I am sitting in my room, writing this letter. Although, I'm not the type to write, I'd rather say it here rather that in your face because.. I'd rather not see that tears on your face. You might already know what I'm about to say, but.. please forgive me. I couldn't give you everything you wanted, and I feel pathetic that I couldn't.. In the times we've spent there were times when you truly smiled, and times when I saw those fake smiles.. To tell you the truth, I hated myself every time you had to force yourself.. I just wanted to tell you that you didn't have to force yourself.. It didn't matter to me whoever you were, but I guess.. I just didn't want to see you this way.."

I stopped and tears came out of my eyes. I wasn't forcing myself.. maybe telling myself to do so, was like that.. but those times, I wasn't mad or sad.. I was overjoyed because I've always wanted this moment to come.. I wanted to treasure you forever.. But now you're gone..

" We've been together for so long.. but, we both know our relationship changed after all those years. We changed.. and in you heart, I think you realized it too. Maybe the time together, got us to realize that we needed some time apart. You might think that this will be a couple of weeks and a couple of months.. but.. I don't know. Every time we fought, I hated myself for it. Somehow, even though we loved each other, we lost that magical bond that kept us together. I know that sounds like an excuse, but please forgive me when I say that I didn't mean to fall in love with someone else."

I stopped for a moment. Repeating that sentence in my head. "Please forgive me when I say that I didn't mean to fall in love with someone else." Although this letter was never unopened.. and even though that was a year ago, it still hurt.

" I'll understand if you never want to talk to me again, just as I'll understand if you tell me that you hate me. Part of me hates me, too. Even though you may not want to hear it, I want you to know that you'll always hold a special part in my heart. You're the perfect girl, you're kind and gentle, but more than that.. you're the first girl I ever truly loved. And no matter what the future brings, you always will be, and I know that yours and my life is better for it.

I'm sorry
-Luke"

And with that, the letter ended.

The hardest part of being broken is moving on with your life though you're miserable inside. the excruciating pain will be a torture for each and every passing day. it's hard to live like your normal self again, because all you could think about is the pain of losing someone you dearly love....and most painful? is...losing him because of somebody else. no soothing words could compensate the pains......every waking moment without him is a constant reminder that he's no longer yours...

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ankush says:
10 Aug, 2011 12:56 AM

realy hads off

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Paulamy Ganguly says:
12 Aug, 2011 09:47 AM

This almost made me cry. Your writing is beautiful.

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Julia says:
13 Aug, 2011 12:36 AM

men suck.

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Chelsea Chloei De Guzman says:
14 Aug, 2011 06:09 PM

Aww.. That's true.. The hardest thing to do after breaking up is that.. MOVING ON!

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Gir Torture says:
16 Aug, 2011 10:50 AM

This almost actually made me cry its like this had happened to me to so I can actually feel some of your pain and everything else , the hardest part oflossing the one you truely love is actually moving on "/ :(

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Kin Fisher says:
17 Aug, 2011 06:29 PM

Hello missingyou,
I am writing a book of stories and yours has spoke to me. So, I would like to use it in my new book. If possable, could you e-mail me if you would be interested in allowing me to use you story my new book. My e-mail is Fallen.Leaves@live.com Thank you for your time.
Sincerely, Kin Fisher

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ilugo says:
18 Aug, 2011 01:10 AM

I honestly broke down into tear because this is exactly what I'm going thru, the only difference is that she is the one who wrote me the letter. And I'm( a guy) is the one with the broke heart. The only I wished is that she had said something kind that I could at least hold on to but that will never happen.

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Maria says:
19 Aug, 2011 04:59 PM

Oh wow...I actually just litterally BURST into tears when I read "I didn't mean to fall in love with someone else" part. I am SO SAD FOR YOU that this happened to you. Oh, gawd, I am truely so, so sorry. You deserve better!

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mihir says:
20 Aug, 2011 07:34 AM

this story is so close to me...

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Sveta says:
20 Aug, 2011 11:26 PM

this is so heavy and amazing. this is incredible and very sad. it made me cry.

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Chaos says:
22 Aug, 2011 01:43 PM

Beautiful writing...sorrowing story...

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shekinahrojo says:
23 Aug, 2011 09:19 PM

oh, how sad.. cant stop myself to burst into tears.

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Gauri says:
24 Aug, 2011 12:34 PM

I m going thru the same situation right now where i feel my better half doesnt have any feelings for me and is getting thru in relationship with sumone else, our relation is not yet broken infact we r getting married soon - plz all of you pray for my relationship that it shud not break and it continues the way it was - with love and happiness coz i love Rahul and i cannot even think of staying without him for a single moment.

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Leah says:
26 Aug, 2011 01:35 AM

.....You ,,umm ughh the auh i was oh i mean i';ve was that cause me..... i um was crying into this letter i didn't love someone before no one likes me i had crush on him but it couldn't be so wrong he can't see me nor feel me nor touch me his so high but he can't look down low but still my hear will know i'll always wait for him

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ShaKari says:
01 Sep, 2011 07:50 PM

I literally almost broke out in tears!

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christina says:
03 Sep, 2011 10:56 PM

i hope i can have someone like you! :)'

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Butterfy says:
04 Sep, 2011 03:20 AM

This is what I'm going through . He told me he loved me, but it almost killed me when he said he like another girl . What a painful life !

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Psycho says:
04 Nov, 2011 08:41 PM

I loved all the stuffs which were presented in this website

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nicky says:
22 Nov, 2011 12:40 PM

That was one hell of a letter. I've always seen this but i never understood- Why do guys always say a part of me will always love you and then still love someone else. it just doesnt and never make sense to me.

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leila says:
09 Dec, 2011 12:00 AM

i could relate on your letter because it also happened to me..everything was so perfect then suddenly you will just felt his coldness..and you keep on what wondering if what have you done which makes him cold and upset...

you know, men really sucks!!!!

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ell says:
23 Mar, 2012 10:22 AM

gosh..this story make me sad..

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Serena says:
18 Apr, 2012 02:58 PM

this was a very good story ! I cried reading it,it felt that i was the person in the story! it was so good! now i have learned that people have the same problems as me thank you for everything ! you have made my like 49500129 times better!
love your number one fan ser! <3 xx
have a good night beautiful ill be thinking of you ;)

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Serena Carrothers says:
18 Apr, 2012 02:59 PM

This story emotionally moved me, woah. This is beautiful. I love it so much, I am so currently heart brokn and this story just sums up my emotions. Thank you for being the voice inside my head. Anytime you need me, I'll be there. Thank you ... thank you. <3 xx

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yaberooney says:
28 Aug, 2012 10:26 AM

This goes to all girls who think guys are jerks, tbh girls these days go for looks not personality, it serves them right when they go for someone who doesn't have the same feelings as u

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maricela says:
03 Dec, 2012 01:12 AM

oh my gosh...i cried so hard after reading this because i have went through that pain before...just keep your head up. God chose a man for you and it is not that one.

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mae says:
31 Jan, 2013 07:44 AM

the most sucked attitude that love will teach you ,, is being a " PRETENDER " ..

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username-unknown says:
01 Apr, 2013 07:22 AM

... mae, true.

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lyngdoh says:
30 Apr, 2013 12:01 PM

I just love the sad stories posted in this site. Cheers "lover of sadness" Each time I read the stories, my heart would beat so loud that I can even hear them. Post more & more.

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noooo says:
20 May, 2013 09:09 AM

lame go learn what love is.

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Felicia Morgan says:
21 May, 2013 01:32 PM

ummm, im not sure if i like it or not....

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Deberi secreta says:
03 Sep, 2014 05:47 AM

Why the hell does your story look like somebody has written the ending of my story? Except I am the guy who fell in love with another girl and hates himself for every argument and is about to break up.
It's sad to think you girls seem to not even try to understand that break up after a long relationship is really painful for the guy too. And if he could, he would do it in a way that won't hurt you at all.
Well, in fact you girls saying "you deserve better" is exactly my thoughts. When I stop to think about it, I realize that all the pain she will go through would never happen if I never went to her life.
But when I hear "men really suck"... Hell, I am the guy from this story, I gave her all of my heart and I don't want it to end this way. If you don't really understand what the other person is feeling, don't blame him for not understanding your feelings.

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beni says:
28 Nov, 2015 12:35 PM

M crying ryt now...av been tru da sme situation ....m missing sum1:-(

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