thanks for the memories14 Oct, 2010 07:31 AM
He was a boy who always been in my mind. he had hurt me a lot. i cant count how many mistakes he had made to me. and all i could do on those painful days were just pretending that i was okay and thinking that he still loves me.
Well he is my ex, his name is Chris. maybe you are thinking that he is the one with a hot body and of course handsome. nope you're wrong.. he's just a fat boy. but many people called him playboy. and yes he is.. i didn't see his body, i didn't see his face, i just loved him too much. even until now.
It was 22th February 2010. the day that i've been dreaming of had finally come. he called me and we were having some chit chat on the phone. and...surprisingly he asked me if i wanted to be his girlfriend again(yep before that day, i was his girlfriend but we broke up). and of course i said yes i want. i couldn't handle that feeling. i didn't care if he would hurt me or whatever, well it was on that day.
After that day, we were always together. even at school or at the mall. my mom even knows him well and he often came to my house to had dinner together with my family. i thought that he was really really in love with me and wouldn't do anything to hurt me. until that day... the last day he hugged me tightly... the last day i saw his smile... it was my birthday on 1st april 2010. after school, my mom told me to go to supermarket first to buy some fruits. then i went to supermarket without noticed there was something wrong. half an hour later, i went back to my house and.....there were my mom, my dad, all my best friends, and...Chris. they gave me surprise on my birthday. i was really excited and the most important was it made me love chris more and more. we were having a great and unforgettable day.
but, on the next day, chris didn't text me the way he used to. i felt there's something wrong so i called him and he said that he was having a row with their parents. then i let him alone for a while. he likes to be alone when he is having problem.
one week later, he was still seem stress with his problems. i tried to ask but he didn't want me to know what had happened. in the afternoon after school, chris asked me to went to mall where we usually spent time together there. we were having lunch together when suddenly a girl with long black hair and chubby face came to our table and sit next to chris. chris started to speak, "i know I'm wrong. i know that you love me and honestly i love you too callista. but i think it would be better for us to break up. i just....don't love you anymore. and she is my new girlfriend, anna."
It seems like all the part of my body was broken and all i wanted on that time was just to run from that fuckin situation. how come he found the other girl and asked her to be his girlfriend while i was still his. after that day, i tried to live my life without chris in my mind but i just couldnt. and you know, i deactivated all my social network in order to forget him. he tried to call and text me but i never wanted to pick it up and reply it. i just couldn't forgive him. hes really really an asshole. it had been 6 months since we broke up and i never wanted to talk to him again until i found a quote.."you have to forgive to forget, and forget to feel again." yes i knew i was wrong too so on the next day i called him and he said he was sorry and yes i forgave him. i wanted to move on. so i thought it would be better for me to forgive him in order to....forget.