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Forget or Fight?

Audrey M

12 Sep, 2010 08:42 AM

I'm a 14 year old girl who is very depressed and wanting to be loved by him...
Now some people would say that 8th grade was too young to have their first love?I, on the other hand, think otherwise. It was a Monday, the second week of school. I was off to my 8th period class, Spanish. We were assigned to sit at a table of four. Grant S sat in front of me. He was very shy and never talked. At least that's what I thought.
The next day when I went to Spanish, I overheard two girls shouting at Grant.
"Why won't you ask her out!!!!" shouted one girl.
"Don't you like her?" yelled the other.
Grant stood for a second, looking like he would explode. Right before he could respond, class started. After school, I came home and went on Facebook to check out my Farmville. I was still a bit curious about the argument in Spanish today. I found out that Grant was online so i decided to ask him about it.
"Hey Grant. Its Audrey from Spanish. I was just wondering what you and those girls were yelling about?" i typed.
"Hey well they were getting me to ask out this girl but my religion wont allow me to date till 16." texted Grant.
I was surprised and thought what religion he was. He replied that he was LDS, or Mormon. I didn't know what that was so Grant explained that he couldn't have caffeine and couldn't date till 16.
Soon after that, the two became great friends. I secretly thought Grant was cute and funny. And i wanted to find out if he felt the same way so I texted him and asked who he liked. He didn't reply for awhile and I worried. He finally told me that he liked me. I was relieved and surprised and said that i liked him back. Soon they were inseparable. All i could talk about was Grant and they stayed up texting all night.
One day when I came home from school, I got a text from Grant asking if they could talk on the phone. They ended up talking for 2 hours and Grant even went to my cheer leading game. After he had asked if I would want to go out with him. Of course I said yes but then complained that he needs to ask me out in person. So the next day in the computer lab, Grant called me from behind and I turned.
"Will you go out with me?" Grant asked nervously.
"What???" I whispered.
"Will you go out with me?" Repeated Grant.
"Of course" I smiled.
The two were finally going out officially. In Spanish they would always flirt and laugh. Sometimes they would get in trouble for interrupting the class. They would even play footsie under the table. They were so adorable together that everyone commented on their relationship. Keeping in mind that Grant was a Mormon. I thought that I was so special for him to be breaking his beliefs just to go out with an average girl like me. They went out for awhile and one night Grant said something that I will never EVER forget.
"Audrey umm i don't know how to say this but i love you. Oh my gosh i have never said that to anyone and what the perfect person to say it to." texted Grant.
"Oh wow um i love you too Grant" I said shocked.
The two became in love. So in love that they were never apart. Grant and I would always flirt and play argue. David(who sat beside me in Spanish) was also a Mormon and he did not approve of Grant breaking his beliefs. Grant didn't care. He was truly in love?or so I thought.
After school,awhile later. I came home to find a long inbox message on Facebook. It was from Grant.
"Audrey?you know how I'm Mormon? and i cant date till 16? well I'm feeling really guilty about that so can we just be friends? i still really really like you but i don't think its right. We are only in 8th grade and I'm 13. I know we haven't kissed or gone on a date but please lets be friends. i still like you. a lot. but this is the right thing." Messaged Grant.
I couldn't believe what was happening. It had been 3 months of pure happiness and it was gone in 4 seconds. He had dumped me on Facebook. That was worst then breaking up over text! I was so upset that I deleted every picture of Grant and didn't talk to him the next day in Spanish. After school Grant texted me 5 times asking me what was wrong and that he was sorry. Finally I answered and asked why he did it at the moment he did. He said that his church friends were making him feel guilty about it.
That night, I cried my heart out(i still do...every night). I really loved Grant. I decided to write a song about how I felt. Weeks went by and Grant and I stopped talking. Soon it was winter break and Grant texted me for the first time in awhile. He confessed that he still thought about me all the time and that he still loved me, I was so happy and decided to show him my song. He said he loved it. Soon after the break i was excited to go back to school. This time Grant was ignoring me. After school he told me he didn't like me anymore. I cried more and more and soon became depressed. Grant was my first and only true love. And I was Grant's first and only love too. I kept writing sad love songs about Grant. I listened to our "song" everyday.(If you're not the one by Daniel Bedingfield) I totally wasn't myself without him. I found out that I was moving to London at the end of the year. And the rest of the year went past like a blur. Soon it was the last week of school and I was arguing with Grant. After he said he had to go, He had told me to look up a song called "You're the inspiration." He said it reminded him of me and it was a love song. He told me that he had always loved me and that he wished he could hug me forever. I almost cried when i heard this. i could not believe what i was hearing.
The next day he had told me that he still liked this girl but he LOVED me?as a friend. I was once again heartbroken and became depressed. The last day of school came quickly and then came my last day in America. I had already texted everyone goodbye except one person. Grant. I had asked him if he loved me deep down at all.
"No." texted Grant.
I was sad and soon i was in London. Now everyone told her that she was gonna find hot guys in London but she kept thinking about Grant?
Its been about 2 months since i moved and i still deeply love him, I always stalk him on facebook and see him talking to other girls and it crushes me. I deeply love him. I want to tell him that i still miss him and love him but i just cant. Also on the last week of school he had told me that when i came back in two years, he would be 16 and he hoped he would deeply care about me so that we could be together. It crushes me literally to see him forget about me and forget about the feelings i deeply have for him. I cry every night and write songs about him. I cant feel happy anymore i just cant:( I miss you Grant i really do:/

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jo says:
16 Sep, 2010 04:15 AM u cant really move on so easily....i know its hard but u must also try to face the fact that maybe you and him were not really meant for each other and maybe their will be someone who is really worth for love you forever;]]]

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adam says:
16 Sep, 2010 03:31 PM

wow...thts the same thing thtz happening to me xcept for tha mormon thing i feel for u

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Audrey M says:
17 Sep, 2010 12:06 PM

Thanks guys. Maybe your right. It sucks though:/

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Chloe G. says:
17 Sep, 2010 12:22 PM

This guy seems to care about you from the way you talk about him, as well as you. And You do love him, as shown from here. If you really want some advice, look deep down inside yourself and do what really makes you happy. If it's Grant that you see, then tell him, but just be prepared for rejection or acception. He'd be an idiot not to accept it. But for the fact he broke up with you over facebook was proof that he couldn't grow a pair and face to face talk to you. There is someone out there for everyone, and you will find the right person :)

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Jose says:
18 Sep, 2010 11:52 PM

The fact that he said no to ever loving you is probably a way of hm not to feel guilt.he probably still has feelings for you despite that he say he didn' ex did that to me and when I asks her closest friends if she vr loved me they said she really did.I somewhat felt better but then seeing her with another guy just makes me wanna get on my knees and scream. She is always so happy with him. And when I was with her she said I was the best bf she ever had. Then she started saying how she's a bad gf and that I'm too good for her and that I should just break up with her. Then I found out that when she said all that crap she wanted me to break up with her so she doesn't have to..bad bad bad and painful breakup...

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Jose says:
25 Sep, 2010 02:01 AM

argsggscg!!! i hate that. i really loved my ex and i was told i always made her laugh and i maDe eveRYTHING fEEL BETTER. BUT I ASKED HER IF SHE EVER LOVED ME AND SHE SAID NO.... :,( and sorry caps lock

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jailine says:
09 Oct, 2010 08:46 AM

awwwwww message me awww this is soo saddddddd

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Steff says:
01 May, 2011 09:56 PM

Omg! Grants a dick excuse my laungege but come on! Hr telld u he loves u but then he takes it back n his forgetin abt u girl get ova him he aint worth it

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Turia Ruaia says:
09 Jun, 2011 10:42 PM

OMG i am like crying and i feel really sorry and since i am LDS i am sort of feeling sorry for what happen to u and will try and up the topic or i can even ask my cousin to do for me and if u want to talk i would be free and would love to hear from u since i would love to write a story on both of u form my english love love story please i mean if that is okay for u, u dont have to if u want u is my email.... hope i hear from u
and i love and cry from ur story, i read it to my mom and dad along with my sisters and brothers.

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Your Angel says:
17 Jun, 2011 11:57 PM

Aw...): Girl.... You R A Fragile Flower & He's A Bee, Dont Let Him Get Love (Nectar) And Just Flot Away Into The Sky! Theirs Another Bee Heading Your Way:) All You Need To Do Is Delete Him From Facebook, Your Phone, Throw Away All The Songs You Made.. And Look To The Future:) Your Future Is Bright, But Your Hiding Under A Tree:) Let The Sun Shine....

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M says:
03 Aug, 2011 05:50 PM

Omg i know how you are feeling. I cry meself to sleep ever night. I also cut, but forget about me.I am just really really really sorry that this happend to you. I hope that you find someone way better and that he never leaves you.

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Julia says:
13 Aug, 2011 12:33 AM

im so sorry <3 ive been there. n i know what its like.

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tarra says:
14 Sep, 2011 10:00 PM

im mormon too , and tbh i never cared about the age rulke if you love someone and you knw you want them in your future then why not ): but i totally know what your feeling cause i loved someone so much like you did and he just moved on so fast it broke my heart actually tbh it stil does break my heart and i cry everynight and every day ): how could he just forget about us like that! dontworry audrey i feel your pain. but you know what if hes dum enough to walk away then be brainier enough to forget him okay.

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dezzyyy says:
20 Sep, 2011 01:49 PM

girl, i know it's hard to forget about a guy like that... trust me i know, but god has mysterious ways... you may think that your in love with him but if its ended, then it wasn't meant to be. trust me, there are plenty of other guys that you'll date and you'll think that they are perfect, but they aren't if Grant really loved you then he would have broken ALL rules that are in the way of loving you. you may think I'm crazy, stupid or that i don't what i am talking about but i do. i have been a situation like yours before and it sucks but everything happens to make us stronger and learn from our mistakes. xoxo, dezzy STAY STRONG!

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dezzyyy says:
20 Sep, 2011 01:50 PM

if u need to talk im here at OR

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prashant says:
04 Oct, 2011 06:45 AM

if u wanna move on try this-:
take a pic of him n burn it n throw ashes in toilet
u will feel a lot better
i tried it n it worked

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Megan says:
15 Oct, 2011 10:56 PM

Omg!! Girl I know EXACTLY how you feel...That story (which I read all of it by the way:) reminded me of me & Jake <3 this may sound stupid but just know that your not alone :) if you ever need any1 2 talk 2 talk 2 God

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Sarah says:
31 Jul, 2012 07:52 PM

Forget that guy and think about UR life... Good luck

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Brian says:
17 Aug, 2012 02:43 PM

If he doesn't like you then think about this.
You can spend your life with someone a lot hotter

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victoria says:
04 Oct, 2012 03:52 AM

i feel bad 4 u...i know how feel..its really hard 2 move on

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OneDirection=MyLife says:
23 Mar, 2013 06:41 PM

someone who stops loving u is not ur true love..move on.ur true love is around the corner!

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tyronyMs13 says:
28 Mar, 2013 07:38 AM

Like homegurl said god works in mysterious ways...
Thus that's probably why you moved to london...
Only think to do now is do you and keep your head up...
Wish you the best : )

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ArethaM says:
27 Jun, 2013 07:53 PM

Wow the English in this is absolutely terrible.

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natalie says:
11 Aug, 2014 09:10 AM

This story just told my hole live almost but I'm in 6th and he is in 8th and I still wonder as soon as I get to high school will he love me again but Idk anymore just so much drama with Mr an him

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Brandon says:
18 Mar, 2015 03:23 AM

I noticed one story that there's "they" where "we" & "I" should be, sounds ripped from somewhere

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Brown lover says:
19 Apr, 2015 02:25 PM

This is such a touching story... I feel your pain and know what you are going through. I know you can get through this. You just have to let it go so you can be free and live your life how it should be. I know you can do this and no matter what you'll be fine without him...... Good Luck and stay strong.....

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Sara says:
18 May, 2015 04:27 PM

It's been almost 5 years since you bravely touched all of our hearts with your story. I would love to read an update from you.?.

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callista.m says:
20 May, 2015 04:07 AM

yeah I get what you mean but its not like he has a religion where you cant talk, shop or hang out with guys(because I am an Indian who was born in Australia).

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tom says:
04 Dec, 2015 03:09 PM

its hard when you miss the person you love and you don't know what they are doing I cant talk or see my girlfriend until next Wednesday and it feels like forever and it hurts sooooo much so it must hurt a lot more for you but always keep your head up you will find somebody everybody does just at different times and you will know when you find them I have found mine and im 13 and she is 16 but age doesn't matter it is how you feel about each other that matters I love her to bits but there are some people in the world that will throw away a girl who will him him her world for a girl who will give him a disease love is the best feeling ever you just need to find it you will find it one day

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Kari says:
25 Apr, 2017 02:26 PM

Hm....I have the same issue with getting over guys, You aren't in Love, you're obssesed,and this isn't healthy. I know its hard,but at least TRY to move on.Its the best you can do.

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Vicky says:
22 May, 2018 01:34 PM

I wish you luck in life. I know how hard it is to get over someone. When I was in middle school my boyfriend that I was dating broke up with me over the summer. I still love that guy with all my heart. And he is the boy I'm dating again for in high school. I love him so much and I'm really glad I gave him another chance

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