to be broken
Jessica
15 Jun, 2015 10:20 AM
OK... this is a story that starts when I first entered high school... I was a 13 teen year old bisexual girl who was happy and joyous all the time. One day I met this amazing girl who, I have to admit... id fallen in love with... she was beautiful... brown eyes, long brown hair down to her butt, amazing smile, (for this story ill call her "Kate")
So on that day I decided to become friends with her. A couple weeks later I had never felt so in love and hypnotized by this one girl so I asked (at the time I did know if she was gay or bi ) "w-will you go out with me?" She stared at me and laughed before saying "we should be wifeys" (of course that's what she said... in other words "no!")
Weeks had past and she started teasing me... she said she loved me but every time I asked if she would go out with me... she would laugh. She would hold my hand and I would go along with it because I loved her, and if I had to pretend to be a friend, it was better than nothing. About a year after being "friends" with her she started to date this guy... and she would go up to me and say "Jess (<-- my name) don't you think _______ and I are amazing together" that was fine but after that she said "I think that _______ and I are a better couple than you and I would ever be"... that's when I snapped... she was taunting me... so I yelled at her and didn't talk to her for ages...
The only reason I talk to her again is because she started cutting herself and showing it to me and saying "look what your doing to me". So I forgave her and became her slave once more. OK, fast forward to the next year, I started dating a girl named jorja (One of the girl's friends) we lasted a week (we didn't have many things in common) anyway... later that week "Kate" invited me to her house, I said yes. (Fast forward to the weekend)
We went shopping together and in the car "Kate" stole my iPod and gave it back to me.... on the screen... was my dream... "Will you go out with me???" "Kate" had written it in bold... being a year and a half of me waiting, crying, asking, she final was my lover. (I swear I nearly cried when I saw the message)... she kissed me.... she hugged me.... I thought she loved me.... but I was wrong.. she broke up with me 2 days later
She just walked up to me and said "I don't think I'm bisexual... so I don't want to date anymore" then she turned around and walked away... my heart broke and I cried for so so long hoping, praying that it was a dream... but it was cruel "Kate" .... after that she still played with my feelings stepped on my heart
On this current day I don't talk to "Kate" because my friend died of a brain tumor... she said "well my TV show is more important so shut up" then behind my back she texted my friend saying " she's such a f##king b#tch, I hope she dies in a hole".... I just needed to get that off my chest... I've never regretted something so much in my life... but I'm a f#@king idiot... because I still secretly love her...
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Comments
Post a Comment26 Jul, 2015 11:44 PM
I'm so sorry to hear that, it was such a cruel thing for her to play you like that. I can understand how you still loved her even after all she did. Love is also a cruel feeling, it plays with your mind, but I'm sure you will find the right person ??
29 Jul, 2015 06:48 AM
Nathan thank you for the kind words :) it helps a lot and maybe I will find someone who loves me inside and out
07 Aug, 2015 08:24 PM
I'm so sorry to hear that, that happend to you but I'm a lesbian and I really like this girl that used to go to my school but she hates my guts but the crazy thing is I still like her so I totally get how you felt????
08 Aug, 2015 10:11 PM
I am deeply sorry to hear that I know how it feels to get played like that by someone honestly it took alot from me
It's clear to see how much you loved her from the way you described her
Love can hurt like hell half of the time
I hope things get better you deserve way better soon you'll find someone who will treat you right good luck
11 Aug, 2015 11:12 AM
To tashi its pretty cruel when you love someone so dearly but they don't like you back.... But I think we'll both find someone amazing <3
To Ryan thank you for your comment it made me really happy because of your kind words, and yeah love can hurt, heal or leave a hole. And Thank you so much for the luck
14 Aug, 2015 02:01 AM
it's touching story sister.. I face same problem like this in my life..but I believe in God..I will get the right person..
04 Sep, 2015 12:13 AM
I thjnk i feel u kind of same story happend to me i just couldn't forget her after all her "ignorance" to me , my friends say that m stupid but the heart want what it wants evenknow iam not guy or bi just nrmal but i love her that bad .. :/
04 Oct, 2015 09:17 AM
Love hurts always
10 Jan, 2016 09:56 PM
being gay/lesbian is nothing to be ashamed of im thirteen and straight but i help my lesbian and gay friends with problems and they are in healthy relationships youll find someone
25 May, 2016 07:12 PM
I wonder how ppl play wd feelings i cant even imagine of destroying or