Fall From Grace24 Sep, 2012 06:42 AM
Early in 2011, I felt as if my life was in a rut. I woke up, showered, went to school, came home, homework, and went to sleep. I never did anything different. Until Samantha came into my life.
She was everything I wanted in a girl. She was absolutely perfect. Whenever I saw her, my entire day lit up as she ran into my arms. She was my true first love, first kiss, my everything. It was amazing being with her. I cared for her with everything I had. I was in love with her. But then, when school was ending, and summer was young, I couldn't go to school and see her. She told me, she was getting lonely. I sent her a message. A very, very, sappy lovey-dovey message that I never really wanted to send. I was just caring about her so she wouldn't feel bad anymore. She felt suffocated from it. She began to have little fights with me until in June 2011, she blocked me from contact with her. Then, in October 2011, it was nearing her Halloween party for her birthday. She began talking to me again. She invited me to the party. I couldn't make it. After that, she stopped talking to me. I tried to bring up somethings, but she rarely replied or answered in few words.
April 2012, I found out, she was with someone else. She had replaced me. She was hugging, kissing, flirting around with someone else the whole time we weren't talking. I asked her about it, but she just got angry with me and blocked me from contact, again. But this time, she told me to move on and forget her. She told lies to people at her new school about me. She helped me realize how lonely I was. I realized there will always be someone better than me. This resulted in suicidal thoughts. She got word of that, and told me that that was stupid. I realized I could be DEAD and she wouldn't even care. I am so ashamed to say, I STILL LOVE HER. People have told me to move on, but there is no one else I want more. I am waiting for the closure of why she did this to me. Thank you, whoever is reading this, for knowing some of my story. I wish you are doing better than I am. Help me.