Friends23 Aug, 2012 03:31 AM
It all started during freshmen year in high school. There was this girl I've had my eyes on for a while, but since I'm not really popular nor an attractive person I always doubted that I would ever be with her. Soon comes the time where I have a few classes with her. In the beginning I still doubted that we'd ever even be friends but when we did start to talk a little I got a vibe from her that it seemed like she liked me. When I found out that she enjoyed talking to me I was always excited to go to the classes I had with her just to even talk to her.
After a bit of time had passes we started texting a lot and I mean a lot, we had many conversations about our lives and everything. At this time we were just good friends that cared for each other but I still had feelings for her. She started calling me cute and I felt great being complimented because I'm really not used to it. We started to get more into our friendship and started saying love you all the time, at this point I knew she had to like me so we started flirting and talking about hanging out. I felt great for once as if it seemed like I found somebody that actually cares for me. I started to feel attached and she did too but neither of us wanted to stop and I felt as if this was something that was going to last and before I knew it we would be dating.
A month or two passes by and everything is still the same nothing has changed but I was thinking its been a little too long and I was getting a little tired of it, but no matter what every time she text-ed me I stopped whatever I was doing just to text her back, I knew I officially had deep feelings for her to the point where I would feel heartbroken if I even thought about her with somebody else. We talked a little and I started to understand that she likes a lot of other guys too and one is my friend which is even worse, next thing I see on her phone is her texting all these guys about her problems. I felt a little crushed because I thought that was all something that went between us but she liked to talk to these other people about it but she talked to them the exact way she talked to me as if she liked them. Well enough with the boring details, I finally decided to ask her out and what she said to me was "I didn't think that you would ever like me like that.",
I was excited because I thought she would say yes instead she said no because we are too good of friends and she doesn't want to lose me. I just went with it because I didn't want myself to seem desperate but no matter what, she is on my mind 24/7 to the point where I sometimes wish I never met her. She gets dramatic with me a lot now And it feels like her feeling weren't the same as before. I have usually been a depressed person but this has just been making me more depressed. I started doing hard drugs again because I felt the same as I did before I met her. Alone...
But I still tried but now she has no feelings for me anymore since she's popular she started looking into the more popular and good looking guys. I've been feeling heartbroken. Ever since and kinda just gave up on girls and relationships. I'm still hoping She will come back to me and we can be together but whatever. This story might even not been too interesting and I apologize for that of I wasted your time I just needed to get things off my chest this is a very long and confusing situation that I don't have time to type about.