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I still care.


30 Sep, 2011 06:06 PM

I miss you.

It started out in 6th grade. We were 11. It was Christmas break and you had asked out probably 4 girls. And, yes, i was your last destination. You told your friend, who told my friend, who told me, that you liked me. I still remember it to this day.

I got your number, and we started texting. We started talking in December, and i liked you and you liked me, but i didn't want a boyfriend. We became very close. We were an awkward little duo.

We told each other EVERYTHING over text. But nothing in person. We didn't speak once. Finally, after 2 months of "talking" you asked me out. I said yes. We still didn't speak in person, but we texted each other from 6:00 am, until late, late at night. At school we would save spots for each other at lunch, and in the gym. It was a cute little relationship.

I was still 11 at the time, and i had no idea what it meant to "love".

Over the summer, i went to a camp for children with diabetes. I met a kid, and i thought he was so cute and funny. I felt the slightest attraction to him. I had to tell "Joe" (cover up name), who was still my boyfriend at the time, because i felt terrible.

He then told me that he didn't like that, and so we broke up. I cried at camp, i cried at school, i cried at home. all night. every day. i really believe i loved him. 7th grade came along, and we had still been talking over the summer and stuff. He would tell me he liked me, and then tell me he liked another girl. And i would cry some more. And he just played me. Over and over.

I finally just asked him to tell me the straight up truth, and he told me that "he only liked me because he felt bad". I was crushed. I didn't talk to anyone. This was in 7th grade, and i was 12ish.

Now I am in 8th grade, almost in high school, and over the summer he would like me and then not like me for a day. I mean, he wasn't a terrible person. He was SUPER smart, athletic, and nice. And he wasn't afraid to hide his emotions towards me. Our parents knew each other and we all still talk to this day.

But its not the same. Now he doesn't like me. But, i still like him. I have ever since Christmas break of 6th grade. And i.. i think i just love him? I'm turning 14 in the next month. And i know everyone reading this is going to blow it off and think I'm being dramatic.. But i really, really like this kid.. and unfortunately, i have a feeling i always will. Every time he smiles, i smile. I look at him and feel butterflies. STILL. I don't know what to do.. and its been this way for about 3 years. He knows everything about me, i know everything about him. And so now i don't know what to do. I told all my friends, including him, that i don't like him anymore. But the only person who knows its a lie, is me. And i always will like him.. Always.

Tags: Young, Love, Missing, Hard
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riya tiwari says:
04 Mar, 2012 10:59 AM

i like this one so much i really love this

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La'tina says:
05 Mar, 2012 11:27 AM

to: "riya tiwari"- im not tryin to critisize u honey, buh how can u read this story and juat say that.. she needs counsoling more than a comment on her story.

to: who ever wrote this story- honey, dnt worry.. u might feel like this now, but once you get to highskool, for sure, ull meet a better guy than him.. he sounds great, but dnt waste ur time with a guy that admited that he haves no interest for u.. trust, i have been through the same, and wen i finaly decided not to waste my time i felt great.. i cant say i have found the one, im only a sophmore in highskool, but i kno for sure that i will. i actually have my eye on someone, and whos know?.. maybe hes "the one".. but dnt waste ur time no more.

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Neesh says:
05 Mar, 2012 04:16 PM

Oh sweetie, you need to talk to him about this.. I was in a similar situation at your age and I still regret not telling him. I love my boyfriend with all my heart but i still wonder..what if? What if I told him that my feelings never went away.. What would have happend? It's up to you but I'm a senior in Highschool almost to graduate, yu can move on without knowing but I still wish I would have got my feelings out there so I would at least have closure. My current boyfriend is who i plan on spending the rest of my life with, so don't think you can't move on because you can but it takes a little more time and no one can ever truly move on with a broken heart.. I hope I helped Hun.. If you need someone to talk to about this yu can email me :)

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Bunny lover says:
06 Mar, 2012 01:05 AM

Wow this is a awesome story i like my BFF amd his real name is joe and everything u said is the exact thing that happened to me minus the camp part i liked a guy in another school.... ;) love rhe person who wrotr this i wishwe could be friends ao i could comfort u im the nicest person to all my friends!! Ily!! <3

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Miguel says:
06 Mar, 2012 05:11 AM

PAgxure bah?

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mona says:
08 Mar, 2012 03:38 AM

yeah ,i agree with neesh
don't waste ur time in such guy
you'll still met a guy who will love you as much as you love him ..
you deserved much better than "him"
go,go,go .. cheer up
hwaeting :)

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SophieKane says:
08 Mar, 2012 01:59 PM

Heyy i know exactly how you feel, i felt the same about 2 years ago when i got my first boyfriend. Yea i was a little older than you, but the feelings still the same. Trust me, give it some time you'll find an amazing person who deserves you way more than him :)

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leeya says:
08 Mar, 2012 06:47 PM

u should take ths should let him knw how u feel.dnt tel him u dont like him when u know exactly well you lyng to yourself.i dont know how he'l react after you've tel him but seriously u got to

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Maggie says:
09 Mar, 2012 01:09 AM

omg this just happens to me to.. like I could've wrote this... OMFG... E-mail me!!!

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Emmerz says:
11 Mar, 2012 09:48 PM

I know how you feel girl... hate that feeling. :( You should talk to him about it! I agree with Neesh. Put your heart out there and hope he will take it! The worst he can say is no. You aren't going to get arrested or anything so just talk to him and if he says no just shake it off and try again at another time. I promise he might like you too there is a 50% chance he still likes you! I had this happen a while ago so don't worry I am sure things will turn out ok!


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Megan says:
12 Mar, 2012 09:15 PM

I definetely know waht you are going through! The same thing has happened to me, but i have liked this guy for 10 year.....he likes a blonde at my school now, and i just don't know what to do!

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Sukia says:
13 Mar, 2012 05:41 AM

I know that exact feeling. I'm 12 and in 6th grade. In fifth and fourth grade I was In love (I think) with this guy. Idk if he liked me tho. Well 4 some reason we always got 2 sit next to each. Other in class for years. We've been Friends since kindergarten and I still kinda like him. He made me laugh so hard I cried. Now he's in an honors class and he doesn't talk to me anymore what do I do? Should I continue loving him or just leave him? I NEED ADVICE!!

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anya says:
18 Mar, 2012 06:14 AM

omg this is just how i met my crush and dont worry about guys right now. right now you need to foucus on school and then you can daydream about this guy all you want.

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Ayaa says:
23 Mar, 2012 09:00 AM

Your still young.. You'll find someone beter + all guys are jerks hunii trust me!

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swagata dutta says:
26 Mar, 2012 03:29 PM

when yo are young, it's tend to be fall in love...

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Amber says:
30 Mar, 2012 04:19 PM

I know exactly how you're feeling! i've liked a guy since the 7th grade when i was around 13. I'm almost 16 now. Me and him also started talking in December and he asked me out...only because his friend dared him to do it! I also cried cause it hurt really bad! it was horrible! He still texts me to this very day and he calls me and comes to my house and sits with me on the bus and stuff. But.... I know he likes me....yet he won't tell me that he does. he says he doesn't only because his friends think that we shouldn't date. I dont think i'll ever get over him...i also told my friends im over him but i know im not. I love him soooo much...more than words could ever possibly express. So i can really relate to your story... it sucks to be in this situation ...but remember...everything happens for a reason. There is a possibilaty that you guys will be together....but its your're going to have to tell him how you feel. In your heart you'll know if what hes saying is true or not...just go with your gut feeling.

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Raisa Azad says:
18 Jul, 2012 07:15 AM

I was in class 4 wen i had fallen in love mwid a i boy of class 10...coz he was shorter & weaker than me..i miss u Raj

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Raisa Azad says:
19 Jul, 2012 11:42 AM

hope u read it my cute love Raj

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