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My Internal Wish

K.K.

10 Dec, 2011 01:23 PM

It was heartbreaking, seeing my friend- my first crush leave me. My eyes were full of tears that day as he left.

"Hey K.K.! Wait for me!" he yelled, I stopped and turned around. He hugged me tightly as I embraced it. "I'm going to miss your smile and face once I'm gone..." he trailed off, leaving me with a puzzled expression.

"Wait, what do you mean gone?" I asked suddenly, leaving his friendly hug.

"I'm sorry," he began to whisper. "I didn't tell you earlier. You would never forgive me. His gaze met mines, full of sadness. "You would beg me to stay. But it's better this way, to keep this a secret."

"You mean... You're moving?" I asked, shocked and angry by the surprise.

"Yeah, if I told you sooner you would worry. I don't want to see you sad for the past couple of days. I wanted to see you happy instead..."

I felt tears, yet I blinked them back. "You should have told me sooner!" I heard myself, almost a shriek. "I could have been... I don't know!" I was feeling all mixed up in the inside. Like if I should be angry or sad. Mad or nostalgic.

"I'm so sorry K.K. Could you ever forgive me?" I saw him fish something out of his jacket. He pulled out a single red rose and showed it too me. "I wanted to tell you, but I was afraid. Telling you this is hard, but I don't want to leave!"

"Then why can't you?" I shot back.

"Everything's been filled out ahead of time. My parents didn't break me the news until the last couple days, K.K."

"..." I was speechless, I took a step backwards.

"No, no, don't go!" he grabbed my hand, "I've always wanted to confess something to you!"

"No... Leave me alone!" I said, breaking away from his grasp. I started taking off in the opposite direction from him, "Leave me alone!"

Faintly, I heard him yell, "I Love You!" out loud.

My heart raced as I ran and ran.

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Till this day, I regret doing so.
I came back and regretted all my actions.
I caught up to him the day before he finally left.
"I'm so sorry!" I say, running up to him.
"It's okay, I don't blame you."
"No, it was me. I over-reacted, I was so overwhelmed with emotions."
"It's okay... I'm just glad I got to see you one last time." He took my hand, and place something in my palm.
I looked down and saw that beautiful scarlet flower.
"Me too..." I replied, in a soft whisper.

Tags: Goodbye, Love, Let Go
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Aria says:
27 Jun, 2012 03:43 PM

I had something happen to me just like that a few weeks ago, except i knew it was coming. I knew he had to leave but i just didnt want to believe it. He was the love of my life and he still is. I was with him for 5 weeks but eventhough 5 weeks isnt a very long time, it was the best 5 weeks of my life. I havent talked to him for 2 weeks now and it is breaking my heart. It is killing me inside and i dont know what to do... and the worst thing is that I'm only 16 and I'm pregnant with his baby girl. I didnt even get the chance to tell him and i dont know if i ever will since he is now living in a completely different country to me. I miss him so much everyday, i dream about him every night and i worry about the future for me and my baby. I dont know what to do, i want him back! I've tried praying and praying as hard as i can but nothing seems to be working anymore. I feel so alone as no one knows that i am pregnant yet. My heart is so broken, i will never forget him. He made all my dreams come true but he had to leave. That isnt right, it isnt the way its supposed to be, is it?

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kathleen says:
30 Jun, 2012 09:39 AM

hmm .. can you please give me some advice ? my friends told me that my bf loves somebody else .. wat shud i do ? shud i leave him or shud i stay ?

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Aria says:
02 Jul, 2012 04:10 PM

Kathleen -
Hmm... If your friends are telling you that your boyfriend is in love with someone else, then you need to find out the truth for yourself. It is the best way! Tell your boyfriend what you have been hearing and see what he says then. The best way to have a relationship is to be honest about everything! Tell him how you're feeling and what you are going to do if what your friends say is true. It will open up his eyes and then he will realise what he wants aswel. Find out if he is truly in love with you too. You deserve to know the truth, so go for it!

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jessica says:
05 Jul, 2012 03:32 AM

This was a sad, sweet story. I really feel for whoever has been through situations like this.

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Aria says:
06 Jul, 2012 07:47 PM

Can somebody out there please give me some advice about my story above ^^^ Please, I'm desperate!

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Kate says:
10 Jul, 2012 04:29 AM

@Aria

Uhmm .. you should find him and tell him about your baby. I think that's the best thing to do because when your girl grows up, she will start asking about her Daddy. Good luck! Wish you all the best! :*

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Aria says:
19 Jul, 2012 04:06 PM

@Kate
Thank you for your advice :)

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eemaan says:
23 Aug, 2012 08:36 AM

@Aria:
i feel sorry for you but never give up your hope..be strong face the truth face the world..i wish you all the best..tvgc :)

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Anna says:
22 May, 2014 03:09 AM

This happened to me when I was 17...I'm 20now...he found me again and now we're married!!! I <3 THIS STORY!!!

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