Missing u :(17 Sep, 2015 03:58 AM
Message to my ex... :(
I think about you every night before i go to bed. i imagine you here with me. Does it even matter anymore?
no. :( Last night I got a message from him saying: "I dont know how to start this without saying im sorry but i dont know if apoligizing is good enough anymore, Youre a great person. I understand that all you wanted was me and all i did was break your heart and im sorry for that. im sorry for everything ive done. Every single second your mad at me or sad for any reason i always try to find a way to make you happy cause i like to see you happy. You didnt do anything wrong, so tell me that its all my fault and all believe you. I want us to be close friends and I want us to trust each other again. You're an amazing person and someone will come into your life that loves you more then u love me. I would love to be close friends with you but i feel like were just pretending because its the better solution. I still care about u I may not act like i do but i do. Right now the most important thing to me is building a friendship and earning your trust. I only wrote this to tell you that I still care about you. "
I tried understanding but its hard...
He's made me think that maybe i should just move on and be with someone who loves me, then to try to get back with someone who doest love me back. But honestly even if i tell myself to do that I always get sad and feel like my feelings are playing with my brain.
Its like my sadness is stronger then my happiness...
Everything we do together is just an other thing that I have to try to forget about. we literally did everything together and I trusted him, told him pretty much everything. I wont regret being with him but all regret acting like i was acting. He may tell me that its not my fault but for some reason i still seem to blame it on myself.
idk what to do anymore...
If you have any problems im always here for me you can send me a email or anything.