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My life

Jason

13 May, 2015 08:06 PM

When I was young, I was adopted into a nice family, but it was ruined when we met a man named Jeremy Capello. He married my step-mother and abused me and her. He locked me in a bathroom and hit me for years until I turned 11. We never celebrated my birthday and he made my life a living hell everyday. When I turned 11 he left for cottonwood,AZ. Afterwards my step-mother started acting weird and she started acting like Jeremy. We moved twice.I started drinking when I was 12 and it ruined my life, but it helped me get over my pain. I stopped drinking when I was about 13 and a half. I started begging myself to die, I started taking pills.

I kept taking pills until I met a girl who was also suicidal. We talked and learned we were compatible. We became closer, until she killed herself and I broke. My mind and soul was shattered. I wanted to die more than ever. I ran away and overdosed. The police found me in time and I lived but I don't know what to do anymore. Everyone hates me and wants to kill me.

I then met a girl. Her name was Trinity and I realized I loved her to late. My life is in shambles and I have no where else to look for help.

I see people and things that are not really there and I can't decide what is real anymore, I feel like my mind should break but it won't. I listened to dramatic and suicidal music and I can't stop wanting to die. My birthday is coming up and I don't want to die, but I fell like it is the only thing to do.

I started to see things when I turned 10. I saw a car drive by and I looked away for a second and it wasn't there when I looked back. I asked my step-mother if she saw it to and she said no. I thought I was going insane, I still do. When it gets really bad I see her and I want to be with her, I want to hold her in my arms again.

I have Trinity now but I still miss her. I miss my sisters that I never met. I wish I knew who I was. I wish I had the strength to get over my pain, but it is so hard. I don't know how long I will last.

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alexandra says:
03 Jun, 2015 10:06 PM

Just look at the good things...soon you will have a family and friends!

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beanca says:
03 Jun, 2015 11:26 PM

Hi, I'm Beanca 12 years old and I now that I'm not that wise but if i was in your situation i whould probable alredy have killed my self I would blame my self for my life brakig apart and i would blame outhers for not putting the pises back together but by not doing that you are actualy showing your self your strog and i bet you are stronger then you think you are, sow my only advice to you is stop trying to be strong when you alredy are and sorry if i afended you by saying all of that. B.T.W i hop you find your anser and you should now that not all stories are true there i now perfect famelie no happy ever after no true love no forevever you are born you livelife and you die. the only mening of that is how you meet you create you live behind and you remember. and just so this is clear you are a person to look up to in my eyes.

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beanca says:
03 Jun, 2015 11:38 PM

I realy want to help you but I'm just 12 and havent gown tru that mutch yet so pleas just hang in there for a wile and remember this pain for when it all gows away you will feel relived that you survived all this crap . <3 <3 <3 B.T.w your life is just wathig by the corner you are realy ba person to look upp to and i dont hate you

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janedow says:
04 Jun, 2015 08:45 AM

hang in there mate and keep on loving you girlfriend juse her asss your anker

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sesha kar says:
10 Jun, 2015 12:41 PM

I'm just 14 but if I was in your situation I probably attempt suicide. but for god said please don't to this. All the best for your future. LOVE U DARLING. BYE 4EVER.......... :)


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SESHA KAR says:
10 Jun, 2015 12:49 PM

I'M SESHA 13 YEARS OLD IF I WAS IN YOUR SITUATION I WOULD PROBABLY KILLED MYSELF.
I THINK EVRERYTHING WILL BE FINE. PLEASE DON'T DO ALL THESE THINGS. ALL THE BEST
FOR YOUR FUTURE. LOVE YOU DARLING. WHAT'S UP, CHEER UP BYE 4 EVER............. :)

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alejandra says:
11 Jun, 2015 12:53 AM

I know its hard but there is always something to live for :)

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Monica says:
12 Jul, 2015 12:09 AM

Hey, be strong your story caught my attention I am sorry you have gone through a lot I would like to help you to show you that you can have friends and try to be happy I know it's hard trust me I fight it everything it hurts I haven't gone through what you have but I have gone through so much things that hurt me and I fight it everyday because I know one day it would be worth it cuz you and every single human in this world is worth it please don't think about suicide and the girl that committed suicide learn from her okay just have this in mind she would want for you to have an amazing future i am sure she was an amazing person if you want to talk to me text me 305-305-5074 I am here

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Monica says:
12 Jul, 2015 12:20 AM

Look I know is hard I know you may be going through the worst right now be strong okay fight okay fight for you you are strong okay you can make it through always have this in your mind your friend that committed suicide would want for you to be strong for her and you and to prove people that no matter what you can fight and be someone great in life be strong okay if you need help text me 305-305-5074 don't doubt to text me I'll reply

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Yolly says:
13 Jul, 2015 12:41 PM

God wouldnt have put u on this earth if He didnt have a purpose for u

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ethan says:
19 Oct, 2015 07:50 PM

very touching keep being strong man

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