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you killed me

crystal

17 Aug, 2010 04:50 PM

when i first saw each other we hated each other we argued. until one day in class we were bored & i decided to have a bit of fun. i asked you if u wanted to play a game u said alright. we played and played until the period was over. i started to like you as a friend.he loved me as a friend. we hang out and talked. then i took you as a relative of my family. he took me as a relative. after a month of being with you i started liking you so much i didn't want to stop seeing you. one day i found out you liked me. i decided to tell you that i also had feelings for you. then started our relation-ship. after months of being together my feelings for him got stronger. his feelings also have grew. i told him that i loved him. he told me that he loved me. one day you stopped loving me and starting placing your eyes on another girl. that girl was my best friend called renee. i found out that he liked her. i started imagining that larry my ex-boyfriend liked her more than me. i began to think and then that night at 11:00 P.M i called him and asked him if he liked my best friend. his answer was yes. he said he was sorry i began to cry n i told him i will call him tomorrow n i hung-up. cried in the bathroom for 2 hours feeling the pain in my heart. the next day i saw him i wanted to yell that i hated him. but i couldn't i kept it inside. i began to have a strange erge to start hurting my-self. i started cutting my self. i had thoughts of suicide, and the music i heard was no longer happy but it was sad depressing. i once tried to poison my-self so i wouldn't live longer to suffer.i drank some clorox but I'm still alive i don't know why.but don't try this. i found out that i no longer had a beautiful life. i just knew that he was with her and not with me. i made them both get in a relation-ship because i no longer wanted to make him suffer about being with me and not with her. i know that he may not love me anymore but somewhere in my heart there will be a place for him it hurts not being with him but i have to know that im not good enough for him. i don't think i will ever be able to love again. and for those people who haven't felt what love is don't feel it unless you know who the right person is for you. i wish you luck.

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Larissa says:
21 Aug, 2010 05:41 AM

i have had this before it is horrible, i will always love that one boy

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Sammie says:
21 Aug, 2010 09:33 PM

ohh u poor thing, i feel for u luv <3

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aimee says:
22 Aug, 2010 02:58 PM

ive been in the exact same situation as you. i still feel the pain today 8 months on. like you, i will never love again

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KatieBrinx.. ^_^ says:
23 Aug, 2010 09:07 PM

I understand you.. And i think that u have to get over him cause trust me... u wouldnt want to waste time on a guy u dumped u... i know its not easy to get over the person u love the most.. but its not worth your time.. and once when you become the brand new you... i'm sure that there will be plenty of guys who truly loves you.. ^_^ Cheer up girl! :)

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James says:
12 Sep, 2010 04:12 PM

Hey I'm a guy and I am having a similar problem right now and i cant tell you how happy it makes me to know im not the only one who gave up being with the one they loved just so that loved one would be happy. I feel you and understand you if you ever want to talk about how you feel here is my email:jimmydeen3@gmail.com

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Lauren says:
20 Sep, 2010 09:43 PM

awww, I noeee how that feels, still suffering from it todayy :(

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meme says:
27 Sep, 2010 01:45 PM

awwwwww..come on girl..i know he will always be in ur heart..but that dont mean..u will never love again...there is always love out there...u got to get over him..if u want to find another guy out there...go out there and love again..there a guy out there who can make all those pain go away..and for that u have to love again...

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Anne says:
03 Oct, 2010 07:10 AM

u knw the cure to that is to b appreciative of wat u have.. coz it makes u see how beautiful life is.. i mean talk to ur frnds or make new frnds or do fun things like eat fries dipped in ice cream or go hang out with ur 'rents and ask them hw they came to be together (ew at first but really fun).. based on wat u did, i can conclude YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL PERSON so u dont deserv to be sad.. and dont commit suicide okay? its not worth it.. xoxo i wish u luck

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Allison says:
05 Oct, 2010 12:30 PM

This suckss. I've had it happen to me.
NEVER FALL IN LOVE!

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brianna says:
08 Oct, 2010 04:12 PM

i no what tht feels like i have been though it all N i want to die sometimes bcuz of it but than again i think how much i would be missin out if i died ! and than think tht i need to like life to the fullest!!

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mee says:
11 Oct, 2010 09:10 PM

wow this is sooo weird. im going through the same thing. & the girl he left me for is a girl namedd renee too. i jus started cutting a few hours ago. & ive been planning my death all day. weird coincidence ?

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Amy says:
20 May, 2011 04:41 PM

aww </3 i hope ur better now if not u wanna hug? :)

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Bella says:
25 May, 2011 02:18 AM

hi guys, this story brought tears to my eyes as I have been through the same situation inface worse still....but life still goes on....i've learnt to love the person who loves you instead of you loving the person whom you love.....and trying to forgive and forget at the same time.....Remember life is not vain...

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chloe' says:
31 May, 2011 02:02 PM

i feel for you i have someone that i used to cut over but one day i realized that i'm beautiful the way i am and no one can take that from you i hope you realize that ne day to becuase it changed my whole life
i will keep you in my prayers

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rab says:
15 Jun, 2011 02:34 PM

i know what love is, but it's not till your heart is broken, that you really understand it.

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Your Angel says:
18 Jun, 2011 12:14 AM

SweetHeart, Stop Beating your self up, he messed you up! & U need to move on... i broke up with a i loved when he moved away, but he told me for every-night and everyday he would think about me, and i ruined that image! Now me and him r best friends, and maybe one day, i will ask him to be with me again and not with his new girlfriend, but im giving it time! (:

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Lucyy says:
29 Jun, 2011 02:05 PM

Uhm Most People Are Saying The Feel Sorry For You Thats Why ima Say Stay Strong Thats What Life is All Bout Just Getting Hurt By The
Ones You Always Love

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ann says:
05 Jul, 2011 06:38 AM

ouuuuuuuw, it's so sad. i hope no one will feel that thing again..

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ann says:
05 Jul, 2011 06:49 AM

ouuuuuuuw, it's so sad. i hope no one will feel that thing again..

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Okuma says:
21 Jan, 2012 01:58 AM

the world is a small place.got tears running down from my eyes after going through the blog,Silvia you have to carry on see the future got better things for you,you have to enjoy life to the fullest

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Joey says:
13 Feb, 2014 08:20 PM

Girl, look don't introduce your bestfriends to guys, us guys go for anything, also try to play mental games and always talk about break ups, just giving an insight tip. You play the cards and let those men run around and also don't give in. Dont you ever ;)

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