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Two years of lies


22 Dec, 2012 05:50 AM

It seems as if everybody is always happy around you, but you're the only person who seems to be depressed. I was the type of girl who didn't need anybody to reply on too. I didn't need anybody to make me happy. I didn't mind staying home by myself. As I became older and watched movies it seem to be that relationships were the key to happiness. All I wanted to do was feel loved. It seemed like all my friends were in love and happy. I understand that we're still young and have our whole life ahead of us, but when someone makes you feel wanted, it's one of the best feelings.

I met a guy on MySpace, and corny as it sounds that was the thing back then. He said he saw me at school and I caught his eye. He's was a year older then me, and a huge athlete at the school. Everybody knew who he was. I didn't understand why he was talking to me, a girl who wasn't popular, prettier or outgoing. I was nothing like his ex's. he text-ed me everyday for 9 months and he kept wanting to date me. I never said yes because I was scared of getting hurt. In the beginning I thought It was a joke. Why would he want anything to do with a girl like me? I denied my feelings for him for almost a year, until one day he told me he was giving up. We stopped talking and I knew then that I wanted I be with Him. We stated dating and he was my first true boyfriend.

I was the type of person to always forgive people. I always cared what people thought about me, I always tried to make people happy before I made myself happy. As time went on, he was my first kiss, and first everything. He peer pressured me into doing everything we did, and I thought I was in love with him so I thought we were just going to a new level. By our year and a half, I was totally in love with him. He meant everything to me and he knew I'd do anything for him. He took advantage of me. I played on a summer softball team and it was the first weekends we spent away from each other. I remember laying in bed and he told me he couldn't call me because he was busy, which was weird. We talked on the phone every night for almost a year and a half. I called him to see what was going on and he told me he'd call me tomorrow. Didn't hear from him for the rest of the night. The next day I sent him a Good morning text as I usually did. It was 6 in the morning when I sent it. He responded right away. He told me he loved me and that he'd never wanted to lose me, then I had to go so I couldn't talk to him much longer and he told me he had to talk to me about something when I got home. I gave him all my trust so I had no idea what was going on. When I arrived home, he called me and told me he cheated on me.

I still remember the feeling I had when I was on the phone with him. I felt dead. I have never cried so hard in my life. I threw up 3 times and I didn't eat for days. But the worst thing was, is he just sat on the phone with me for a hour listening to me crying. By that time in our relationship, he took possibly everything away from me. He didn't like any of my friends so I lost all of them. I wasn't allowed to text guys, so our whole relationship I didn't text one single guy. He made me deactivate my Facebook and he controlled me on what I wore. I wasn't allowed to wear yoga pants or v necks. I wore a hoodie and jeans everyday. I spent everyday I could with him. He stood me up in the weekends when he wanted to drink. He wouldn't tell me if he was going to not be able to come over, he'd just stand me up and ignore me. Time passed and I sticked with him. I had no friends, just had him. I was there for him every possible time I could be there for him, I let him walk all over me and I put up with it for almost two year.

Before our two years he broke up with me and blamed it on me, because I hung out with my old Best friend that he didn't like. He refused to talk to me. 6 days after we broke up he dated his ex girlfriend. Not only is it his ex, it was the girl I absolutely hated. And he knew it. She lives two houses down from me, and I remember walking down the road with a friend trying to get a hold of him to work things out when I saw him walking out of her house getting in his house. At that moment I felt so dead. I wanted to drop to my knees and cry, right there in the middle of the road. I made it to my house and I balled my eyes out. It's been 8 months since we broke up. But it feels like it was just yesterday that we broke up. He broke up with his ex girlfriend again and he'd talk to me, promise me we'd get back together. He really got my hopes up this time. Then he screwed me over and dated my friend.

I should have left him when he cheated on me. But I loved the boy more than I loved my own damn self. He took advantage of my feelings, he talked to me every 3 months and led me on. I fell for it every time. I cried for so many days, months end on. There was so many times I felt like just ending my life. I felt like the pain just wasn't worth it anymore. I drank to get my depression off my shoulders and the stress of losing the best thing that has ever happened to me. I blamed the break up on me. I thought of all the things I could have did different to make this relationship work. But in the end It wasn't me. His brother and Best friend came to my house 7 months after the Break up and told me how many times he cheated on me, 10 times in the two years that we dated. When I was more loyal then anybody hell ever meet. Hell never find anybody that loved him like I did. The depression still gets to me every once in a while when the memories flash back to me.

Never cheat on a loyal girl. It's like picking up and diamond and switching it for a rock. The thing that just gets me is that I know I did my best and my best wasn't good enough. Now that I was so hurt from him, I'm scared everyone is out there to hurt me so I just decide to push them away before try leave me.

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kyle says:
20 Mar, 2013 10:15 PM

I can relate to how you feel you see I'm just like you. I only went out with 1 girl the relationship was only 4 six days but it felt like 1year when she left me for her ex I nly kissed 1 girl in my whole life I find trouble getting in to a relationship no girl is looking for a guy like me I will never cheat on any1 but I geus girls wil always go for a guy who wilka hurt them and manipulate them rather for 1 who dose deserve and needs love so badly…

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Arvind says:
21 Mar, 2013 11:50 AM

Hi.. I dont know whether you believe it or not.. This story just depicts my love life exactly .. I dont find any difference to what happened in my love life.. The only difference I found is that im guy cheated by a girl and I found that she cheated me on my own... I even consulted doctors to get out of depression.. whatever it is now im Tryin to come over it coz after all v have got one life to live.. so jus take care n keep smiling...

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salma says:
21 Mar, 2013 07:01 PM

it was not a love it was a lust

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Kate baker says:
22 Mar, 2013 04:24 AM

I know exactly how you feel, that's like what happened with cole and I, it was horrible he would take advantage of me and I thought that he was the one. No, he was not don't worry you'll find who you will be with and he will treat you with respect. I promise.

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Maria says:
23 Mar, 2013 01:00 PM

You know the right thing to do to that kind of person is to burn them alive... Burn all the cheaters'''''

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OneDirection=MyLife says:
23 Mar, 2013 06:34 PM

i know how u feel :C

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crazy girl:D says:
26 Mar, 2013 04:06 PM

been going through that for a while now trying to get my mind of him but everday gets harder knowing he left me for someone els what do i do

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Rashmi says:
02 Apr, 2013 11:38 AM

Our love is like... an eye for an eye makes whole world blind.. like this we loved and he left me with a knife on my back. ...

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lonely gal says:
09 Apr, 2013 11:26 AM

I understand what you are going through as this same thing happened with me.I'm still trying to get over him but it seems just impossible to me.just like you are feeling now.he was my first ever true love and i will always love him because no one can take his place ever.he loved me like anything and i did the he have found a better girl than me.i really hurts to see the one you love, love someone else just the way he loved you.its hurting like anything and now among so many people I'm feeling very one to talk with no one to be with.whatever i do at the end of the day his though brings tears in my eyes which flows down silently.i can't do anything about it as he loves her just the way he used to love me.we used to talk whole day and night.we used to chat all day long and every second he used to make me feel just like a princess.he was the best person in my life whom i ever met.he made me feel so special.i miss him every second of my life.i loved him so much and still i love him just the way i used to do or even more than that.i tried thinking about some other guy but i just doesn't this time we are going through the same situation.hope you will recover soon from it.god bless you.take care :)

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fiza says:
17 May, 2014 07:09 AM

can't stop crying...I jus felt like I am reading ma story....m still crying for him...n hez jus enjoying in his I blv that one day he wll realize that he lost a diamond...

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introvert says:
05 Jan, 2015 04:51 PM

I wish u was mine.... :( I wanted a girl that loyal

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