Cupid shot me with an arrow of trouble11 Dec, 2012 09:14 PM
Its funny how on TV the image of a relationship is simple. You meet a guy/girl in freshman, fall deeply in love. The relationship carries on all through high school and college. Having special moments when you say "I love you for the first time." Going to prom together etc. And then getting married and living happy ever after.
That's not my case at all. I'll start by saying I was surrounded by a family filled with failed marriages, relationships. So at a young age I knew not to believe all the lovey dovey stuff I saw on TV. I went through my first year of High School watching girls desperately go after the senior boys, football players, anything to get there status in the role of High School a little bit higher. Me on the other hand was avoiding all the arrows cupid had thrown at me. Until I met Andre in my Freshman year of college.
It was a normal weekend I went to the mall to do a little bit of shopping. I walked in to footlocker and was astonished at the first worker I saw. He approached me with a big smile and introduced his self and asked me how could he help me. We had a normal conversation as he would have with any other customer but the last thing on my mind was shoes. Every word he said a grasp to wanting him to say more and maybe I would get more information about him. Unfortunately the conversation couldn't last forever and I purchased some shoes and left the store as Andre helped other people. I walked around the mall looking lost as I was deep in my thoughts wishing he would have asked me for my number. As I walked toward the food court I felt an touch on my back. I turned around to see Andre smiling saying he caught up with me. As we chatted we ended up exchanging numbers. After that day we started talking more and more going out hanging together and eventually started dating after a couple of months. But during the first month we started dating I had got a call at work that brought up my old thoughts about relationships. Its was a girl asking me question on how long me and Andre where together and that she saw our pics of FB and that we were cute. I knew something had to be going on, so I simply asked the girl is there anything I should know. She brought up that her and Andre had been dating for a while ( a month before I meet him). I was shocked trying to figure out how could he cheat if almost every moment we were together or texting or on the phone. at that moment I told her if she could call him on three way which she did. Andre picked up having a normal conversation Martha asked him if they could spend time together but he said he couldn't he was busy that day. We had a date that night so I guess that was the reason but anyways I spoke up "No Andre its okay you can go, she is your girlfriend." that's when he got quiet and then said" Lakia this is not ..' I hung up. I never thought I would cry over a boy and when I did I felt horrible like I was stupid for crying or falling for him like I did. He called me back to back leaving me voice mails, txt messages. I wasn't trying to hear nothing he had to say.
Why is love so wanted when its so risky? I went to work tyring to get extra hours to keep my mind off of things. One day at work I was helping customer in my line currently I was a bank teller. As I finished up with a customer and they had left I had saw that Andre was next in line. I was at work so I had to be professional and I didn't want to make a scene. I asked what could I help with and pulled up his account. He tried to tell me he was sorry but ignore it. I asked him again what could I help with. I did not make any eye contact because I could feel myself breaking down wanting to shout and yell at him. Ask him why would he do that when he knew how I felt about relationships. I look up and saw that his eyes were watery. He whispered the worst part of what he did was he was hurting me and giving me a reason not to believe in relationships. He told me not to give up on love because a stupid mistake he would regret for the rest of his life and then he walked away and told me everyday until I forgive him he would come back with a flower. And every day he did and until this day he does. Any advise on what to do? should I let it go? or give him another chance?