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It hurts...

Peacegirl :)

25 Sep, 2012 04:12 PM

This year of school brought me something, that I'll never forget...a wonder full feeling that I want to hold in for ever. A boy came to our school, in the same type of class as me, but in the different grade. I'm in the 10th grade, and he's in the 9th grade. I fell in love with him, when we first talked, and the whole thing was so magical. I was blind of happiness when he gave me a hug, or when he kissed me on the cheek, or anything that he did and was sweet. I never felt something so strong like this, even I had some boyfriends before, the feeling was never this strong, and the whole world went in a pink bubble, and I just went crazy every time he went to me, or talked to me. Of course outside I looked cool, but inside I shouted of happiness. Everything went well, and we get closer like friends, and for me this was enough for the moment, and everything just went well, until I noticed something...he was staring at my best girlfriend, and he was smiling at her and talking to her, like he never did to me. It was fine for the moment, I didn't want to be paranoid, and it didn't make me worry, or anything. Till one Monday when my girlfriend came to me and said that we had to talk. And I asked her what she wanted to talk to me about and she said that he felt in love with her. And when she heard how happy I am for her she stared at me with tears in her eye, and asked me why am I so happy if I know, and how scared she is that this will affect our friendship, and that she didn't do anything, and she won't do anything, because our friendship is more important and she continued talking and talking, and when she finished she already cried, and I just smiled and smiled and hugged her, and I said: 'Nothing will affect our friendship, and if you like him, go on, I won't stop you, I'll just be happy if you and him get together, because I love you too, and I want you to be happy.' And I really wanted. I don't care if I won't be okay, I want them to be together with each other. When I came home I burst-ed into tears, and I ate as much chocolate as I could, but didn't help me. It really hurts, but I can't blame anyone for this. No one is guilty, and no one should feel sorry about their feelings. I don't feel sorry. It was the most beautiful period of my life, and I'm happy that he and I are still friends...and that I can see him each day, and talk with him whenever I want. I just hate the feeling I have. I just hate that I can love. I don't want to. I don't want to love anyone, because when I care of people I care about their feelings, and I want them to be happy, not me. But if I'm in a such situation, why does it hurts? Why does it hurts so much and so cruel? How could I face them and act happy when we're all together...How could I just turn off my feelings...I really want to kill them, and I really want to escape from this situation...

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brandi says:
01 Oct, 2012 09:22 PM

i have a man that i love truly im 17 an hes 30 but i love him so so much.. but i have learned that love hurts soso bad but oneway love hurts even worst

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jewell says:
03 Oct, 2012 12:54 AM

i love this guy but he just thinks of me as a friend

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Rosey says:
03 Oct, 2012 07:48 AM

I know how you feel, but you just have to hang in there, even if it slowly kills you. Because one day you will be okay and you'll be able too look at them and not feel how you're feeling now. Just hang in there, you can do it.

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ema says:
04 Oct, 2012 04:24 AM

i know how it hurts when your boyfriend loves your best friend. you love both of them and you wanna see them happy, but you're the one left to hurt.
one thing i'd do if i were in your situation is to keep myself distracted, don't rely on them too much coz you'd end up hurting your feelings more and more. find a new hobby, adjust your time-table, make new friends. and never ever ever give up on love. believe in yourself that someone who loves you would come and make you happy again. i wish you a happy ever after.
if you need someone to talk to, here's my e-mail. ema_luv_cena@yahoo.com

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Aokii says:
04 Oct, 2012 11:11 PM

that's the cycle of my life.
I fall in love and become so close... where people tell us were going out.
but nobody has ever returned my feelings.
its like a curse I want to break. its like a curse and I'm looking for the one who can break it.
its to a point were I already know.. I'm going to cry again.
but I always support them..
because his happiness is mine.. even if it hurts </3

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sameer says:
11 Oct, 2012 08:37 PM

i didint understand 1 per cent................any can make me understand in short sentence
plllllssssss!!!

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Angel says:
25 Oct, 2012 07:18 PM

I know how you feel.
It hurst allot.
I liked this guy out of my grade, I had a crush on
him for to long. So I decided to tell him.
First I was scared, but then you relize that you
either have to tell him sometime or you just ceep on
loving him. But if you ceep on loving him I could effect
Your other relationships. So I told him, but it didn't turn out so well. He said
He liked me as a friend and nothing more.
It hurt, I still didn't get over him entierly. Although I have a boyfriend now but
I am scared to love. That wasn't my first time either.
Don't make the same mistake!
Love Angel

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airan says:
27 Oct, 2012 02:39 PM

somehow I feel, we're in the same situation, but I don't do anything, just wait for my feeling will fade away :)

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Peacegirl :) says:
05 Nov, 2012 06:56 PM

Hey guys, thanks for supporting me...Everything turned out well. We became really close friends, and I support him when he tells me storyes about him and his girlfriends or crushes...it's hard to believe but even if I still love him I pretend that everything is ok, and I act like his friend, or his sister. While we get closer and closer to each other, the more I get better, and pretend that I'm okay. But the time goes by my feelings slowly turn out in friendly love. Somehow I'll get through this, with his help. So strange.

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waterfall says:
30 Mar, 2013 09:16 AM

i can relate to your story..i had a crush on someone who later became my bestfriend and who happens to have a crush on one of my girlfriends..it really hurts the first time when he told me but as time goes, i'm somewhat used to it and slowly accepted it..i'm thankful that i have not confessed my feelings to him because if i did then I'm going to lose him..and i'm thankful that i'll be later going to a place far from him and could help me forget about my feelings for him but i'm not gonna forget him as my bestfriend...:)

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waterfall says:
30 Mar, 2013 09:30 AM

:)..

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waterfall says:
30 Mar, 2013 09:43 AM

:)..

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