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Why is love so hard?

Rebecca

19 Jul, 2012 06:05 PM

He had promised never to break up with me. He had said he loved me more than anything. Both are lies. I loved him a lot. And still do in a way. But my heart is more dead than alive. Here's how he broke me:
He asked me out in the middle of 6th grade over the phone. I said yes. He told me he loved me, he cared about me, etc. etc. And I loved him too. But I had forgotten that many other girls in my grade liked him a lot. He would talk to all of them more than me, and being the shy girl, I never asked much of him. But it DID seem like he really did love me. He was sometimes even more emotional in that "lovey" kind of way than me. He was my first boyfriend, and he broke my heart 11 times.

Yes, I counted. The first time, he dumped me so he could be with his ex. The second time, he dumped me because he said he didn't deserve me.
The third, He went for his ex again. Most of the time, he didn't even have a reason for dumping me. But the most recent was on the 7th of July. Him and one of his friends (who was a girl) were video chatting. He texted me that night and said "I think I like her more than you." I cried. I ignored him for a while, because I felt like hating him was the right thing to do. But, not too long ago, he said he still loves me, even though he still liked the other girl more than me. I was sort of touched until me and one of my best friends started talking. Well, being the girl that I am, me and my friend started to gossip and such. She told me that the boy told her he had always liked her. When she told me, my heart felt like it was ripped out and put threw a shredder. He had liked 2 other people while he was dating me. I didn't think that was normal, even though he was my first boyfriend and I don't know how boys think. And yet, for some unknown, crazy, stupid reason, I still love him in a way. Even though he literally broke my heart countless times... </3 If only I knew how to get over him.

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nathalie says:
12 Dec, 2012 03:00 PM

i understand, getting over your first love can be hard. my heart broke for the first time when i was in 6th grade too. but no matter how terrible they are to you, no matter how much you tell yourself u hate him, how much you tell yourself youre over him, something will alaays bring you back to him. youre first love is someone you never truly get over.... but dont let it get to you. you WILL move on, you just have to get him out of your mind, find a distraction and think of happy things. do things that make you happy. dont bother thinkin of him because itll only bring pain and hes not worth your tears. im sorry, i know its hard, but youll move on, even if you never truly get over him, everything will then out ok. youll find someone ao much better and youll never go back to him again. stay strong sweetie <3

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Tahir Alom says:
15 Dec, 2012 04:01 AM

He never loves You
He was using You

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hussain says:
18 Dec, 2012 11:02 AM

:(
sooo sad
can i post ur story on my blog ??
if u dont mind

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erika madrigal says:
18 Dec, 2012 07:08 PM

i think yuhh can do way better and i understand where your coming from cuz ui been there too and yea it hurts a lot.. bt with time and people that loves yuhh yuhh get over him sooner then yuhh think:)

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aisha khan says:
20 Dec, 2012 04:42 PM

so sad ..........:(

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Griselda919 says:
07 May, 2013 08:37 PM

He was using u

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