First love16 Oct, 2011 08:15 PM
It was a boring day in middle school and I was on facebook and Julio goes online. We started chatting and hey, he asked me out. I was soo happy when he asked me out. After that day I couldn't eat or sleep, we saw each other every day.he was the first one to say I love you. He would tell me how he felt and he wouldn't be afraid of what people said of us.he would always hold my Hand and tell me that he would never leave me. I was soo happy with him it took me a month to realize that I loved him, really and truly. I loved everything about him, his smile, laugh, the way he would make a face when he told a joke. I was crazy for him and the funny thing is that I never even kissed him. I loved him so much that I never kissed him or did things that would hurt him in anyway. Then one day my dad got me into a deep state of depression and I cut myself. The following day I went to school and I saw Julio. He saw my cuts and wouldn't talk to me. Then he told people that he was gonna dump me.I was so crushed when I heard that.... I know it was stupid but I cut myself even more. Eventually both of my arms. From the wrist up, had cuts. He broke up with me and then started spreading rumors about me. I was devastated when I heard that Julio,my Julio was spreading these lies. I cried for three hours straight. That was he first time I ever cried over a guy. I honestly thought that he and I were gonna stay together forever but instead he dumped me he first chance he got. I tried everything to at least be friends with him but he said that he could never be friends with an emo girl. I told him how I stopped and that I loved him yet he never listened. Eventually he stopped listening to me and avoided me. Then we went on to highschool and all these girls go up to me and ask me if I'm the famous fawn.they told me what they said and all I could think about was what I did wrong. Was I really such a bad person? I went into depression I cut myself everyday and started fights over nothing. I got in trouble with he cops and social services. Till this very day I always say to myself why can't he love me? what did I ever do to him? Am I really that ugly? when will this pain end? I will never forget the day he asked me out and told me that he loved me 3-17-11.we dated for two months never having any problems.
Excuse the errors I'm on my iPod and yes this is a true story