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First love

Fawn

16 Oct, 2011 08:15 PM

It was a boring day in middle school and I was on facebook and Julio goes online. We started chatting and hey, he asked me out. I was soo happy when he asked me out. After that day I couldn't eat or sleep, we saw each other every day.he was the first one to say I love you. He would tell me how he felt and he wouldn't be afraid of what people said of us.he would always hold my Hand and tell me that he would never leave me. I was soo happy with him it took me a month to realize that I loved him, really and truly. I loved everything about him, his smile, laugh, the way he would make a face when he told a joke. I was crazy for him and the funny thing is that I never even kissed him. I loved him so much that I never kissed him or did things that would hurt him in anyway. Then one day my dad got me into a deep state of depression and I cut myself. The following day I went to school and I saw Julio. He saw my cuts and wouldn't talk to me. Then he told people that he was gonna dump me.I was so crushed when I heard that.... I know it was stupid but I cut myself even more. Eventually both of my arms. From the wrist up, had cuts. He broke up with me and then started spreading rumors about me. I was devastated when I heard that Julio,my Julio was spreading these lies. I cried for three hours straight. That was he first time I ever cried over a guy. I honestly thought that he and I were gonna stay together forever but instead he dumped me he first chance he got. I tried everything to at least be friends with him but he said that he could never be friends with an emo girl. I told him how I stopped and that I loved him yet he never listened. Eventually he stopped listening to me and avoided me. Then we went on to highschool and all these girls go up to me and ask me if I'm the famous fawn.they told me what they said and all I could think about was what I did wrong. Was I really such a bad person? I went into depression I cut myself everyday and started fights over nothing. I got in trouble with he cops and social services. Till this very day I always say to myself why can't he love me? what did I ever do to him? Am I really that ugly? when will this pain end? I will never forget the day he asked me out and told me that he loved me 3-17-11.we dated for two months never having any problems.

Excuse the errors I'm on my iPod and yes this is a true story

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nitarama says:
08 Apr, 2012 10:39 AM

he don't love you

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nitarama says:
08 Apr, 2012 10:39 AM

because if he loves you...a

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nitarama says:
08 Apr, 2012 10:41 AM

he will understand you

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sadaf says:
10 Apr, 2012 07:08 AM

boys are really stupid,

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sadaf says:
10 Apr, 2012 07:09 AM

we should not bielive them

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aehr says:
14 Apr, 2012 10:35 AM

he didn't loved u . if he did, he will understand u . but not ! boys are really stupid at all . grrrr

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Aadi says:
14 Apr, 2012 02:55 PM

@Sadaf, I don't agree with u, All guys r not same, every guy have different feelings & thinking for others..

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Nala says:
14 Apr, 2012 04:10 PM

Omg im sooo srry yea he does care about u girl go go before its too late get out make new friends do anything to get ur mind rite spend as much time out the house so u can start loving u again an yea if u are happy the next guy u meet will be betteri promise but im not saying ur not gonna probly meet another him theres a chance u will but its better to prepare for it now then to go in blind u no

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Nala says:
14 Apr, 2012 04:10 PM

Not *

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jyoti says:
16 Apr, 2012 05:25 AM

boys are really non-trustable

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ashl1191 says:
17 Apr, 2012 02:01 AM

Ive cut myself too, so your not alone on that, i just stopped a week ago bc my bf found out, now im stuck doing the butterfly project

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ashley says:
18 Apr, 2012 08:19 PM

every girl goes through this. i cut myself to this day. people call me emo all the time its hard yes but for me it helps. it hurts the people that love us go through this pain but what they dont know is that the cut and scars are on OUR wrists and arms.. not theirs. i have tried the butterfly project sooo many times but it didnt work. i tried so many things to make me stop but they didnt work either! everybody has an addiction mine is sadly cutting but i wish i could change that. so dont feel bad that you have cut. you are not alone on this!!!!! you have people who care... talk to them.

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Awishkar pandey says:
20 Apr, 2012 03:10 AM

Omg im sooo srry yea he does care about u girl go go before its too late get out make new friends do anything to get ur mind rite spend as much time out the house so u can start loving u again an yea if u are happy the next guy u meet will be betteri promise but im not saying ur not gonna probly meet another him theres a chance u will but its better to prepare for it now then to go in blind u no

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MVang says:
20 Apr, 2012 09:31 PM

You guys only dated for 2 months. Don't make him your everything because he apparently couldn't prove to you that he should be your everything. Move on and find a better relationship with a better guy. A guy that is worth all your feelings. You're wasting time being depress over a jerk. I understand that you are hurt but you got to be smarter than that. He didn't care about you so let it be. Just be happy that he didn't "HIT IT AND QUIT IT"

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ciara says:
21 Apr, 2012 04:17 AM

like?

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kevin robinson says:
23 Apr, 2012 01:17 AM

@jyoti,@sadaf me2 i m nt agree wid u @Aadi i really agree wid u every boys differnt n different feelings of love....... <3 <3 <3

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Ally says:
01 May, 2012 03:40 AM

i went though almost the same thing, but i didnt cut myself i just smoked alot and i was trying new things almost everyday. & the guy that i thought i loved just up and lefted me because i was depressed about my mom being in the hospital almost dying and i couldnt handle the situation right. When he lefted i fell into a greater depression and he started making rumors abt me and i was to sad to go to school or anything... But now im out of school with no more problems bc of a stupid guy that didnt understand the pain i felted with my mom in the hospital...

so honestly, he was a jerk and if he loved you he would listen to you or talk to you about what you were doing was stupid.

You'll realize everything back then was stupid and move on... but high school doesnt let you forget easily.

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lourdes says:
04 May, 2012 09:21 PM

hi im very sorry im datin a guy bt everybody say tht he cheats alot of girls and i dont no if i should date him still or nt.. wat do u think....

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Vanessa says:
05 May, 2012 06:10 PM

(All these names in this story are fake to protect their identity)I know how you feel. I fell in love with a boy and I still love him with all my heart. I met him through my friend Ill call her "Sam". I went to my friend Sams house for her birthday party and "Austin" lived with her because his parents didnt want him anylonger because he turned 18. Well I stayed at Sams house for 4 night and 5 days. Every morning we would get up and watch a movie, mostly scary movies like Saw 1,2,3,4,and 5. Sam would just lay on my legs (like a dog), I would lay on Austin (<3), Austin would lay up against the couch, and Sams little sister was jealous cuz I was flirting with Austin so she stayed in her room. Over time I began to develop feelings for him. He rides my bus and I have his number so we stay in touch. I have cut myself but they weren't really deep, and not so noticeable. Austin and I have so much in common so I think he is the right one for me. But he says he's too old for me. Does age matter when it comes to love? I think not. But if a guy loves you, then instead of dumping you and spreading rumores, they'll talk to you and ask whats wrong. I hate it when people tell stories about how much their in love with each other because most of the time it ends in traggedy. And it's hard to deal with the pain of a broken heart but one day yuo'll wake up and say "I WASTED ALL OF MY TIMR CRYING FOR THAT DUMB-ASS!!!!?????". I hope for the best of you. Fell better.

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anne says:
21 May, 2012 09:22 PM

hey i know how it feels when guys cheat on u trust me... be strong :)

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wtf says:
18 Jul, 2012 10:11 AM

i got a solution - get off da face to the book , dam foolz just cause ya trouble , or you can cap them flippa dappas eh

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05 Jul, 2013 09:10 AM

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Shivani Shreen says:
27 Jan, 2014 07:07 PM

may b he was not made for u.. nd may b dat u deserve a better guy dan him.. !!!

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Alexander says:
31 Mar, 2014 10:39 AM

He doesn't deserve you, I'm a boy and I know its is going to sound bad (not all boys are like this ). There are a few boys in my year who treat girls like heir personal property and they think that dating girls then dumping therm makes them cool and popular, most boys are idiots . Also no offence meant, but I wouldn't go out with someone who asked me out over Facebook.

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David says:
16 Apr, 2014 07:03 PM

Guys are not stupid even girls cheat on them because I am one of those guys who are committed to a relationship but that guy did something wrong he should have taken you back and forgave you he should have taught about what where you going thru but you had to change also

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Naina says:
17 May, 2014 08:27 PM

Such a stupid persn u r, for a jerk u r hurting urself...move on.. Life is such a beauty.. Live for them who loves u, dont die for sm nonsense who hates u... Girl trust me... Drs lots of happiness round u.. Just open ur lids but ds tym nt of ur eyes! It should be of ur heart.. Lv urself

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Regina Palermo says:
25 Jun, 2014 09:35 PM

Thats wrong im sorry

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Arianna Prudhomme says:
16 Aug, 2014 04:57 PM

No. You could never be considered ugly. You are beautiful in every way, even your battle scars. If he can not accept it, than someone will.

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kio says:
17 Sep, 2014 03:23 PM

sorry dear

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Nikita behera of cl-7 says:
27 Sep, 2014 09:47 AM

Dnt ever luv that typ of boy's

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angiegreenslade says:
03 Dec, 2014 01:27 PM

this story made me cry. I think its wrong for a person to be like that, and leave you over something he could have helped you with. I am so sorry. but in the end he probably wasn't right for you.

stay strong it will get better??

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Kim says:
14 Apr, 2015 08:51 PM

He didn't love u, if he did he would a stuck by ur side, not judge u and he would support u, you'll find real love thoe.

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Lia veronica says:
08 Jun, 2015 02:25 AM

Plz dont cut your hand for sum boy who never luved u if he doest care then why do u even care just leave that jerk as he is u move on just luv urself and u will get luved

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Gabriella R says:
25 Apr, 2016 05:46 PM

i really hope the best for you, ive gone through a similar situation and i cry myself to sleep over it almost every night,deep down hes just a douchebag if he dumped you like that. he was proabably scared deep down that you did that to yourself maybe he was scared you woukld comiit suicide or wanted to be informed about it,idk,but i really hope you stay strong

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Idnt says:
14 Sep, 2017 12:21 AM

STOP doing that he doesn't love you so what take those cuts as scars and be better! STOP THAT! I was in a situation like that though I was the guy. She was starting to cut herself and I said " I would break up with you if you keep in doing that" One day she cut herself so bad she was silently crying. I was so upset and I told her a very deep speech and she said "ok :)" a year later she dyed her hair black instead of blue. She is better and we still talk

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cedric long says:
23 Sep, 2017 03:03 PM

you scared him away, for others self injurious behavior is terrifying. they can't understand it. He thought you were crazy and maybe going to kill him in his sleep. Even if you only hurt yourself no one wants to be connect to someone who hurts themselves, because you hurt them as well.

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