my date with death
chris
14 Aug, 2011 05:53 PMI'm just putting my first name so maybe it will be remember. i have a mental illness and deal with sadness,depression and suicidal thoughts on a daily basis. i was at a low point when i first made this, but i hope you can see the beauty deep within falling...falling into darkness...it feels like i have been falling for days,with no end. i land gently on my back, finally an end.where am i...to dark to see...but something to hear. a kaw. a crow lands gently on my shoulder. some say that help lost spirits find the path to the afterlife...now i understand where i am, and a shiver runs down my spine. the crow, watch keeper of the fallen, starts to fly away. "wait for me!", i yell in a frightened and panicked state. i follow the crow for what seemed for miles, the only life that could stray my... [Read More]
Tags: Dream, Depression, ImaginationVotes: 1
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Grass will never be green enough for me
kathryn
14 Aug, 2011 04:01 AMLet me start off by saying, i am a 17 year old girl who has had struggles ever since birth. My mother is mentally ill, and i haven't seen her for more then 15 minutes since i was 10. She was taken away from me since birth because my parents got a divorce. My two older brothers have memories of her only because her hormones got screwed up when she had me. they say the third times a charm, but completely not true in this case. So i got to see her every other weekend. Whenever i would be with her, i acted like a complete brat. i cried, yelled, threw hissy fits. She would punish me by giving me a 5 minute time out, but then when i got home, my step mother,would put me in the corner for a good hour or so, i was around 6 then.... [Read More]
Tags: Unhappy, WaitingVotes: 4
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Sacrifice
Riza
12 Aug, 2011 05:43 PMI was never the popular one in school, mostly ignored or bullied by my peers. I spent my school days being bullied and listening to the "cool" girls talk about boys. I wasn't one to believe in love and happily ever afters, as I thought who would love me if no one even wanted to be my friend? I was an outcast, my friends were all boys. But as we grew up, the boys wouldn't hang out with me anymore. At home, I was a good girl, listening to everyone and playing fair. Until I met him. My first impression of him was of an adorable, nerdy fellow. He proved me quite wrong, he was a fighter, a trouble-maker. And I loved him for him. I loved his strong side that he showed everyone, I loved his sweet smile and adorable accent, I loved his serious side and I loved... [Read More]
Tags: Love Story, Love, MissingVotes: 25
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eternal love
F
12 Aug, 2011 01:06 PMMy story starts 14 years ago, as a 12 year old i did not really know what love was, but i had a rough idea at that age i started to have a crush on one of my fellow class mate in school, he was tall for his age and had jet black hair he wore glasses,and was very smart and cute i really fancied him a lot and i shared this with my friend at the time,and they fancied him too well they would he was the only cute one of the lot of boys in our class. i fancied him for a very long time i did not like school but i went everyday just to see him and sometimes once in a blue moon he would talk to me and i would have butterflies in my stomach and shivers all over. Sadly my love experience was short... [Read More]
Tags: LoveVotes: 27
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zino
i love you
12 Aug, 2011 10:01 AMThere was once a guy who suffered from cancer... a cancer that can't be treated. He was 18 years old and he could die anytime. All his life, he was stuck in his house being taken cared by his mother. He never went outside but he was sick of staying home and wanted to go out for once. So he asked his mother and she gave him permission. He walked down his block and found a lot of stores. He passed a CD store and looked through the front door for a second as he walked. He stopped and went back to look into the store. He saw a young girl about his age and he knew it was love at first sight. He opened the door and walked in, not looking at anything else but her. He walked closer and closer until he was finally at the front desk... [Read More]
Tags: LoveVotes: 24
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lost and gone
D. Stelinni
12 Aug, 2011 07:05 AMI never had any family. I was bounced around orphanages and foster homes from birth till I was 18. I was lucky.. I didn't get seduced by the dark side. I finished college started a company. I beat the odds. All I ever wanted was a family. A wife and children but I was always ashamed of my past and if a gal got to close I would just vanish. Stupid I know. Then one day out of the blue I literally got smacked by this gal in a grocery store by her buggy causing me to drop a dozen eggs. It was very funny and as the "eggs" cleared she was just the most beautiful lady. Long blond hair, green eyes. What a site! She was so embarrassed but it was just a funny moment. She offered to pay for the eggs which of course was not an issue.... [Read More]
Tags: Missing, Sadness, LoveVotes: 4
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Sadness forever, Happiness for me doesnt exist
Anna
11 Aug, 2011 08:00 AMI was a girl who grew up with my grandmother and grandfather. I've always wanted to be with my mom and dad. But they are separated. My mom got married again and she lives in Japan. I only see her whenever there's a special occasion. I feel so jealous whenever I see my classmates during parent's day that they're with their mom and dad. I feel so alone. I feel so i'm not loved. She can't even take us there because she's afraid to her new husband. That one day, I fell in love and gave everything to that guy and later on, he just dumped me and he is loving another girl. He ruined my life. My mom hated me. My family hated me. It's like deep inside, I am not going to do what I did if she's only here guiding me. But later on, everything is okay.... [Read More]
Tags: Breakup, SadVotes: 26
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10 years of bitterness
Vanessa
10 Aug, 2011 10:21 AMHi I'm Vanessa from the Philippines. My lola (grandmother) died the afternoon of May 23rd, 2011. It's been 40 days since she left us. Just like any other Filipino Catholic family, we celebrated her 40th day. My sisters and I and some of our very close relatives went to a restaurant and had dinner. It made me think of my lola's death again. This thought had been haunting me since she died.. 'Why am I not that sad?' I should be sad because she is after all my grandmother. She helped my mom raise me.. but why am I feeling this way? Of course I do miss her. I cried at her funeral but I'm not sure why I was crying. I know it's disrespectful to speak ill of the dead but I just need to voice this one out. I just need to say this, just this one time... [Read More]
Tags: Death, FamilyVotes: 2
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my stranger
little heart
09 Aug, 2011 11:32 PMThe weird thing about me is that I have this huge amount of anger inside me that I can't seem to get rid of.. though I keep it all in..there were times when I would snap ..just like that with no triggers or anything of that kind?.i would be lying if I said I don't know the cause of that anger.. I would be a damned liar! Just like your perfect lying? Hey my stranger, you added to my anger.. tons even?cause although I didn?t trust you enough .. I believed you to be a kind person?one with a heart of whiteness?. But you know what? ? I am not stupid as you think me to be .. I had this nagging feeling that this day would come.. ! it just came sooner than I expected ! Does it seem stupid to you that I am talking to you on... [Read More]
Tags: Anger, Sadness, Depression, Missing, MemoriesVotes: 4
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Time heals nothing!
little heart
09 Aug, 2011 11:17 PMThe weird thing about me is that I have this huge amount of anger inside me that I can't seem to get rid of.. though I keep it all in..there were times when I would snap ..just like that with no triggers or anything of that kind?.i would be lying if I said I don't know the cause of that anger.. I would be a damned liar! Just like your perfect lying? Hey my stranger, you added to my anger.. tons even?cause although I didn?t trust you enough .. I believed you to be a kind person?one with a heart of whiteness?. But you know what? ? I am not stupid as you think me to be .. I had this nagging feeling that this day would come.. ! it just came sooner than I expected ! Does it seem stupid to you that I am talking to you on... [Read More]
Tags: Anger, Sadness, Depression, Missing, Memories, Secret, LiesVotes: 5
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