Lost In Thoughts
Dre01 Nov, 2017 08:56 PM
So, My story starts here, just started yr 11, started talking to this gir, after a few years finally had the courage to talk to her, anyways as the days went on we went from friends to best friends we just call and text nothing to big.
As the days went on I started falling in love with her more and more, it as unrealistic, but the thing that keeps destroying me is... she likes the person who used to be my BEST MATE, we stopped talking in year 8 no reason why, just did, anyways she cares about him so much and I see why, the way she looks at him, the way she talks about him, but he broke her heart which gets to me a lot.
I really want to say something but I'm too scared to, it'll be weird for us then.
It kills my heart to know how much she loves him, but I'm cool with it because I see her beautiful cute smile everytime.
Even when she looks at him I'm looking right at her, everything about her is just stunning, especially when we Snapchat each other I can just see her and her eyes, the best things ever.
I want to say something but I can't itll just go wrong.
But my old mate, how could he have done that to her, she's one of the best people I know, personality is on point, I'm in a position where I think I should leave it, because I look at myself everyday in the mirror, and think to myself:
"She never looks at you, look at you you're ugly, she wouldn't dare date you"
I cry myself to sleep every night knowing my love for her is going no where, it won't move an inch.
If I had one day to date her, just one, that one day from me... she'll be treated like my F****** queen, she's just the best thing I've got in my life, everyday we talk it feels I'm getting more and more feelings for her.
Position I'm in... crazy, I know, but I can't keep seeing her hurt from that F****** prick, it annoys me so much, but I can't do anything to him... or I'll be the one...who hurt her.
I don't want be the one in the wrong, now I'm just thinking suicidal to end it all.
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03 Dec, 2017 03:44 PM
Hey there can't imagine what you are going through but I don't think it's worth taking your life . It doesn't matter what you look like on the outside because it's what's on the inside that counts ,you are special and loved.The girl that you are in love with don't assume that she wouldn't date you if you have never asked her out or told her about your true feelings and yes everybody's scared of rejection even me but that doesn't mean you shouldn't go for what you want cause maybe she feels the same way and if she doesn't so what there's plenty more fish in the sea and don't waste your time if she doesn't care as much for you as you do for her rather give your time to poeple who will appreciate it any girl would be lucky to have you as a boyfriend.
06 Dec, 2017 04:59 PM
It's a great stories but y is it unfinished
14 Dec, 2017 12:17 AM
Don't die. I've been in this position and trust me it does get better and she doesn't deserve you if she doesn't see how amazing you are
23 Dec, 2017 05:48 PM
just follow you're heart ....Promise u ... u will never regret ....