My Love is gone...
Sabrina
16 Oct, 2012 11:06 PM
My story is not different than other girls.. The girl is falling in love as the guy is not interested by her. Well i will tell you my story.... :
First i have to say i'm Canadian and my love is Scottish. I'm 14 and he's 18. His name is Calum. When i first met him on a game i was kinda depressed because i thought no one loved me and i was having problems in my family. We started to talk every day, we couldn't get a day without talking to each others. It was true love (for me). We hang out together for over 3 months. I never had been that happy of my life. Even my parents had noticed that something had changed. He was my everything and we were always writing love note for each others. When i started to do poems in English for him which was very difficult for me because I'm french, he said it was cute and did the same. But as he doesn't know French he was writing in English.
There is one of his poem he sent me couples of days before my fairytale ends :
-When i had travelled half the road of life i found myself in the midst of a dark forest : I'd lost my wat, strayed from the true path. But thank you to you, you put me back on the correct path, losing you would put me back in the woods, even now my senses reel at the memory.- By Calum
After 3 months together everything was going still perfect. Until i go to a travel with school. We were going to Boston my friends and I. i spent only 3 days there and i didn't had internet. i was having it only to my hotel late in the night. So i got to talk to him a couple of times during my 3 days. When i sat in the bus i was still having internet. we were leaving to go back in our country. As i saw he had removed all my comments of his page and his page was owned by an other girl. There was a lot of love quotes on his page but for the first time ... it wasn't mines... i got so sad i couldn't finish my travel happily. None of my friends had been able to make me smile. i cried mostly of the day and i will always remember that day. The feeling i had when i received his mail cant be described. So horrible, so much pain at the same time in my heart and head. it feels a little as we were burning your body but small parts at a time to make you suffer even more. I felt also as if i was on Earth for nothing, my soulamte was gone why would i stay on this planet? when i went back home my parents they knew something wrong had happened. They never knew why because i didn't told anyone about him. I wanted to keep him for myself as a secret. i never knew why he gave up on me that easily but we are still talking. It's not the same, i still have a lot of feelings for him but he does not anymore. Each time i talk to him it hurts me. That's the only reason I'm still alive. Its because i still think i have a chance with my lover. He's my everything and i would never give up on him even if he caused me so much pain. He's the subject of my so many scars on my wrist, legs and arms. I've tried to stop but it's my only way to let my pain out. I never wanted to talk about this. The ones which will read that will be the first to know the real me. It's a true story all this is true. I'm still heartbroken.
I loved you so much Calum, even if my heart is broken you are the only one abble to fix it </3
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Comments
Post a Comment21 Oct, 2012 10:14 PM
That last part.... I totally understand how you feel <3
22 Oct, 2012 11:08 PM
i hope you love story will end better than mine
23 Oct, 2012 04:20 AM
i understand.. i know exactly how u feel :'( i wish i could make it better for you
23 Oct, 2012 09:55 AM
I understand.... I am suffering through the same story dear.....
Bt i have stopped talking him... So i dont even have a hope to get him back.... M totally broken... And passing my days woth lots of tears......... <\3
26 Oct, 2012 07:04 PM
Move on. Life is beautiful. He was a part of what you like. There are others who are what you like. They will take care of you a lot.
27 Oct, 2012 11:37 AM
Be patient :) i'm totally know how is your feeling
27 Oct, 2012 01:39 PM
i can under stand ur fillings........................
28 Oct, 2012 05:23 PM
You are just 14 years old. Your life is still too long,i think at this time your love give him that it's just a friendship because you didnt feel the love of your parents give you,and you feel alone. Your parents is who borned you and took care of you. They gave you all of their love but u didn't feel it. Why you don't tell your parents,i think they can help to throught your pain. Family is the most important thing,you should keep it. I hope you will find the true love and can forget him. I feel your paint now. Good luck. See you.
"sorry i'm not good english so it will have some wrong spelling. I hope everyone help me fix them"
29 Oct, 2012 08:40 AM
My heart goes out for you. My love has married someone else and I'm heart broken. It will do you well if you find something ugly about him physically like crooked teeth, out of shape body etc. Going out on a casual date with attactive guy will help (like friends, colleagues, cousin etc). Hope it will help you.
30 Oct, 2012 12:13 AM
Sorry,dear you will be fine.try to think less of him.but if you want him back?it's simple...
31 Oct, 2012 02:56 PM
i totally understand where ur coming from i got hurt yesterday and it was all good and then he blocked me on facebook and i find out he is with a new girl:'( i love thiat boy with all my herat i have never been happier then when me and him were together but now that were not i cry myself to sleep and im not the same person anymore cuz im not happy love hurts bad... all i want is him back and never to leave me and hopefully that will happen one day and hopefully that day will last forever like he said.
31 Oct, 2012 02:58 PM
You are stil too young so move on with your life N rememer life sucks
31 Oct, 2012 04:16 PM
hey... Its just a chapter you learned in your life. There will be a lot more chapter of happy and sad stories.
I understand the first love will be hurting more than anything.
I would say rather than feeling for him take revenge and have more friends for yourself.
What ever the problem is there is no reason in hurting yourself. Its all just the mind games. The way you take thinks matter. Just think he missed a cute and pure girl. You are not the loser. Its him.
02 Nov, 2012 07:44 PM
Just Move On Theres Alot Of NIce Guys Out There
Cause Calum is a Jerk... If He Really Loves You He Wouldnt Do That to u
03 Nov, 2012 03:30 PM
I am also heart broken.why cant we join our heart?lets love
04 Nov, 2012 03:11 AM
thanks guys for all the comments . i feel less lonely i know people that are understanding me
04 Nov, 2012 07:11 PM
Dont Worry about that my point is that You should love with her who loves u very much bcoz love means sacrifice u have 2 do that for his/her valuable LOVE.
04 Nov, 2012 08:40 PM
i know that yur wounds wont b cured with any sort of an advise!!! so just cry your heart out... afterall life s mixed with emotions!!!! good luck girl!!! :)
05 Nov, 2012 03:54 AM
awwwwwwwww....sumthng lyk dis happened 2 me also.........i wish ur love will cum bk to u
11 Nov, 2012 08:59 AM
hey, your story has really moved me as I'm also going through the same thing(heartbreak). please mail me or catch me on facebook..My username is Vicky Patel...
11 Nov, 2012 09:15 PM
i will mail you because i dont have facebook but give me ur email i cant find you.
09 Dec, 2012 10:08 PM
Hey Sweet Kiddo....I wont write a long crap lecture but all i wl say is tak to ur parents....n as deepika sad just cry ur heart out...cmpletely....n trust me they are the best peope to share ur feelings with.........Take care kiddo..........God bless you.....
21 Dec, 2012 08:32 AM
awwwwwwwww very sad bt awsm love story.......... hope u will get ur love soon........
01 Apr, 2013 05:08 PM
hey i know how you feel about the last part i have cuts on my arms too but its harder for me cuz i loved hm and i still do so find out if you truely love him and if yes then go for it ask him dont be afraid of the answer be strong