ITS HARD TO LET GO!24 Feb, 2013 03:58 AM
I am 16 years old and I have a boyfriend of the same age. We love each other like crazy and we know that nothing can do us apart ,nothing!...we did the craziest stuff together...enjoyed each and every moment of my life with him. I had to leave and go to a different country to study so I had to leave him behind. But we still dated and called each other.
It was hard for both of us although we knew that we loved each other crazily so nothing to worry.But as time went on, he felt the distance and the loneliness, it started to change him. He stopped sharing a lot with me but I kept telling him that everything will be alright. No matter the case, he still loved me so much. But there was this fear in me that one day I will have to let him go because he will not be able to stay like this and keep waiting for me. This day has not yet come and I hope it won't but the fear I am facing right now is for our future! He just told me that at the end of this relation, I will not have him but I am not planning to give up...
It will be really sad because in my dream he will be mine but in reality, he will be a dream...all the moments with him will be like gold. As I walk the lonely streets everyday, he is always on my mind. If only I would be with him,nothing would have changed. I remember those days when we used to fight for the smallest things and his anger was more like a lion but one word from me or a kiss, would calm him down. Now I am unable to calm him down. He was a guy every gal would want and I felt like the luckiest. We both know what is gonna happen to our future. I want to let him go but at the same time can't.
Never take anything for granted, cherish every moment that you have and I did all that but I just want to be with him again...I tried to let him go for an hour but I felt the emptiness within me...like something was missing. I will not give up on him no matter what even though I will not get him at the end. But I am who I am because of him.
I just want to tell him that " I love you baby and I know everything will be alright"