Should i be happy or sad?29 May, 2010 07:54 AM
My life has always given me suprises....i come from a middle class family..we couldnt get everything but we were happy but despite the days my mum n dad would fight....til my dad would beat my mum....my dad would be violent wen he was drunk....then when my sis was 19 she got married...she wasnt realy sure about it bt my mum said just do it...she wasnt happy with the guy...he would beat her up n they would argue all the time..aftr their kids they became better....i always thought things would be different for me...but no....when i turned 16 my sister's aunt came to us to get me n her son hooked up....n my mum agreed...i felt like kiling myslf....n d worst was wen my dad wasnt drunk my mum was dominant n when she said this would hapen...i agreed but i said i wanna get married when i am at least 22...i started chatin with the guy karan...he was realy sweet we soon started loving each other very much....just 6 mths later my dad passed away :( . he suportd me so much during the hard times....he stil loves me so much but the problem is they have fixd my wedding next year....i'm 18 now so i'll be 19 then...all my frends make fun out of me n say u getting married...even people from the town say you are so young....what happend...why so soon.... sometimes i feel like kiling myslf.... on the other hand karan loves me so much and we get on so well..... i curse my mum at times....i actualy got engaged when i was 16 in this 21st century....i donno what to do? i cant break up coz its gonna be embarrassing for d family as i come from an indian family.....i get depressed when people say u r so young n u r already engaged?? what should i do? should i just forget all that my mum did n just carry on with karan?? i know ill be happy with him.... but on the other hand ill be always unhappy 2 be maried early n to not get time to enjoy my life with friends....your views will b greatly appreciated...please give me advice on what to do.