Matt's Profile

Damn well at least you had a chance to date your crush unlike me I'm still torn up after a fucked up txt she sent me when she had heard I started cutting over her I started because of a bunch of rumors I heard about her being pregnant when she wasn't when I had heard I was heart broken I would look myself in the mirror and told myself I am never going to be good for her I felt like shit I unscrewed a blade from one of my pencil sharpener I slowly dragged the cold blade across my wrist so I won't be thinking about the pain I would create a new pain to forget about the old pain which it did work after a while and I had started to feel better when I learned the rumors were false I remembered when I was texting her and asked if she wanted to be my valentine she said yes I was so godamn happy I thought omfg she said yes i was planning on taking her out to a Valentine's dance at my school was when I was going to ask her out until the next day I noticed something off she completely ignored me during the passing period off 1st period to 2nd period I didn't understand I always walk her i didn't know why but something was wrong after I got home from school at around 6pm was when I got that txt I remember what it said you need to stop saying you love me and this you think those cutting marks are make you look like a bad person sorry I'm trying my best to remember I did remember the txt saying because me and you ain't happening and it never will so gee thanks for being a good friend after that I was fucking pissed I started punching my wall until my fists got numb I was home alone at the time so i grabbed my dads 9 mm from his room I was going to take my life until I got another txt it was from her it said and if you hurt yourself anymore i will report you to the office so after this don't talk or txt me anymore bye that for some reason made me put the gun down I never worked anything out with her and now she's living with her west side gangster douchebag boyfriend I'm still fucked up after that and it's about to be a year since shit hasn't been the same