I searched and searched... and in a way I still am... for some reason. Anything that could explain it; anything at all. I asked all her other friends if they'd seen something, or if she'd said anything to them. When I was strong enough, I finally went through her things. Her family didn't want to look, and her parents gave me most of her stuff. I read stuff she'd written. Mostly it was just harmless stuff, but every homework assignment or doodle hit me like a shock-wave.
I never found anything that even hinted at what might have caused her
I searched and searched... and in a way I still am... for some reason. Anything that could explain it; anything at all. I asked all her other friends if they'd seen something, or if she'd said anything to them. When I was strong enough, I finally went through her things. Her family didn't want to look, and her parents gave me most of her stuff. I read stuff she'd written. Mostly it was just harmless stuff, but every homework assignment or doodle hit me like a shock-wave.
I never found anything that even hinted at what might have caused her to feel how she did. I toyed with the idea that it was somehow an accident, or that she was pushed, or blackmailed, but there was nothing. No evidence for anything other than that she decided to jump.
Whatever hurt her - she must have kept it all in.
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