Love Has No Obstacles.24 Oct, 2010 11:54 AM
Love has no obstacles, right? Well, that's what I thought, until recently everything changed.
I won't use his real name but I'll call him by his nickname, Storm. I've known him since sixth grade, but things didn't spark till seventh. Keeping in mind, I'm a junior now. I'll start with seventh grade.
Seventh grade we were just in middle school, starting up what we thought were "relationships". We were complete opposites, Storm being one of those guys who was a bit on the tough guy side. And then there was me, the girl that everyone knew, the "goody good girl" as people would say i used to be. We got on the topic of basketball one day, and it was the 2007 playoffs, the Spurs Vs. the Mavs. That's what sparked us, he was the cutest guy i had ever seen, the sweetest, funniest, and most interesting guy I've ever talked to. He was grounded at the time so all he had was his cell phone, as did I so we talked all the time. But then something changed, after he asked me to be his girlfriend he stayed with me a few weeks then broke up with me. Then it wasn't anything big or important to us, so we stayed close.
Eighth grade came along, we didn't ever talk about dating again, but we did talk to each other about everything. We had myspace messages going, that were deep and meaningful. Then when i found out in October that year I was moving to Egypt, he helped me through my whole emotional state. The last picture I took in Texas was of Storm and I, smiling and happy. That day, he gave me his jacket, a red fox jacket that till this day means the world to me. And i gave him a shirt with my name on the back of it.
A year passed and not much happened after that. He was still on my mind and all, then I moved to England. He and I started talking a lot my sophomore year, getting back to the way we were, and yea i know, "how can you get so close to someone you didn't talk to in over 2 years, and haven't seen in 3" Well, the way that he and I knew each other we just knew everything was fine.
Then the spark came back, summer of 2010. He called me and said "ChloeBear! I'm going to my moms this weekend, you gonna be around" And luckily I was, so my brother and my sister-in-law dropped me off there when they were going to work. We pulled up and I saw him, standing on the stairs with his oakleys and fox hat, white shirt, and khaki shorts. I got out of the car with butterflies floating like no other, i was so excited, not knowing what was going to happen that night. As soon as my brother drove off, Storm put his arms around me and pulled me in for a kiss, and stayed like that for at least 3 minutes. I knew right then that day wasn't going to go wrong at all. We hung out in the house for a while on the couch talking, laughing, joking around, and just having fun. Then we went down to the pool and got a lot closer. We really clicked back into the "couple" zone. Then i had to leave we texted for the rest of the summer, he called me his princess and said he loved me for the first time.
When i flew back to London, I was dating the stupidest guy named Ty, it was a mistake. I didn't talk to Storm because I was afraid of losing him, and that's, till this day, a fear of mine. But after Ty broke up with me I was miserable, and Storm realized that. He started talking to me a lot more, we had our Skype dates more often, and one day I was crying, he called me and the first thing he said to me was "Chloe, you're beautiful" and I don't believe when people tell me that at all. He and I once again started getting a lot closer, and he told me on day after a thousand messages, and my one letter he got from me that he was in love with me, and then he was deeply in love with me. I couldn't be happier than the day he told me that. But then messages got less, texts stopped coming, and everything started coming slower and slower, and then nothing. I would try texting him, got nothing back, asked if something was wrong, nothing back.
I never felt the sadness feeling I've been feeling. And then I got something, "Hi baby, Sorry i've been distant lately, i've been super busy. But I've been thinking, this distance thing..I can't do it. I love you, i mean i really love you, but i think we should see other people until you come back." That's when the realization came to me..I wasn't good enough. I couldn't do as much for him as he wanted me to do. Yes distance isn't the easiest thing, but "Distance means so little when you love someone so much" right?
Till this day, I haven't spoken to him..I've stared at a blank screen wanting to write him, but I don't know what to say. "Hi Storm, i am still madly in love with you. I don't want anyone else but you" No. He won't go for that. Love hurts, and I think that's why people need walls. I thought Storm and I had something indestructible, but one stupid little obstacle came in the way.
I love him. But I don't know what to do anymore.