Fake friends. Fake boyfriends.02 Dec, 2013 03:18 AM
I'm 17 years old now. I'm the type of girl that gets sick of people talking shit about me all the time and I won't put up with it, so I'll do something about it. I'm a depression, smiley, upset, happy person. I get a lot of mood swings. One minute I'm happy and loving life but the next I just hate life and want to kill myself.
It's all start way back in grade 7, but I finally broke last year when I was in grade 11. I was going to Vincent Massey and I had people who actually cared and loved me. And I had the greatest, loving, caring and handsome boyfriend I every had. That was a pretty good way to start off a new school year. But something change, I don't know what, I don't know how, but he lost the feelings he had with me. But he didn't tell me until later on. So he thought he can just used me for sex because I was so in love with him, so I won't see what he is doing.
I started talking to this one girl, he name was Kayla, after Halloween, and we got pretty close. I told her about what's going on with my boyfriend and I showed her, him. But what I didn't know that she was only using me to get to him, so I was stupid and thought she was my friend.
During winter break, I was with him everyday and I felt that he was different, he didn't treat me how he did at the beginning of the year when we started dating. On New Year's Eve, we had the bestest night we ever had. But the next day I left his house and when I was walking home, I got a text, a text I didn't want to read. It said "Sarah, my feelings for you aren't there anymore and I can't play around with your feelings anymore, I can't handle this. But I'm breaking up with you". That just broke my heart, after what happen that night...
Couple days later, school started. It was awkward and odd. My friend Kayla was acting weird to. She was always sneaking off and honestly
I didn't know what was going on, until during exam week. She went outside for a sec to talk to her mom, but what I notice that my ex boyfriend went outside another door at the same time. I knew they were talking to eachother but I didn't know they were dating.
Couple weeks later, I stop talking to Kayla. She was acting weird and odd. Later on that week I found out that they were dating, dating two days after he broke up with me. I was pissed and heart break. Honestly I hated her so much and it got to the point, I got into a fight with her, beat the shit out of her. Of course she got scared of me and got a protecting order on me of course. But whatever. I did what I did to her and I'm pretty proud I did. She used me and took my boyfriend from me.
Next to this year, I'm in grade 12 now. Hopefully have grad but not sure yet. I moved to Crocus, because I didn't wanted to be with all those backstabbers. Honestly was the best thing I ever did. I love Crocus, but the thing I hate about it now that there is this guy who just got to me for Halloween and used me. We dated for 2 weeks and all that time he was saying things that made me love him. But just like all the other guys I have dated, used me.. Now everyone at school thinks on a hoe and a slut..
But the sad thing is, on that last broke up, it broke me. I'm always depress. I'm starting to do drugs now and drinking everyday. And I'm also cutting, deeper and deeper. I'm just hurt how guys think they can just play with my heart and use me. It's just sad. Honestly FUCK LOVE. Not going to let anyone play with me anymore. FUCK THEM.