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i wonder...

lisa

06 Oct, 2010 05:20 PM

I'm 16 and i always wonder if i died if anybody would miss me...
I have always been the ugly one in school and no guy has ever liked me.i have never had a bf and nobody has ever had a crush on me or ANYTHING of that sort. i know i am ugly, I'm "smart" but that doesn't matter to me. I have no friends because i have recently moved and i am alone. Everyday me and my mom fight. She used to buy me a lot of things and she thinks that she can treat me whatever way she wants just because she buys me everything. She assumes i am happy but I'm not. i feel alone. i may have a lot of material things but its nothing to me. i wish i had a loving mom and dad, i wish i was pretty, i wish people would stop comparing me to my pretty sister.She has everything that i have ever wanted, my parents LOVE her, She gets all the guys she wants, everybody loves her, shes pretty. and i have nothing.
so i wonder since nobody seems to even care about my feelings and they just assume i am fine, would anybody even notice if some day i just disappear?? i don't think so...i don't understand why God has me here. I can spend days in my room and nobody bothers to see if i am okay. My parents don't let me go out anywhere, all i do is go to school and that's it. i have no social life. So i think i should leave this earth......

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justme says:
10 Oct, 2010 06:35 PM

reading this makes me see that u ARE beautiful ..!! please dont do anythin crazy... if u answer this we can talk or somethin .. xoxo

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celine says:
10 Oct, 2010 07:31 PM

hey, i read your aritcle and started to cry, i am in the same postion that you are. i started out with the perfect boyfriend, perfect family life, perfect school and social life. then oe day it went all down hill. my bf dumped me for another girl, my mom kicked me out andits been a month since ive heard from her. School i have no one no friends no one to talk to. I turned to cutting and suicide, i know the pain, the wishing you could be somewere anywere but her anyone but you. i know. i cant promise it will all go away, but i can tell you that you do serve a purpose here.

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vee says:
10 Oct, 2010 11:33 PM

hai...i would to be fren wth this stories writter...i wan her details...can u help me to get information abt her...i would like to tel her i'm here 4 her...

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vee says:
11 Oct, 2010 12:31 AM

hai dear...really hope that u'll read this comment...hey dear...u must know 1 thing dear...god f bring us to this earth 4 a reason dear....pls dont give up dear...u know smthg only the inner beauty always wth u dear...the out beauty wont be wth u always babe...we must appriciate on what we have dear....u know smthg life will be as what we think about....trust me 1 day sure u'll realise this world are so so beatifull n even u wont have heart to leave this world my dear...anyhow...i'm here ur fren dear....anythg u can share wth me babe...cheer up...life is so beautifull u know....i'll show u that dear...bless u

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Denise says:
11 Oct, 2010 09:16 AM

Please dont do anything stupid. This is not the way out of things. Firstly, understand that you are beautiful, despite what you think. Everyone can be beautiful if they look inside them and change their perspective of life. Please realize that many people love you! Take care xx

email me if you just want to talk about things (:

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meme says:
11 Oct, 2010 02:05 PM

awwww...plz dont do anything stupid..u got inner beauty..if u notice some people here care for u...plz dont do anything stupid...to me-it ur time to show that brain is more beautiful than beauty itself..plzz take care xoxo

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Kaylaaa(L) says:
11 Oct, 2010 09:31 PM

NO! Kaay, i bet your pretty. And i bet your nice& friendly. Like seriously your braave too! Theres so many people just like you in the world that you havent met yet. Like arent you 16?! You can do ao much more in your life!

Dont do anything draastic.

Theres a lot of people out there for you!
Including me.
Email me if yu'd likee,
me&my friends cuud give you tips on how to change your style if you really want, and how to talk and flirt with guys! Trust me we're cheerleaders :)

author_2b@hotmail.com

/Kaylaaa.

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carla says:
12 Oct, 2010 12:07 AM

remember beauty is useless but sex is the best!

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Drakehead says:
12 Oct, 2010 02:05 AM

U remind me exactly of my sister. Im her brother and yea i understand where your coming from though because she used to be like that. You have to hang in there. "wish i had a loving mom and dad," As for that, your parents do love you, even though they fight with you, they put a roof over your head and buy you things because they try to make you happy. Talk to them, tell them how you feel. Trust me when i was 16, i was exactly the same way. When i got older and got over everything, i built confidence in myself...all by myself and eventually my parents helped me and other friends who randomly come and go. You dont need anyone except yourself and your family. You have to talk to someone. Tell your family how you feel, or maybe even a random stranger like me. Most ppl have been there, but most others understand it a lot better than u think. Ur so young and u have a lot ahead of your life. We all have our experiences. And don't be selfish and do something crazy like kill yourself because you would hurt everyone around u. What good will that do? Your parents would be devastated and feel like they didnt do aything right while your sis will be crushed. Dont be selfish. If ur so smart, focus on your future. In time u will find someone. What pisses me off about this world is sometimes society focuses on how ppl look. If ppl look past looks and go for personality then the world wouldnt be alone. Try something new. Talk to your sis or your parents. Or even me. It doesnt matter u will grow and see what im talking about. Cherish ur life, focus on school. Try to meet new ppl. But be careful of who u trust. Hope you hang in there.

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Toxic Dream says:
12 Oct, 2010 06:11 PM

hey dont think nobady loves or that your not beautiful. i been in the same situation as you have. i sometimes get out but always end up in the same place as always. But just know that if you dont try making friends they wont come to you. Life is hard but everyone serves a purpose. Just be yourself also because dont let the pain lead you to become someone you are not. start speaking to the new kids to people who seem to be alone and you might make alot of friends dont let yourself down.

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TheOne says:
12 Oct, 2010 07:30 PM

dont do anything stupid girlie! ure worth a 1000 times more than those "pretty" ones, plz if u want to talk dont hesitate and send me an email at: jovlich@aol.com

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Momita says:
13 Oct, 2010 09:08 AM

Hey who ever you are you don say that about urself that ur ugly and that no guy likes u and nobody cares about u.....I don know u at all but i already care for u it puts me down to hear a very beatifull girl talk like talk and when i say beautifull that means because no should care about how they look instead how they are from the inside there hearts...One thing i could tell u ur over there crying for someone who dosent love u but u don realize that someone behind u is crying more deeply for u because u don even realize his there:)Think about ......Sincerely MONITA

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Monita says:
13 Oct, 2010 09:18 AM

Hey who ever u are never ever say that about urself that ur ugly,that noone cares 4u, and no loves u thats a fuckin lie and im sorry to talk to u this way but ur out there crying for someone who dosen love u but u don realize that someone behind u is crying more deeper for u because u don realize that his there for u...Look i don really know u but i already care 4u and u are a very beautifull girl and why i say that its because u have heart and that is wat should matter to everybody not how u look not how u dress up or wat u do but how u are from inside i love the way u are so don ever say that noone cares for u because now when ever u feel bad or need someone to talk to send me an email and i promise ill respond back ok

lucero92_rodriguez@yahoo.com

SINCERELY:Monita:)

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Casey says:
13 Oct, 2010 11:07 AM

I think Drakehead is right(: Hang in there!If you need someone to talk to i'm here! my email is ilovesos102@yahoo.com

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Brandon says:
15 Oct, 2010 03:24 PM

It's okay. One day, you'll find someone worth your time, and he'll make you feel special.
But don't look--let it find you. In the mean time, try to feel better and make live worth living again for yourself.

bigbweezy@yahoo.com

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Lebo says:
18 Oct, 2010 07:42 AM

Welcome to my world, I dnt hv a sister but can relate to wht ur life is about. I am a terciary student but still nt allowed to date, i do it coz m being cared of by my Boyfriends cnt say i hv experienced love but i hv enjoyed myslf. My room is my Happy place, i even nw eat in there, study in there, watch T.V in there coz i believe m in peace with myslf in there. I wont let anybody oredict my hapiness NO One even my parents. Love yourslf and u'l be Loved. Just hang in there. Find something u can relate to and make yourdlf happy always even thou there r people who would kill to c u Sand and crying dont let em. XOXO lets be friend:)

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blue moon says:
23 Oct, 2010 06:34 AM

we are so similar, i also wish that i'm beautiful but it doesnt matter now i have my friends, try to make friends with other thats the only solution , they make me feel beautiful even though i'm not... you can do it girl

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somebody ,somewhere says:
07 Nov, 2010 01:57 PM

i kno how you feel i am in the spot kno has ever had a crush on me but i do know that there is always a reason see my momther thinkins i am fine and my father wants nothing to do with me but i keep holding on but i cant promise that everything is going to gett better but remember people can do what ever they can change and you are deep and beautiful i can tell from how you right your story it dont matter whats on the out side what matters is on the inside!!!!

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anna says:
04 Jun, 2011 12:17 AM

I felt the same thing as you, and i think worse. I'm fat, ugly, and my parents are not as rich and as care as your parents. As like you, so many times i think, what will happen to all who know me when i left the world, and i think they'll just don't care about it. And as you, i have a sister that better than me, and she's never love me. Reading your story make me feel that I'm not the only one who felt that.

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b-boy says:
18 Sep, 2011 04:26 PM

i know how you feel.. sadly or luckily i dunno.. they dont care and i'm free to cut and burn and shit like that.. stay strong unlike me..

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Brenda says:
10 Feb, 2012 09:12 PM

Hey, my name is Brenda and I'm 14. I also go through the same problem--being ignored, feeling ugly and insecure. And well, I was taken away from my mother and it hurts so much to see her and know that I can't be with her. But trust me when I say this. You don't know who we're going to marry. He's out there in this world and you just don't know it. He's going to love you for who you are, no matter what. I'd love to experience LOVE someday<3333333

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Laura says:
14 Feb, 2012 11:02 PM

My brother was bullied as a kid and he still kinda is but i talk to him and we are really close to eachother if you want to talk im here if u want....laurahmartinez@yahoo.com
I was confused for looking like a guy so i was kinda bullied for it too. when i was younger a boy my age touched me in innapropriate places so... yeah i felt really bad and my parents kinda ignored why i was so depressed as a kid... i never really had anyone to talk to about this.:P

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S... says:
22 Nov, 2012 01:44 AM

I have the same problem. My parents pay for my karate and skiing and loads of sports, then whenever we get in a fight they bring it all up. I'm a nerd, and a loser, and I'm ugly, but my sister is so perfect, because I've already fought all the fights with my parents for her. She will never get OCD and insomnia like I did from stress. My parents always see the bad in me. I think they wish that my twin sister who died was here instead. I am too tired to deal with my parents now...

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