Depression changes everything II17 Feb, 2018 05:21 PM
I have named this true story and experience after a story that inspired me on this very website.
I’m going through a bad stage now with my current girlfriend of 8 years. 8 years is a long time and we have so much going for us. We have just recently bought a house together. Just before Christmas. Our first Christmas in our new house. Everything was going so well. She was so happy and excited for what our future held. But this time last week she all of a sudden hit a depression...
Her grandad is in hospital, and sadly may not be with us much longer. She has already admitted that this is what started her depression but why shut me out? I should be the one person she can talk to, about anything. Instead, all she seems to have is hate and anger towards me whenever I try to show that I love her and care for her. I can’t say or do anything right. Every time I try to be there for her and I admit myself that I’m scared for our relationship she gets angry and accuses me of making this all about myself, as if I’m trying to turn the tables and make her feel sorry what me and what I’m going through with the worry for her. I’m incredibly afraid of losing her. I can’t imagine my life without her. I don’t want a life without her. We have so much going for ourselves with so much more to come.
She hates her job and doesn’t want to get out of bed in the morning because of it. I’m trying to help her with that. I just don’t want her to throw everything away between us because of other things. She has done this before. She regretted it. She missed me and came back to me. We have been so strong ever since. If I try to remind her that she made this mistake once before and I don’t want us going through it again she flies off the handle! Again, says all I care about is myself. That is not true. I’m petrified of losing her and I’m worried about her. Her state of mind. I don’t expect anyone or anything to be able to reassure me, I just want to get this off my chest as I can’t talk to her about it. She shuts me out. I’m so weak at the moment and if I have added to her depression I’d like to know what it is that I’ve done. I hope that it’s not too late. I love her