My Ups and Downs story10 Aug, 2014 11:01 PM
Hi well there are always ups and downs in life. Im just going to write about my biggest down and up in my entire life.
If i say that i remember when was the first time we kissed its true. If i say that i remember the first time i said i loved you its a lie . If i say that you gave me light in this dark passage called life its true.
I have always had a very easy going life, never really felt alone , have always had friends and family around me. The first time when i actually got to really know girls and want to get closer to them was summer when i started in high school. You know what happends ? Theres actually a girl that likes me just when i know that there are really good to have a girl in your life. She thinks i was funny and grown up. I wasnt too sure if i liked her or not. She is a friend of a friend. That's why she got invited to my house once and when i saw her, she had just cut her hair. My heart melted it was a insta KO . You probably think i liked her just because of her looks. Maybe you are right, but not all couples starts with full mutual feelings and for the personality. But after that night when i got to know her better. When we watched horror movie together she would get me to hug her because she was afraid. The childsh yet mature personality of her . Just got me head over heels. My friend asked me afterwards if i liked her i just said hmm thought about and said yes. But my friend said you dont really like her if you have to think about it, but i really knew it was yes the instant
I still remember when we just got together , i would make her angry every single day and had to make her feel better everyday. It was fun for both of us really. (Childish angry not angry angry)
Every month for our anniversary i would buy her a gift or make her something a video etc. At the 1 year anniversary we both bought rings to each other .
Until it all started, she is a little hesistant person gets easily agitated, and wants the other person to always listen. More in the childish way. But when she becomes irritated she gets annoyed about everything.
It wasn't a big of a deal that was all ok for me .
When she went vack to vietnam with her family on vacation. I had to work so i couldnt go it was in the summer vacation. She always was so busy there, i would call everyday even though it costs pretty much. But she was always in such a rush. But when i come home from job it was way past bedtime there . Then i got to know she had a (cousin) not really related just vietnamese stuff. She hadnt met since little. And she was playing with him thats why she was always in a rush. I was a little jealous. Then i got to know that she her sister and cousin shared hotel room at a place. Where they were out together. Its like a little island so they were the only ones that went there. Pretty famous vacation place. I got even more jealous but i waited for her to come back.
She went back over a week before her parents came home. So i lived with her for that week. Which did not go as i expected. She was like a different person she had a very different attitude towards me. She would always give me a little cold shoulder. When we slept together i couldnt even touch her i usuly hug her. But she said i was too warm. It was like 2 strangers lying in a bed. She would easily get irritated at me on about everything i did. She even threw me out of the bedroom im the morning because she had to skype with her (cousin) . I was really jealous and i could feel the pain. She didnt just do it 1 time but like 1-2 times everyday. Could be an half hour to 2 hours. Then it came to the day where i had to leave she cried to me saying that she was sorry but she really wanted to get her cousin over to thhe country where i live. They would have to marry for 8-9 years i didnt know what to do to say i cried with her and said yes to it. she said he would just sleep in the guest room. After that time i could skype with her so little i could just chat with her but she always had delayed responses. Because she was skyping with her cousin. I would feel so jealous but i said to myself its okay. And didnt think about it. Im the nice guy type. But everytime she texted me it would be about the cousin. She would also just skype with me after her cousin couldnt skype with her more different time zones.
After a month or so, she finaly said it. She cheated on me she skyped with me and cried . But she said ut was only because i wasnt there she felt lonely. She even said that she had se- with him. Thats why she didnt let me touch her cuz she felt dirty. I just cried with her i didnt know what to do. But i did what nice naive guys does with they're first loves i said its ok. We acted like nothing happend. And after a while we didnt think about it anymore. Even though it has been bugging me abit . But i just forgot about it. It feels like it became even better after that we had great times together last year high school she would always sit with me and we just had it great. I got the drivers license and a car so i could drive her home. Even though it costed me like dou le gas price every month. So she didnt let me drive her home everyday and took the bus pretty much too. I would always wake up every morning skyping with her watching her take on make up talk with her and wait til she went to school before i got out of bed and prepared for school.
I had a really happy and good life it couldnt be better except if my and her parents liked each other and her parents accepted me . I couldnt go to her house if her parents were at home. Or really we couldnt let them see us together. She regulalry visits my house on free days but she would get scolded by her parents.
But it all happend about a week after valentines. On valentines i bought to her really pretty flowers which costed me a fortune i think it was well worth. I drove to her house and called her out to get them. I had a little quarrel with her earlier cuz u really wanted to drive her home from school cuz it was valentines. But she said it was okay a friend of a friend of mine could drive her. Since they live close together he drives her sometimes, i live on the other side of the city. (A really small one) . When i came and gave it to her she was like ok thanks and just closed the door. And i went home i didnt want to come in or asked about it cuz i knew her dad was home.
I just saw that i had skipped abit i'll just write it short. Since about a year before she had said a few times i dont know if i really like you or if its that i got a little attached to you when we met. After 2 years of dating. You maybe think its a little time but for teenagers i think thats a quite huge timegap.
So back to it , she would still hang with me at school let me hug her etc. Until one night where she said she had to have a serious talk with me. I had a bad feeling about it. She cried and said we had to break up. She didnt tell me why and just cried after that she asked me how i felt. I didnt cry in front of her but just muted my mic and took the cam away and cried then she just asked me how i flet. I wanted us to get back of course.
Some days after she knew she didnt have any other options. So she siad to me that she had been going out with the guy that was driving her he had become my friend. But still he lied to me straught up the face. She said that they stsrted 2 weeks ago. Before valentines i understand why that happend on valentines. She said that her parents thinks he was okay but her mom got a little angry because they fell asleep together when they watched movie when she still was my girlfriend!!!!!! I just said to her that she shouldnt take things too fast. She told me that you think you can teach me sbout love life ? Dont get me wrong she aint a bad person. She is just really straight forward and can easilt hurt others. I didnt know what to do... A friend of mine cheating with my girlfriend. Suddenly someone that was so dear to me promised me to bemy best friend then getting degraded to normal friends then to if i talk to you its a question. We were invited to a party together since we both know the birthday kid. I had to go when i get there i see them together. Its k at first but keeps getting worse. She talked to me i was so relieved i was so happy but it was like 1 sentence then she just went to that guy. The party had only like 20 people. I wasnt too familiar with them. I couldnt drink cuz i had to drive. And them two were almost mouth raping each other hugging each other like i didnt even exist.
We went to a buddhism lair together. I couldnt resist and tried to touch her alittle when i could and was always looking for her . And then i got the text that just made me leave after 1 say inthe 10 day lair dont try to touch me or look at me neither me and my boyfriend like it. Her boyfriend wasnt even there. I know its wrong but she was just like i dont care about you just go and get another girl. She has even said before if i dont like you do you think any girl will? I have always said you are so pretty if i met you go someone is going to try and get you insta. I had so right....
I dont know how many times i have cried because of you. Its breaking me to think about i can never see you anymore we wont be going to the same school anymore. You are getting engaged after 6 months of dating . You didnt even had to tell me that and why me and noone else. Still to this day i love her i miss her touch her nagging her voice her fragrance everything. You have made me so weak. I can cry of everything i even cried because of spider man. You matured me but then you crushed me. When i hang out with the people i usualy do. I always think of you you were also with us. Even till today i cant hold it back sometimes. I like to read love stories now everytime i do my heart aches because of you. My friend analyzed it and said you were a gold digger i didnt have enough for you anymore just see how she milks the guy. Are you really that kind of person and im the stupid one i even gave her money as birhday gift after we broke up. She brought her boyfriend to my birthday... Should i wait for you?? I have pretty much given up on girls... I know i cant get one even i get one will she ever be better or make me forget you?
I dont think it will happen... When i think about you you are the perfect person the perfect fit for me... Theres only 4 words i have in my heart. I hope it becomes true one day. Eve. Though every thing you have caused me the dark path keep getting darker it will always have a single light point because of these words I Want You Back.
I Love You My Love My Life