One-Sided Love is on the Cliff10 Feb, 2013 05:27 AM
This story is about a teenage girl... To tell you the truth, it's about me. My story about my painful, brokenhearted, crushed love. People say I'm young and all but no matter what age, I believe we have the right to love someone.
It's been 3 years... 3 years of loving him. But in the middle of the 3 years, a knife stabbed my heart. He got a girlfriend... The thing is he knew I liked him, he never said anything. How am I suppose to know if I'm suppose to give up? When I heard he got a girlfriend, I didn't know what to do. I didn't feel anything, I was numb, too shocked to do anything. That night, I thought of killing myself, I knew it was stupid yet I still thought of it. I cried and cried, I kept thinking and thinking. He was happy and I was sad. Was I suppose to be happy for him? I was always the second option. He broke my heart and it left a scar in my heart. People told me to give up so I said I have. But did it work? No. No matter how hard I tried I just couldn't. Slowly as time past, I stated losing feelings, I just focused on school and my friends. It was fun while it lasted, I THOUGHT I completely forgot about him.
I found out that we were in the same class... I thought oh well. However, as soon as the school year began, hell went lose. Then, I heard that he broke up with his girlfriend over the summer. My feelings came back, of course at first I tried ignoring all those feelings. Slowly, we became closer (I guess) but we weren't close like everyone else thought... I was always nervous to talk to him. I made decision to just become a good friend. I tried keeping my feelings aside, but one day I lost it. When, we were hanging out with our friends, this girl asked him out. I couldn't handle the pain, everything came rushing back to me. I ran away... I kept crying, remembering the pain of the day I found out he got a girlfriend. But surprisingly, he ran after me, he asked me if I was okay. I said yeah. Then I was too curious, I asked him what did you say to her? He said I don't like her, I said no. Don't worry...
Those words. When I told him everything, about how I loved him for 3 years. He asked me what do you like about me. I was speechless, i didn't know what to say. I don't think there's a reason for me liking you. When I asked him how he felt about me, he told he doesn't know. His ex girlfriend used him to get closer to his best friend. And then, his best friend went out with his ex. It was messed up, yeah so I knew he wasn't ready for a relationship or anything. So I just left it be, he needed time and I understood that. (A/N: Btw the best friend and the ex broke up and the best friend feels bad and sorry to him so don't hate. Humans always f*** up).
Slowly as time passed by, hopes kept rising, he kept giving me hopes, I don't know if he knew. More memories and hopes kept rising, this is when it became harder. Those hopes and memories made it harder for me to give up. I kept keeping the hopes and memories even if I knew I was going to get hurt at the end. I didn't want the time for me to give up or keep getting hurt by someone who doesn't seem to care... He's kind of shy and very secretive so I don't know his feelings. Anyways, the nightmare I was dreading/waiting for, finally came.
*This is a story that didn't end, yet. The girl can't decide... Even if she would promise to herself that she would give up the hopes and memories were impossible to throw away or ignore.
Whenever the girl tried giving up, the guy somehow would give her hopes.
The question is; Should the girl keep loving him and trying or should she give up? This story didn't end yet.