He Betrayed Me (HELP)
Christine
19 Jul, 2010 09:16 AM
I was sixteen when I met Johnson. He was eighteen at that time. He was so perfect in every detail. He was handsome, tall, well-built, with nice blond hair and perfect blue eyes that goes well with his handsome features. He had a nickname for me, Christina (he loves to call me that name).
He was my classmate. For four months, I kept eyeing Johnson. I think I had a crush on him. Four months later, the word came out of my mouth," I love you." Johnson said," I love you too."
Seven months after our relationship, well, I lost my virginity to Johnson. Johnson said," I never experienced such wonderful sex, Christina, I must be with you forever. But mostly, I love you." I was so moved.
A year later, I got pregnant with a baby girl. When Johnson heard the news, he said," I will always love you. I will never leave you for another girl. I will always be with you, and our daughter." I was so happy at that time.
Five years after our baby daughter, Yasmine, was born to us, Johnson had less and less interest in Yasmine. One day, he never contacted me or asked about Yasmine again. This went on for a few months.
Suddenly, my friend came with shocking news. She said," Your boyfriend Johnson is having sex with a twenty-year-old named Angela!!!"
I didn't believe her at that time. Until one day, I spied on Johnson. The shocking truth was revealed to me. I even heard him saying to Angela," Angela, you are young and pretty, not like my f*****g ex-girlfriend. She is so stupid and so boring." I cried to see the horrible truth in front of me. I saw Johnson leading Angela to a log cabin and they had sex there. I was so sad I ran away.
At first, I contemplated suicide. But just when I was about to pick up the knife, I suddenly remembered Yasmine. She was only an innocent cute little five-year-old who deserves absolute love. So, I held the love trauma for many years. Yasmine was fourteen now. She is studying overboard.
Now I am thinking. Should I end my love trauma (by suicide) or not now that Yasmine is quite independent. Please tell me!!!
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Comments
Post a Comment23 Jul, 2010 03:45 AM
you shouldn't suicide! even though your daughter Yasmine is independent, you should always be there for her no matter what happens.. and besides.. its been 9 years and you should really move on and love your life :)
23 Jul, 2010 05:03 AM
your daughter deserves a mother in her side..
you already know what to do but you still keep on thinking.. just be a good mom and protect your child so that she would grow the way you wanted her to be..
24 Jul, 2010 05:42 AM
Just take care about your Child
24 Jul, 2010 03:19 PM
Hey listen if a guy f**d you over for another girl and talked shit about you he's a complete ass you deserve better then him and that pain is temporary and you have to think about your daughter and how you committing suicide will destroy her life dont destroy your daughters life just because yourr boyfriend destroyed yours. theirs plenty of more men out their that u can love and they can love you but theirs only one MOTHER and your daughter wont be able to replace you with no one else ... just ask god to give you faith and move on ,. life goes on and so will you . take care .
24 Jul, 2010 11:34 PM
Ending your life is not the answer, Christine.
Think about your daughter. Think about your family and friends. Remember, God loves you so much. You are very precious to Him.
25 Jul, 2010 04:06 AM
you should not leave your child because of what happened in the past. A girl will always need her mother, especially in a cruel world like today's. He is of the past and she should be of your future.
25 Jul, 2010 02:49 PM
I don't think you should kill yourself. Your daughter doesn't have any parents and it would kill her if her only parent died. stay alive for her.
26 Jul, 2010 12:06 PM
dont do suicde!your daughter will have no one to love and she might be thinking to end her life too!
26 Jul, 2010 02:08 PM
never think about suicide, thats just completely wrong, the guy messed up everything, why punish your daughter for that.. ya its true a child always needs a mother to be there n ya you the one so stay happy with her.. tc
26 Jul, 2010 05:56 PM
Your Child, is first. (:
28 Jul, 2010 10:40 PM
whats wrong with you thinking about commiting suicide because a fucken asshole cheated on you and if you think that just because your daughter is 14 years old she can take care of herself you are really wrong imagin how sad she will be if you killed yourself so stop thinking just about you and start thinking more about your daughter who loves you
06 Aug, 2010 12:14 PM
Why would you suicide for such an ass.. How can he jus do this with you.. Why would you lose your precious life for a person who doesn't really care for you,left you when you needed him the most. You are blessed with a daughter now she is just 14 now what is she going to do without you? Do you want her to ruin her life just the way you ruined yours?
06 Aug, 2010 10:40 PM
You have to love yourself and it's time you allow yourself to heal. You have 1 life, and you have many years left of it. You can end it and be known as the woman who ended a life because of a man who is not true. You can start healing and building a life that you can be happy in - a life with close ties with your daughter, other family members and another man who will love you.
No man can love you if they see you are still hung up over another man. It's not something 1 can fake. It's not fair to your potential future love, nor to yourself if you do not get over a past relationship.
You cannot expect miracles immediately. You control what you can. Spend the next year or two on healing and building. Be true to your daughter about your pain of her father - if she doesn't know. If you think she can handle it. It may help both of you. You would feel less burdened. She will have better understanding of why her father is missing. She must always know you love her so much.
Next, build on your family ties. You did not mention. Are there any family you can get close to again?
Next, build on having friends.. and slowly, good trusted friends..
Next, build on giving yourself little treats and celebrate yourself by going to a spa. Or go to the beach with some friends. Or go out partying. I do not know what you enjoy. THe choice is yours. But give yourself a pat on the back, for being so true to a man.. IT shows what a wonderful woman you are. For keeping alive just for the sake of the happiness of another person. It shows how caring you are. For bringing up a child on your own for a number of years. That is so difficult. Yet you did not abandon her. Your love made you so strong. & you did it. You brought up a child all alone for 9 years. That's amazing.
As you said your child is now studyng overseas. So it is the perfect time for you to now celebrate your achievements and your life and ensure by the end of your natural life, you have achieved the life you are happy with.
God bless.
31 Aug, 2010 04:58 AM
c'mon, your child has no right to be deprived of a mother, it's that guy's mistake for not interpreting your feelings right.nget over it. yasmine will make your life colourful as the rainbow if you stopped brooding over suicide and contemplate the happy times of the present.
12 Sep, 2010 10:47 AM
hy never trust a guy ,guys jast want ti have sex with u thats all and never kill yourself becaouse of a guy.so am telling u be with you little and move on with your life.
08 Apr, 2011 12:16 AM
you should nt suicide u hav to mov on in ur lyf atleast 4r ur daughter n tht persn doesnt deserve ur tear n giving lyf cz of him is stupidity
10 Aug, 2011 02:33 PM
hey dont do tht , u have kept patience at tht time for ur child ,now u want to leave ur child alone in this stupid world.If something happened with ur child like u ,then u could forgive ur self n who take care of her , now u should make ur daughter future,hence she didnt do anything like u?
12 Nov, 2011 07:33 PM
no you should not! shes not yet independent..nor will she ever be without her mother!..shes gonna need you thru out her hole life not just as an addolecent!..screw men they come and go...but your child needs you forever
16 Mar, 2012 08:46 AM
forget him and move on. don't let your life wasted just to please him. you have a plenty of time to make decision.prepare the future of your daughter, dont ignore her just to rebel johnson.
29 Mar, 2012 12:12 AM
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14 Jun, 2012 05:47 AM
Don't commit suicide! Yasmine doesn't have a father so what wouldn't it be sad if she didn't have a mother too? I know she's an independent girl, so am I but if I lost my mom and my dad wasn't here, I would be a total wreck. It was 9 years ago and that guy is a complete douche! Do it for your daughter, don't do it. Stay strong :)
31 Aug, 2012 08:25 PM
You shouldn't commit suicide. Because once a cheater he's always going to be a cheater. Life will get better. The most amazing part of being a mother is to watch your girl grow up, and being proud of how amazing she is. I know how being cheated on is. It hurts so much. But now I have this amazing guy with me now. Life gets better I promise even when it dosnt seem like it now. Somebody told me that guys who cheat are usually stupid and pathetic. Because the guys they cheat on are usually the easy ones. So never let a boy let you cry or hurt because there's going to be the perfect one out there. I know ur daughter loves you, and would be devastated if you commuted suicide. I hope I give you good advice. Stay strong.
02 Sep, 2012 05:25 PM
Here's where I can see it was all for the very most wrong reasons. The first thing you mention about him, was his LOOKS...That should be the last thing you should care for, if you truely love someone. Love really is blind. Attraction, is not love. Forget about him, and being shallow and find someone who's really a nice person.
04 Sep, 2012 09:20 AM
Dear christina..Ur case is very pityful. We get life of humai at one time which must be enjoyed fully. Suciede is not treatment for ur pain. First of all i want to clear u that love is sex and sex is love. My words may be pinchy but its true.If ur boyfriend leaved u alone and went for a bitch then why not you. Search another patner and enjoy with him. I hope u will get ur hapiness again wid another partner. Common girl enjoy ur life and shoot away mentality of suciede. Thankyou
08 Jan, 2015 07:34 PM
you cannot leave Yasmine alone..she is now a teenager and she needs you so that she doesnt end up in the hands of a jerk like Johnson
21 May, 2015 02:14 PM
Omg.. Forget him and he didn't deserve you any way. You have a daugther that loves you very much and thats more than enough to live for..
02 Apr, 2016 06:41 PM
Let's have some fun with sex