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10 Oct, 2012 06:32 PM

This year of school brought me something, that I'll never forget... a wonder full feeling that I want to hold in for ever. A boy, named Jacob Aaron Shafer but in the different grade. I'm in the 11th grade, and he's in the 10th grade. I fell in love with him, when we first talked, and the whole thing was so magical. I was blind of happiness when he gave me a hug, or when I wrote him a note, or anything that he did and was sweet.

I never felt something so strong like this, I had some boyfriends before but he is different, the feeling was never this strong, and the whole world went in a blue bubble, and I just went crazy every time he went to talked to me my body went crazy. Of course outside I looked cool, but inside I shouted of happiness. Everything went well, and we get closer like friends, and for me this was enough for the moment, and everything just went well, until I noticed something... he was staring at me.

He was smiling at me and talking to me, like he never did to her. It was fine for the moment, I didn't want to be paranoid, and I it didn't worry me, or anything. Till one Monday when his girlfriend came to me and said that we had to talk. And I asked her what she wanted to talk to me about and she said that he felt in love with me and he wanted my number. Well she told me that she didn't want to give my number because she remembered I told her not to give my number out to anyone, and when she heard how happy I am. She stared at me with tears in her eye, and asked me why am I so happy if I know, and how scared she is that this will affect our friendship, and that she didn't do anything, and she won't do anything, because our friendship is more important and she continued talking and talking, and when she finished she already cried, and I just smiled and smiled and hugged her, and I said: 'Nothing will affect our friendship, and if you like him, go on, I won't stop you, I'll just be happy if you and him get together, because I love you too, and I want you to be happy.' And I really wanted. I don't care if I won't be okay,

I want them to be together with each other. When I came home I burst-ed into tears, and I ate as much chocolate as I could, but didn't help me. It still really hurts, but I can't blame anyone for this. No one is guilty, and no one should feel sorry about their feelings. I don't feel sorry. It was the most beautiful period of my life, and I'm happy that her and I are still friends...and that I can see him each day, and talk with him whenever I want. I just hate the feeling I have.

I just hate that I love him and now he know's it. I don't want to. I don't want to love anyone, because when I care of people I care about their feelings, and I want them to be happy, not me. But if I'm in a such situation, why does it hurts?? Why does it hurts so much?? why is it so cruel?? How could I face them and act happy when we're all together???...How could I just turn off my feelings??...I really want to kill them!, I really want to escape from this situation... but he know's I love him and I wont leave him for as long as I live..

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kathleen says:
08 Jan, 2013 04:33 PM

i miss him now

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Mia says:
09 Jan, 2013 01:30 AM

do you want to talk to me about it this has happened to me too. my email is so talk to me tonight i am always here to listen

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munira says:
11 Jan, 2013 10:28 AM

care abu feelngs of othr iz nt a bad thng bt it hurts lot...

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kathleen says:
11 Jan, 2013 08:02 PM

yes i know. it dose i feel bad

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miles says:
31 Jan, 2013 08:43 PM

i feel for you, i really do. this same thing happened to me twice with the same girl, i don't talk to her anymore, but i know if i could go back i would really have made her happy. But then i realize the other guys i left her with, they made her happy, and as long as she is smiling, i am. but i hope you find someone you truly appreciates you, and mabye one day jason will come to his senses and run back to you.

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mile's says:
31 Jan, 2013 11:11 PM

This is very sad, and I hope things get better for you. This same thing happened to me twice with the same girl. I was so sad because I knew I could make her happy, but I realized that the 2 guys I I saw her with we're already making her happy. I don't talk to her anymore and I feel like a loser watching her from a distance, but as long as she is smiling I don't really care how feel I'm just glad she's happy. Keep me posted!

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kathleen says:
01 Feb, 2013 04:38 PM

thanks and i hope u keep in touch with me.. miles

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Manasa Saya says:
05 Feb, 2013 11:03 AM

Hey dear hai. even though i dint face any of this situation but i can feel. Life is full of opportunities never be sad of losing because another best thing will come to ur way be happy for that. surely dear you ll be happy don worry keep smiling :)

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Miles says:
13 Feb, 2013 06:09 AM

Sorry about the double post. But if you ever need someone to talk my e- mail

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