Heart broken30 Jan, 2012 12:25 AM
I thought that me and Donald will be together forever. After he arrived in Cebu, it was like our relationship goes strong. I felt in love with him everyday. I was motivated to do stuffs everyday knowing that I am deeply in love with a guy whom for three years I kept my feelings. I was then imagining what my married life would be with him. Until one time when I was with him, i got a strange feeling that somethings wrong with him. I asked him many times about it. I even asked him if he found another girl. He said no. Hearing that made me feels fine but then again as I was texting him or calling him, that sense or feeling of being cheated comes to my mind.
December 25, 2011, we met. I was so excited for that day. We shared the time together feeling like I was with him forever. Late that afternoon, I headed back home since I am leaving for Leyte that night. We kissed and parted ways. Every minute of the day, I always think with him. What he was doing, who's with him and things like that. I spent five days vacation in Leyte. When my elder brother told e that we'll be in Cebu on December 31, 2011, I felt so excited at last I will be able to see Donald again. I seldom received texts or calls from him since then.
January 03, 2012, as I was sleeping, I received a call from Manila. My cousin told me that my father died at 9pm. I was shocked! I last saw my father last October 2010. That really struck me. I cried. Deeply broken. I called Donald to share my sorrow but he was unable to answer my call. I was weeping alone. Trying to comfort myself. I was mad, very mad to everybody. I flew to Manila with my mom and two elder brothers to attend the funeral of my beloved Papa. I was there for a week but never, in a minute I forget Donald. The worst suspicious came. His phone is always busy. Donald did not bother again to send messages or call. I love him so I tried not to think negatively about it. I tried to be optimistic. January 12, 2012, i arrived in Cebu...again excited to see Donald.
January 14, 2012, 11am we met. All my sorrows and pain were relieved after seeing him. We spent again the whole time. He'd change a lot. I can feel it. Again I ask him if there's a problem and he told me nothing. The days went so fast that on January 20, 2012 he texted me that he found a new girl. It was like, my papa left me and Donald dare to do it too. I kept on asking myself why he do that. I can do nothing but cry...a one week of crying. The girl even texted me that I should stop communicating with Donald anymore. I was so mad. I wanted to let them feel what I felt. But that's life.Learn to forgive and forget. I am now in the stage of recovery and moving on. I still love him but I tried not to feel that same feelings over and over again.
I hope God will help me along the way:)
I was happy that I was able to share my emotions through writing my real life stories in this site. Hope you'll learn from it. Please feel free to send me message:)