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Don't Know What Went Wrong


02 Oct, 2011 12:46 AM

I'm sixteen at the time and no one really knows my story, i rather not tell, but it seems to be building up and i end up crying myself to sleep every night.
As far as i can remember my dad had beaten up my mom and us
(me, sister, and brother). i lived in fear that something serious would happen. it seemed every time my dad was around, things led up to argument, then the argument led to fights, then the fights led to police arresting dad, which always ends up with uncle bailing him out.
He hallucinated a lot since he was on stuff, I'm not really sure what, but he would always seem to think me and my siblings were the demons and tried to "sacrifice" us. my mom didn't do anything to stop him, i think she seemed too scared or just didn't care.
about a year passed and i was about seven, things weren't so bad, until one day i was alone with my dad at our house and i asked him for help with some homework. he was nice about it and started reading the problem and slowly putting his arm around me, i thought he was just being a dad, but that's not what his attentions were, obviously. the touches led to stuff that I'm not going to go on details. the touches happened more often and all i can do is scream, i know my family heard me, i just don't know why they wouldn't help or at least call the police. well i got pregnant when i was eleven and i was disgusted by the fact my unborn child's father was the same as mine, but i was still going to keep it. my mom called me a whore for letting this happen. my dad didn't find out until i was two months,but when he did, he got mad and beat me, i lost the baby.
the beatings got worst, my dad lost his job and couldn't afford our place so we moved into my uncles house. they also had their problems of violence and ended up kicking us out. we moved into an apartment. one day a fight was occurring, i was so sick of this and called the police. my father was charged with domestic violence and possession of drugs, since this wasn't his fist time, he had a choice: prison or deportation.of course he chose deportation, haven't heard from him since.
because my dad was the one always making the money, we were homeless for about a year. we lived in the car and would clean houses, mow lawns, and hustle for a living. we raised up money for a motel room but then my mom decided to leave. i was alone with my siblings. my sister dropped out of school in order to work and maintain us. we would lie to the school and say my mom was in a business trip and my sister was just babysitting us temporarily. i found out my sister has been selling her body and got aids. she died a year later.
so it was just me and my little brother. we are two years apart but i was the one who had to figure things out. i ended doing prostitution just to afford the motel and food. i still went to school, which seemed the only place i liked, i didn't really had any friend, i didn't like getting attached to anyone since i know they would let me down eventually, my brother was my only friend, but one day i got news at the school that my brother was run over and killed by a drunk driver when he was walking to school. they asked for my parents information in order to inform them, and that's when they found out i had no parents.
i was so sad, i realized i had absolutely no one now. they put me in foster care and up for adoption. i was adopted last year. this is the first time i have ever spoken about my past.

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doodle says:
22 Mar, 2012 10:07 AM

it sounds fake coz by now it would be all over then news and if im wrong well then its sad

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Zoe says:
23 Mar, 2012 02:35 AM

Omg tht must of been the hardest time for u. I bet u r so beautiful and wonderful and to have this happen to u is completely messed up. You lost everything and I feel so bad for u. Stay strong beautiful. Don't do anything tht u will regret. Chase your dreams and don't stop until u reach them. Stay strong and don't give up. I hope everything is ok with ur new foster parents.

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Sadness says:
23 Mar, 2012 06:05 AM

Dear My girl,

Very sorry to hear that about your life.Actually I am a person who are sadness too but i feel so pity you when you met so poor situation like that.Please think that I am a person who also sad not only you,so in this world there are more people who have problem like us.

Try your best to live in this world !

Love you and be your friend


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Grace says:
23 Mar, 2012 10:35 AM

Sometimes life is very mysterious, unpredictable and unfair..i salute your braveness. But it seems God has a good plan for you.

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Sassy says:
25 Mar, 2012 11:48 PM

I'm very sorry , I really like the fact that you were brave enough to handle life , if I was in your place I would just die !
I hope you're a muslim , cuz if you are then god would help you and make things so much better . And remember , everything in life happens for a reason and god is there for you till the end :)

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rishabh bagrecha says:
27 Mar, 2012 11:37 AM

ur life is really sad!!!
i hope u get a better future and better life ahead

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Priyanka says:
30 Mar, 2012 04:15 AM

Yr past was reall hard... I didn't even imagine anyone having such worst nd u had lived it... Gudluck 4 yr future

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Samrat says:
31 Mar, 2012 12:16 PM

Hey little grl very sad to hear about u. U know god are always with good people and u are good... Never feel sad about your past think as it was on ur fate.. Now ur adopted by a good family. U have got many things to do in ur future..

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sid says:
02 Apr, 2012 09:53 AM

if you need a friend, im always here. this goes for everyone who needs a friend. im on facebook at or email me at

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VIcky Yang says:
02 Apr, 2012 11:11 PM

Oh my , After reading this I came into tears . I hope you are doing okay now, without all those horriable thing's happening to you and you're family . You're family suffered enough , Especially you, You guys deserve to have a better life than what you guy's had way back then. I guess you were the only one who reallyy reallyy deserved it (: God is watching over you and hoping everyday you'll become stronger.. It's good that you overcame your fear on telling your story about your past , It's a big decision when your debating on telling it or not , but you went along with it and erased the horriable nightmares away (: I hope you're doing well .

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Jim Carrey says:
03 Apr, 2012 04:29 AM

I am very sad to hear what has been through your life, you dont deserve that, I am really sorry. I can get you in a better direction. Heres my info
Yours truly,
Jim Carrey

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aliesha says:
03 Apr, 2012 06:07 AM

that is so sad you poor thing hopefully your life is now going in aa good direction

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jasmin says:
03 Apr, 2012 12:34 PM

i hope that 1 day you can forgive your father .. even if he did that he is only in that kind of thing called drugs.. his just so high that he forget that your his daughter..and i wish that your happiness came to soon.. to make all your hurtfulness ease..

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Kaela Goodwin says:
03 Apr, 2012 01:56 PM

im sooo sorry. I have gone through deaths, adoptions, just like you, but never abuse. I have been unowned by my birth mothers mom. I t must hurt you very bad and i am sooo sorry, but if you decide to commit suciide, or cut yourself, remeber its not worth it. You'll lose your adoptive parents and have to go to a mental institution.

Kaela Goodwin

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Jamie says:
03 Apr, 2012 06:12 PM

Hey. Omg that is the most saddest thing ever. I been through alot too but nothing like that wow again im so sorrryyyyy :(

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Anonymous says:
09 Apr, 2012 11:49 PM

Iloveyou ik ur pain in away

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anne says:
21 May, 2012 09:03 PM

hey that was the saddest thing i ever heard good luck 4 ur future be nice :)

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Hayley says:
07 Jun, 2012 04:22 AM

OMG that must have been so hard for u to go through. It's terrible when things like that happen to adults, but when it happens to a child, then that makes it worst. I'm so sorry to hear about what happened to u and ur family. I send u hugs and lots of love <3 God bless xoxo

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lauren says:
15 Aug, 2012 10:00 PM

ohh you poor soul dw im shure things will briten up xxx

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Sarah says:
17 Aug, 2012 01:54 AM

Oh dear,that was so sad... Im really sorry... I hope u r ok now in ur new family. Its so hard to be in that situation and if i were u perhaps i would die! And never 4give myfather... But,u,be strong and try to 4get ur past. I wish u the bests. :)

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DeathByHisKiss says:
20 Aug, 2012 03:53 PM

Look to the people who don't believe this stuff is real..... IT IS. Things like this happen all the time... and we... the children that this happens to decide to keep it in because we feel that no one really cares, they don't want to listen, they'll ignore it, or worse... they won't believe you. And yes I said WE because something like this happened to me.... We all have our stories and sometimes all we need are people to listen, believe, and most of all learn from the mistakes of others.

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ray soar says:
21 Dec, 2014 05:00 AM

i am SOOOOOOOOO proud of you

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